Since my divorce two years ago, I've had successive relationships with four women. The first two were heavily into the physical from day one (though no actual sex was involved). The third was spared from the physical only because the girl was a sicko who led me on and never intended to even so much as let me kiss her. I lusted after her too much to realize this until she unceremoniously dumped me after only three weeks.

I've been dating the fourth woman now for a year and a half. About two months into the relationship, we got mildly physical for a few months. Then we decided to put an end to it. We now live in the same house but don't sleep together in any sense of the phrase.

I've found that since we've made that decision, sex no longer consumes me; indeed, I could live without it the rest of my life and not miss it, yet I have no doubt that whenever we do get married, those sexual desires will return full force.

In the meantime, our love keeps growing and we continue being companions and best friends, and it is so much better now than it ever was. I've not been this happy for a long time. I don't deserve such happiness.

I just had to share this. So much has changed in my life since I was last a regular member of AAC, and I had to tell somebody.

Seeker