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idk if I need counceling or if im just overly dramatic or something :/
September 22, 2013
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Okay. Im 21. When I was an infant I was physically abused. Broken ribs, fractured skull. Cps took me. I ended up getting adopted. It did affect me when i was young. I didnt eat for a long time. I had a nasal gastro tube which changed to just a gastro tube. (Directly into my stomach.) I was happy (for the most part) until 5th grade. In the middle of the year I changed schools. At my old school i was popularish. Had friends at least. My new classmates made fun of me all the time. I hated it. I discovered the 'hotel' of books, and checked out of the real world.
Life continued until the summer after freshman year in hs. I had been confused about puberty and sex. Took my sis' underwear to wear cuz I thought it would help me understand a girls perspective. I peeped cuz I was curious. Thats where I drew my line. I wouldnt dare do anything. I strongly believed in sex after marriage.
Summer after freshman year my adopted parents threw me away into a sex offender group home. They told me I would become a serial killer.
2 years later I was put into a 'therapeutic' foster home. At 18 I went to a bible 'boot camp' place. I dont believe at all so having to do church all day and read the bible all the time was hard to deal with. My adopted fam never contacted me again.
6-7months later i moved with a friend. I screwed that up by not doing chores. My choice. So, I took the consequences and hit the streets. About 4 months went by and I got my ged. Got a job. A gf. A nice apartment. Nice stuff. Then it was all stripped from me. I lost my job. My gf was too lazy to work. She took all my stuff and left on the last day of the lease. The next day my bio gma flew me out of state. I lived with my bio mom, watched my bio brother get married. Learned that he grew up on a small ground spot in the basement. My sis was molested by my moms bf and is in cps. 6 mths later I was in a dif state with my bio aunt. Was there 7 mths and work sucked. Now im back where I grew up.
I feel mentally and emotionally exhausted. For once in my life I cant even find the strength to tell myself to keep going. I dont have the strength to tell myself that it will be okay. Im gonna keep going. I have to. I just dont know how much longer I can keep this up. I feel like im approaching the end of the line and a mental breakdown is right around the corner.
Im tired. Ive been strong the whole time. But now im tired.
I will keep going. I just think I need hell moving past all of this. Keep in mind ive cried maybe..3 times since freshman year. So very little has been able to vent out.
I finally cant do it alone. Im finally asking for help.

January 7, 2014
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September 5, 2014
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