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Webster's defines truth as:
1 a archaic : FIDELITY, CONSTANCY b : sincerity in action, character, and utterance
2 a (1) : the state of being the case : FACT (2) : the body of real things, events, and facts : ACTUALITY (3) often capitalized : a transcendent fundamental or spiritual reality b : a judgment, proposition, or idea that is true or accepted as true
3 a : the property (as of a statement) of being in accord with fact or reality b chiefly British : TRUE 2 c : fidelity to an original or to a standard
4 capitalized, Christian Science : GOD
- in truth : in accordance with fact : ACTUALLY
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September 29, 2010

I have been crying a lot the past few days. I feel depressed. I decided to take Wellbutrion today. I was researching its effects and ran across a site that offers self tests and it confirmed that I was mildly depressed. It also said this:
verbalizes pervasive negativity and loneliness concerning ones's life and relationships. Lacking in motivation to complete projects that have already begun or begin new ones; socially isolated and avoidance of communication with others; a narrow focus or preoccupation with very few facets of life; and elevated self-doubt and low self-worth/confidence.
the site is http://www.psyweb.com/Testing
4:58 pm

September 30, 2010

I am sorry that you are feeling so down MJ. Our pastor at church talked about what real truth is versus what we perceive to be truth. He talked about how in certain situations we perceive truth to be a certain way - for example as a teenager we see truth as peer pressure and that things must be right because everyone is doing whatever the behavior- but in reality truth tells you to stay away from certain things because they are wrong and will cause your body harm. Same thing as an adult - our truths can change depending upon our mindset at the time - but if we have a truth that lies deep down that is an absolute then we can rely on that as our guide and as our comfort.
That may have made no sense and we can talk later, but our emotions and thoughts can cloud what the real truth is in a situation. I'm sorry that you are hurting right now. I know a hug can't take away your frustration and pain, but hopefully it will let you know I care.
((((((((((MJ)))))))))
Love, TS
5:04 pm

September 30, 2010

I think we all go through our periods of self-doubt, especially when we've made major changes in our lives. Sometimes it's easy to feel like no one else in the world is going through what we are. I hope it makes you feel a little better to know that I identify with what you wrote about feeling isolated and outcast.
Truth is subjective in many cases. Even with some finagling, you can actually mathematically prove that 1 does not equal 1 (I say finagling because it involves a divide by zero, but that's besides the point). We each find our own truth I believe.
5:46 pm

"Reality defined:
... b : something that is neither derivative nor dependent ... "
Since all things perceived by our senses - and this includes our mental sensing - are "dependent and are derived" then, by this definition, nothing we perceive is 'real'. This is why the Buddha stated that 'ordinary' sentient beings like us are in a state of ignorance and delusion - the cause of all our suffering and dissatisfaction.
To overcome our ignorance and delusion is to know 'reality'; it is to rise above the pre-conditioning of the mind and to see what actually 'is'; it is to see, without any judgmentality of any kind whatsoever, the 'mind' in action itself .
Wow!!! What a challenge.
But who or what is it that is observing the 'mind in action'???
Hhhhheavvvyyy stuff!
6:02 pm

September 30, 2010

Perhaps the only reality that we can define is pain or pleasure? Even that has the ability to be confusing.
Trust me Tez... pain to me is real, damn put the hand in the fire, and see. Sure maybe you can hold it there longer than me, but it still hurts. Further more, I refuse to continue to experiment with walking on broken glass, and then a lemon soak, ok ? It ain't all that heavy.
6:38 pm

September 30, 2010

Anyone see the movie "The Matrix"? One of the core ideas in the movie is that we believe that things are real because our brain tells us that they are real. But then, look at people who can cope with horrific violence by fooling their brains and separating themselves from the situation they are in and not feel pain. And so their truth is different from "reality". But in the end, reality is what you perceive, so the two are the same, but not.
I think my head just exploded.
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"But who or what is it that is observing the 'mind in action'???"
I am.
When you speak, you observe yourself speaking, you are hearing the words come out of your mouth....When you type....It is the words coming from your finger tips but from a place within.... the I.
When quieting the I in a form of meditation.....the nothingness is serene....No reality to invade the thoughts. Buddhaism is intriguing.
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I have not seen the movie GL...but I like how you presented your thoughts.
Yes, to diffuse a violent horrific experience the body goes into shock or detaches and forgets. The human body is such a marvelous creation. Science is still figuring out how it works.
So, I took an antidepressant because I wanted to feel better. I hate medication but I am desparate.
11:04 am

September 29, 2010

I need to talk this out.
I don't know when exactly I started feeling depressed...it just sorta snuck up on me ever so subtly.
I know when I realized I was depressed. I was sitting in the pick up on Saturday....telling myself if I have promised to commit to never leave my husband again then my only alternative is suicide.
How crazy is that?
So after a few days of crying about nothing predominantly important...I took the antidepressant that has been in my draw since 2002 untaken.
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Three weeks ago....I quit my husband, I quit my job, then I went back to my husband and signed up for a job yesterday selling skin care. I figured that the positive influences of the company just might rub off on my bad state that I myself have created with the thoughts I have polluted my brain with. The self sabatoging thoughts.....Out of my head!
11:23 am

September 29, 2010

Has anyone ever felt like being a crazy one.....I feel a little crazy.
Remember when towardshealth was here. I could relate to him...it was so real. Why, because I had felt those same feelings.
In December, I asked to make a donation in his name....didn't happen but a photo of a dog is important.
Strange world we live in.
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