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September 30, 2010

thanks light, what a nice welcome, and so badly needed now....
(LL) (mich) (cyn) (need),,,love you...I am still at loss and deeply hurt and the only thing keeping me here is you four...I do attend coda meetings regularly now (you hear that out there?) I am too upset to talk. It is NOT that I need your your friendship and support; I WANT your friendship and support...and there is a difference...with love and many tears here, gg
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mich, I have cried more than ever the last 24 hours, but there is other stuff too going on...i have not gotten this off my mind all day...even ruined two desserts because I couldn't keep my mind on what i was doing...It doesn't matter what i say here, no one understands and I think it is NOT their business! I do feel publically humiliated and sorry out there listening, I am oversensitive...but don't think you care anyway!!!
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September 29, 2010

I am so broken hearted over what my psychologist believed to be a good thing. This makes me sick. gg, I do not know. Part of me really wants to go, part of me doesn't know what I want. This makes me abolutely sick. I would give it all up, if I could still have contact with LL, you, Cyn, and Need....
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mich, guess twins think alike...I feel the same way...I felt safe on that thread to open my heart and empty my thoughts and now, if I stay, I don't feel that way...so can I feel supported here? if I am guard here? I don't know...I am sure LL is staying and I can't leave her either...
I don't mich...I was hoping I could have this resolved tonight because tomorrow is going to be a very hard day and I just don't need this too...mich, I do want your friendship and want you in my life...I love you mich...
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September 30, 2010

I think need is okay here, but going through a very depressed state...
Cyn is a trooper, so strong, but is hurt, and went back and talked on the hurting thread that I cannot go back to...don't know if she will be back on tonight...
I really think LL will check in before she goes to work tonight; she usually does
Mich, I don't care what they say, you are so important in my life and I don't want to lose you...
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September 29, 2010

honestly I almost feel betrayed...I feel like everything that I have trusted in and everything is gone...people who don't give two shits about any of us, felt like they should destroy us. For what? I have shared my heart here....I have emptied my closet, and only to be told that the way I am dealing with it is wrong again. Where the funny thing there is, my psychologist thought that it was wonderful. How does this work? I am so hurt and so confused that there are not words.
11:44 pm

September 29, 2010

I really don't give a shit what anyone thinks of you and i. I truly don't. PERIOD. Our sisters accepted us just the way that we were, and that is that. That is what made us close. We didn't judge each other..we could say anything. We tought each other to love, laugh and hold. I am so sad by all of this.
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