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September 30, 2010

This
is for ANYONE who wants to chat with me and discuss books, have a
coffee, lounge around, ask a question to your current crisis or for
me to do that same!
I feel it would be
nice to have two of these places around the site, and that it would
also be nice to meet new people who never posted to me and me to
them...
I invite ALL, even
those few who hate me, as long as you are polite, please join in! I
hope to have a thread where EVERYONE feels its ok to post on, cause
frankly many threads are kinda of cliquey and I see a need to have
a place where that does not happen!
Please enter and
have a cup of mocha with a gingerbread cookie, the books are
stacked, the tables are set and all we need is YOU!
12:00 am

September 30, 2010

Still
kinda of cold in here, I started a fire over in the fireplace and I
have hot drinks and cookies out for anyone who wants
one.
Thinking about
Christmas and how it is so differnt from last year and the changes
that have taken place.
Change is
sometimes good, sometimes bad but its something we can no change,
it is what it is...
Just throwing some
thoughts out to spark a converation...wondering if anyone will join
in...hoping so.
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September 30, 2010

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September 30, 2010

Hi
BFG. Nice place! 🙂 So cozy. Hope you are well. Can't stay for long
this time but was curious about your spot here so i popped in for a
sec to admire your efforts. Good job. I turned the logs so the fire
is freshly blazin'.. See ya again..love, alien
p.s. re books~I'm
re reading a book that i see OBOTO mention here and there that i
also LOVE. Feeling Good by Dr. Burns. Amazing book. It's a book on
the practical application of C.B.T. Anyway, take care and see
ya!
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September 30, 2010

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September 29, 2010

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September 30, 2010

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September 30, 2010

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September 30, 2010

You
been here awhile...MMmm. You do know of the huge fight then, right?
Are you stirring the pot? Bored? I been accused of being SOA! Now
if I was, I would be thrown off the site! Are you implying I am
someone else? Nice way to start off my new thread...you know this
place is my lifeline...do you know this? I am going to let it
go....I am trying to maintain good thoughts, and peace...and
you?
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September 30, 2010

For
the record....many have broke some very serious rules here and have
never been called out on their behavior...many who were...came back
and a few I know were banned forever...I am sorry but that is not
right...I am really tired of being told I am someone else here...I
should just leave...people will not be happy around here till I
go...thanks, I mean this is all I have...
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January 5, 2011

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September 24, 2010

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September 24, 2010

BFG,
what I am about to share I do so with love and support for your
continued growth.
When I read
Razor's post here I saw someone visiting the Book Nook and trying
to reach out in friendship by sharing an experience they had with a
previous friend that they suggest could be your friend too if they
were still around.
I did not see it
from the same perspective that you shared in your posts after that.
Based on what I have experienced from reading both you and Razor's
posts on other threads, I think that there has been a misperception
that has led to some hurt feelings.
BFG this might be
an opportunity to step back and take a different look at the
exchange that happened here today.
Perhaps try to
open up to what all the possibilities are and pick the one that
does the least amount of harm to your soul.
Maybe Razor is a
new friend wanting to connect to you and thought that bringing up a
past friend and saying that you have similar qualities to that
person is a comfortable way to say- hey, I wanna be your friend and
maybe this other person could be your friend too. That is how it
came across to me.
I think you have
unresolved hurts from previous events that are now encroaching on
your opportunities for happiness. What do you need in order to
resolve this? What steps can you take to feel comfortable and move
forward?
I support your
journey of healing and growth. I have shared this with your best
interests at heart. I hope you take it with the love in which it is
given.
Namaste
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September 24, 2010

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September 30, 2010

(puptent) (china) and (mydas)
Thank you guys so
much!
yes, Mydas, maybe
I misread what Razor meant, maybe she can clarify what we meant by
that, Its just that a few people have had ill intentions with
brining that up here. I am here cause I need to be here, and I
stand by what I said, cause it is true and its not fair. Anyhoo...
Here hoping to a new sense of peace on here and new friendships to
come!
I am trying to be
positive and look at the bright side...its not an easy thing for me
to do but what i got to lose?
I hope you guys
will stick around cause you guys have meant alot to me on here and
I hate to get to know you better! And if anyone else wants to be
join in too, I hope they feel welcomed to do so, this place for all
of us and its an easy way for people to find me as well.
I really do not
bite, that bad! hee hee! Off to hang my freshly bought garland on
my mantle now, will check in later!
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September 30, 2010

Thinking about the past, like 30 years ago, back to my first
love, why do I do this all the time? I always do this and I wish I
did not think so much cause I have a wonderful present and I am
happy...so why do I keep thinking bout life and who I was with 30
years ago? Its not like I want to go back to him, not foolish
enough to ruin my marriage and life as it is now to do that, cause
I am happy...but I really do seem to think about the old
neighborhood alot, and I even google pics of it and it takes me
back to see long ago. My first love left me for someone else, and
it took me ten years to move and I eventually got married myself...
So why do I still do this? I could never be with him anyhow, his
wife is crazy and her sister went up the river for killing a very
important political person and it was all over the news, so even If
I were to say hi to him, it would be found out and I am sure they
would use me to get to him and his family... and its not like I
even want to say hello, I just think bout the old days and etc alot
lately... It could be cause I moved back here just a few years ago
after being gone so long... He told me long ago he regretted
leaving me and thinks of me alot and that it was his terrible
mistake and that if he could take it back he would... i guess with
him he had so much passion, not lust but love for me, would write
love poems, take me out to eat at nice places, even as a 15 yr old,
he saved all his money up to make me happy...we spent six years
together and planned on being married till my mom ruined it and had
him so mad that he just up and left me, and no its not all her
fault, I do realize that now.
Why, oh why? I
miss romance maybe, being kissed and having sex? Someone to adore
me and tell me how pretty I am? That never happens now, I never
hear that and I never have hugs and kisses like that...
Am I doomed to
always be grateful for what I have or I am just not grateful enough
maybe?
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September 30, 2010

i
bought the cutest cookie cutters for making sugar cookies, they are
a six pack of very tiny christmas decorations! The cookies will be
very small, wondering if I can spread them on a plate and convince
my mind i am having more!
I am on a 1200 cal
diet a day...sure does leave on eating alot of veggies and popcorn
to just stay full but I am now fully committed and I will do it
again!
I am going to have
cookies for xmas! no one I will not fit them in someway!
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January 5, 2011

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September 24, 2010

puptent, I love pumpkin pie! Anything pumpkin actually!!
Pumpkin spice coffee, my favorite. I put pumpkin puree in my
oatmeal sometimes.
I have the
unfortunate luck to not know too many people that like pumpkin. My
ex-h doesn't like it, and my bf doesn't like it either. So, I don't
have pumpkin pie very often. No use to buy or bake a whole pie just
for me.
Your kids are so
precious! Sub sandwiches from the grocery store! Cute!!
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September 27, 2010

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January 5, 2011

china, in the far east they have a vegetable they call pumpkin,
it is small, when you cut it up the meat inside is orange. Then
they put it in a pot and boil it on top of a kerosene stove that
they use for heating in the winter. When it is cooked they add
sugar and soy sauce. Quite healthy and delicious. Pumpkin pie is
actually a complete meal. With evaporated milk, whole eggs, and
pumpkin. For me it is time consuming and the stove heats up the
whole house.
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September 30, 2010

Of
course CC! Please indulge! Heehe! I love pumpkin pie and that
sounds interesting! I lost five pds this week! Found out at my
weekly wi at curves! I now get 300 more cals a day! Suppose to
slowly increase and then decrease! I am so motivated! Friend a told
me if I did go back to ww with her I would gain all the weight
back! Ha! I don't think so! I don't need her but she likes to have
her friends all around her, she hasa two other friends that
go...that dropped out too...too bad she will have to deal with not
being the center of attention! I need to focus on me and my life
and not make her my center...I do not need her or her self
centeredness anymore! I am now at curves doing my own thing on what
I want and its now working!
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September 24, 2010

Bf
girl, I am happy for you that you are liking Curves. I have never
tried it. I need a more intense workout. Not that I have seen
exactly what is done at Curves, but I need something like a boot
camp, or a really long bike ride, otherwise I feel like I didn't do
anything.
But every little
bit counts! That's great! Congrats on the 5 lbs. My scale wants to
have a stand-off with me. It hasn't moved in 2 weeks. I want to
drop 20 lbs by April. I probably don't need to lose that much, but
me, being over-ambitious, and trying to get as lean as I can before
the next deployment. The leaner and stronger I am, then I the more
weight I can carry of my gear and equip. My thought was less me and
more gear, that way I can take more stuff with me.
My eating has gone
to hell. That's my problem right now. When I am busy, I forget to
eat, and then I have to force myself. And then when I start to eat,
I eat more than I am used to, because I was so hungry and didn't
realize it. It's like I wait until I get the tummy grumbles and the
hunger pains. I should probably set an alarm. I am sure my
metabolism is all over the place!
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