Is it possible to be sexually abused as a child and not remember it? When I was around 6 or 7 I used to ask boys if they were going to put their "weenies" in my mouth and if they were going to pee in my mouth. I was never sure if the idea excited me or scared me. I was very sheltered as a child, so I don't know where I would have gotten these ideas. Also, I was very depressed when I was young and had thoughts about suicide. As I got older I have had trouble looking men in the eye and I have very particular sexual tastes now that I am an adult, such as choking and humiliation. I don't have any memories of being sexually abused as a child, but I have a very vague memory of having a big dirty thumb pushed in my mouth which makes me very uncomfortable. Any insight would be appreciated.