saddoxie,

I don't know if this will help you out at all of not - truly take from it what you will or won't....but for me - and I am only speaking about me, myself and I here and this is just my own personal experience here - so don't take it too much to heart.....

I finally got to a point where I just had to let go of any pre-conceived notions that I ever had of a GOD who was, seemingly, looking out for my own best interests and to which of whom was basically - just not really there anyway. Not really. In any shape. In any Way. In any Form.

Not really. Not ever.

Really.

And I had to finally just shrug my shoulders and think - maybe it was all just a very popular delusion the whole time.

Like Santa Clause.

Bitter pill to swallow, to be sure.

But you know what I discovered much to much surprise?

Once I finally 'let go' of this god notion stuff.....reward/punishment crap......all of a sudden it was as if an incredible weight was suddenly just lifted off right of my shoulders.

I really don't know about all this relgious stuff and such and such and what have you yada, yada, yada....what I do know FOR ME is that this mess just ain't for me.

Kept me down. Kept me stuck.

I consider myself to be a pretty non-judgemental person. Open to just about anything anyone has to say along these lines and figure I give them a whole bunch of leadway in which to express/prove their point.

I'm sorry. But this whole god thing just doesn't cut it for me.

For you maybe - and that's cool. If it works for you - then I say, all the more power to ya honey, really and truly.

But for me personally after weighing all the pros and cons all the way around.... - It just doesn't seem to fly for me anymore..........