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11:53 pm
September 29, 2010
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Just know that I love you...I can't ask you to tell me if I am right because I can't be certain of what is or isn't safe to say anymore...
It is too late for LL to come back tonight...I am so confused...She has to be to work in 8 minutes
11:56 pm
September 30, 2010
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isn't she work midnight central time?
11:58 pm
September 29, 2010
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I think she goes in at 11 though doesn't she? Or is it 12?
11:58 pm
September 30, 2010
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mich, I am felt so close today of doing whatever it takes to leave but only with our email addresses, so we could really contact each other...but that is an individual decision and I understand...plus LL says, that this will pass...but in my heart, I am not sure...so much sadness and pain here
11:59 pm
September 30, 2010
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I thought she went to work at midnight central time, but not sure...
12:00 am
September 29, 2010
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I don't know that I will EVER be comfortable being me here again...
12:01 am
September 29, 2010
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I asked the s/c a question and I will not make my decision without an answer to that first. So it is going to depend on when s/he answers that question...
12:02 am
September 30, 2010
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mich, I feel the same, just trying not to make a rush decision here...but the bonds of friendship are still solid...
12:04 am
September 30, 2010
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guess you can't tell me here...mich, you and I have to be careful because we are sensitive and emotional...we have to make decisions not just for today, but for the future...and mich, I would like you to be in my future...
12:06 am
September 29, 2010
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It would make me sad to leave a lot of the people here. No doubt about that. BUT, my sisters are major important to me. So I have to figure this out. But you are back to what is the point of staying if I can't be me. It is only a matter of time before this becomes a problem again...
I just want to cry this all out. Once again, I feel like I learned to love and trust, to have it ripped out of my life. And for what? People that didn't give a shit onthe first place...oh, the more i think about it, the more pissed I get.
12:08 am
September 29, 2010
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That is one of the most important things on my mind in this whole decision. If I knew that I could still talk to the four of you, regardless of your decisions, I would turn in now. I am not certain that I want to be surrounded by people that care so little about what this has done to all of us. I don't know...
12:14 am
September 30, 2010
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You know what I don't understand...All of a sudden this concern that came about...where was the concern when I told my story, your child abuse story, need's child abuse story, cyn's story, LL's life story????? The concern is over our dependence on each other? I didn't see of them, the ones giving advice today, popping in concerned when we told our storie...yes, people like mamac, strong, army, and others supported us..I am sorry...I disagree with all of this...but, no one listened to me at all, just got chastised for voicing my opinion and sent to the other side of the Berlin Wall!
12:16 am
September 30, 2010
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Yes, I am still upset everyone...Yes, I am very sensitive...sorry!!! That's right, everyone wants apologies...but the sisters don't need to apologize to each other...we allow each other to feel...
12:18 am
September 30, 2010
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See, everyone, I have grown on this thread...never expressed my opinion until this last week or so...I let others do it for me because I was too scared...My sisters gave me confidence in myself...sorry, that bothers some of you...
LL, please come and tell me to shut up..
12:19 am
September 29, 2010
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you know what I think is sad...A little girl (16) has a thread on the other side....about being molested...it has been there all day...there are 40 some odd posts to that thread....and 35 of them are between her and I. Don't tell me that I don't extend myself outside of this box. Even with all of the bullshit going on here today...I did. I tried to help this little girl who needs someone to listen, some advice...so as to who reaches out to the "newbies"....,is sure as hell ain't lolli or the rest...
12:19 am
September 30, 2010
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mich, are you still here, been holding this in all day, waiting for you...and now, mad, mad, mad...and yes, very sad...
12:21 am
September 29, 2010
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you don't need to shut up gg. Maybe it is time to stand up for ourselves...I am sure that there will be growth in this somewhere....but the devastation is more than i can handle...I am just merely disappointed in some of the people that have treated us like this.
12:21 am
September 30, 2010
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Mich, today, I am so sorry to say, i couldn't handle that thread, I tried...too close to tomorrow...
12:22 am
September 29, 2010
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I first reached out to her, I first reached out to Friendma, I first reached out to Daeja, one of the first to reach out to whitedove...this makes me ill
12:23 am
September 30, 2010
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mich, my parents do have a computer, and I am going to check in when I can, but I don't think anyone that cares will be around...
12:24 am
September 29, 2010
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gg, that isn't the point. I understand that. Please note, that I did NOT call you over there. BUT, how much conversation do you see between some of the people making these complaints to reach out to the new people...NONE.
12:24 am
September 29, 2010
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I will be. When are you coming home?
12:25 am
September 30, 2010
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mich, yes you do reach out a lot...I know this,,,you are a very caring soul...I think many were bothered by our relationship...the goodnite issue I had and how close we had...that is just what I am getting from reading but I could be wrong, but don't think so...
12:28 am
September 30, 2010
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I will be home Fri eve. probably around 6:00cst...Today was so screwed up and I am so behind on everything, yet physically limited right now which makes things worse.
12:29 am
September 29, 2010
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Let me tell you a small secret, that I really am not sure is or ever had been a secret...I DON'T GIVE A DAMN. There are things all over this place that I don't agree with. But, that doesn't make them wrong. Amazing to me, how one can tell someone to go ahead and kill themself..and that is treated as acceptable...yet we can't have what we have always wanted and that is someone to hold us and say goodnight to us. WTF?
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