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Why are parents so frustrating?
September 5, 2002
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Urghhh I need to vent! I'm so frustrated with my Mum!

I get home (by 'home' I mean my Dad's) last night to basically trip over a massive pile of my books and clothes stuffed in shopping bags and dumped on my front door step. Yeah, thanks Mum - never mind the fact that someone could have stolen it; I'm really delighted that someone's being pawing through my possessions. She touched my books. She knows I love my books more than anything and that I hate people touching them.

And anyway for f*$%*s sake! Why? Yes, 'officially' I don't live at my Mum's house anymore at least not in the sense that I call it my 'home base', but I still have a bedroom there (well as far as I'm aware!) and on occassion I do stay for a few nights. Every time I go there it's always strewn with other people's bullshit anyway and then she wonders why I don't want to stay there...ahh yeah maybe because when I open my door I can't even find my friggen bed because it always has the unfolded laundry on it! It's not like my stuff was BOTHERING her. It was in my room! Most of it was in boxes in the far corner which would have taken a mammoth effort to get to anyway. I can understand from the point of view that given that I don't stay there very much, the space could be put to better use, BUT what is so HARD about ringing me up and asking me to come collect my stuff? She's always giving me crap about being so 'uncontactable'...yeah like she doesn't know my Dad's home number, my office number, my bf's home number, work number and mobile number and both my brothers work near by and know where my office is so could drop a message off to me if necessary! Funny how it's always so easy for her to contact ME when SHE wants a favour done. Apart from which I saw her on Sunday - never made any mention of my possessions irritating her then! If she asked I would have been more than happy to do so. I even offered to a few months ago and she said it was fine.

I don't really care that she's decided she wants me to move my stuff up (probably about time really) but the way she does it - like I'm being kicked out. I'm sick of that. I'm sick of being pushed out just because she gets annoyed with me being there. She did that too often when I was a kid. The few times when I really needed a mother because my life felt screwed up her level of support was tell me that I was being a selfish, sulky bitch and that she didn't want me in her house anymore and ordered me to pack what I could carry with the rest remaining as her property.

And then she wonders why I don't want to be around her anymore. Because I'm sick of her controlling and manipulative attitude and her ranting and rages. I'm sick of being accused of being a neglectful daughter because I don't ring her - like she doesn't have a phone too?! I'm sick of her making me feel like crap because I have a boyfriend - someone who for the first time in about 14 years has actually made me happy and loved me for who I am. Why can't she be happy for me? Instead she tells me how my brothers hate me because I always with him and made to feel like a naughty little girl for staying at my bf's house ("Don't you ever sleep at home"? Don't you talk to your father?" Hmmmm *frowny face*). Well I'm almost 24! I don't live in your house. I don't have to follow your rules. I can make my own decisons and my own mistakes. And I'm sick of being told 'I forgot I had three children! I thought I only had two!'

And now I have a migraine *grumble*

September 5, 2002
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Hi.

I don't really know your whole situation, since I'm fairly new on the board. It's good to see some honest-to-goodness venting though!

Just for my two cents worth, looks like your Mom is making a statement and looking to get the last word in. She knows you'll be angry. She did it for dramatic affect.

You could look at it this way: At least you have your stuff and, without her 'holding' a room for you, your out of her control area.

Maybe you could call her and tell her that you 'received' your things and that you would have appreciated a phone call (preferably on the answering machine). Then you would have an opportunity to tell her how you want to establish the future of your relationship together (i.e. YOU setting the boundries). I'm not sure of your schedule (at 24 years old I was constantly busy!), but you could let her know you'll ring her every Saturday around noon (or whenever) and that you weren't sure why she didn't give you a chance to move your stuff. That when you call on 'Saturday' you both could discuss it.

Keeping the temper in check or appropriate response is probably the hard part. Especially when you talking about a relationship with a lot of baggage.

Uh Oh, I am doing my co-dep thing here by trying to solve your problems, so I'll make a quick exit.

Whatever you do, good luck!

September 5, 2002
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Mom's acting out that is for sure, there is some hurt in all that drama.
Mom's are people too, and darn wonder where we got that thing that the kids are supposed to call us ? Maybe the movies, maybe my mom, not that my kids call me enough, and they say some thing like you, but heck, we are easier to find, no ?
Look your 24, try to love your mom for what she is, and let go of the what she isn't . She is human, prone to issues of abandonment, manipulative, angry, what ever... let some time pass, take a deep breath, then call say hi, and bye, and that is all you have to do for the rest of your life, just kinda let her know your alive. Its really sad when us moms go crazy, hormonal, lonely, what ever it is, we aren't supposed to go there ever, and when we do we usually over do it. It really had to hurt moms aren't supposed to do things like that. Thank goodness you do have your dad, brothers and boyfriend, for support. I wouldn't ring her for a while though, I am sure she has something going on for her to act out like that, but that isn't your problem. Take care of you.

September 5, 2002
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She's hurting and feeling lonely. Is that your fault? No. Are her actions justified? No. But I'm a mother and I read between these lines so easily..........I too get angry inside if my children are unhappy. Hmmm It's because I love them. Some is selfishness also(one of my weaknesses). As you get older you will begin to see your mother as another woman, a human being and so full of mistakes, emotions, and yes manipulative actions. There will come a time where you will need to let all this go and move beyond it.....it'll more than likely be you who will have to change HOW you see things. Is this fair? No. Life usually isn't. But with some time, maturity that comes with your own mistakes, emotions, and misplaced anger you will identify just alittle more with her as a woman. This can change. Call your mother, tell her you love her. Not saying that you should always be her "helper" and let her do whatever.......oh not at all. I strongly suggest setting boundaries......just after the love is shown though. That has to come first. I believe if you dig real deep inside of you, you can forgive, try to understand and think of the "best" way to handle your relationship with your mother. Don't let this push you away from her.......I just sense she needs ya. I know that she "should" be the one there for you......I feel the same way with my mother, but sometimes the "shoulds" in life just ruin what might have been, something more beautiful than what we ever thought. Begin now to set boundaries, show more love, and don't add fuel to the fire. It's part of growing up. Call your mom.

September 5, 2002
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When I left on one of my "adventures" last year, I had all of my stuff stored at my mothers house in her spare bedroom and I had it all packed away. I wasn't even gone a month and she had gone through every single box and repacked everything the way she wanted it. It pissed me off. Why did I spend so much time packing my things if she was going to go through it anyway. I had very very private things. that is the last time I store anything of mine where she has access.

September 5, 2002
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Hi Squeez,
I deal with the same thing, but it's my father. He always gets upset if I don't call, it use to be everyday I had too, now i have it down to a week or he'll freak out. And I get the "don't I have a daughter anymore? I don't even know you?" Please I'm 30 years old, I have a life, cut the damn unbilicale cord (however you spell that) and accept the fact that I am not and never will be what you want me to be. I am me!!

So, my therapist said it is a codependent thing. Parents can be so dependent on us for their happiness and until they realize that we are adults and need a life for ourselves, nothing will change.

You mum seems like she needs alot of attention from you and it's not fair. Maybe talking to her calmly saying that you love her but need time to grow on your own and by pushing you away like she did only makes matters worse. It was childish of her to do that to you, what kind of statement was that anyway?

I can't change my Dad but I can stop letting it get to me. Don't feel quilty leaving the nest either, cause it's the only way you grow. They just have to realize it and if they want to do it the hard way that's their choice, not yours.

hope that made some sense.

September 5, 2002
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Ran into Mum last night. She made some comment about her dropping my stuff off and I asked her why - she said "because I needed those drawers and since we (my brothers and her) only see you once a month we're obviously not worthy of your attention so I decided there was no point in you having your stuff there'. I said 'OK. That's fine. All you had to do was ask, instead of going through my stuff like I'm dead and dumping it because you didn't want it anymore. You could have asked me on Sunday when you saw me.' She didn't have an answer to that one.

It hurts so bad. All my life my Mum has abandoned me. When I was 11 she woke us at 6am screaming that she was leaving and left. She didn't tell us where she was going. A few weeks later my younger brother and I saw her at some traffic lights near our house. She waved and we expected her to pull over and stop to talk to us. She didn't. She drove right off into the distance. We ran after her as fast as we could screaming for her to stop. I can't articulate the pain I felt. Even thinking about it now makes me cry. And at 14 - I was depressed - my family was screwed; my life in general was screwed - I complained about hanging washing out on the line at 8am on a Saturday. She ordered me to pack what I could carry; leave the rest and go because she didn't want to see me anymore. I packed. I went to say goodbye to brothers. They thought it was a joke and wouldn't look at me (that still hurts) and I left. There I am carrying my school bag, school books and a suitcase walking the 5kms to my Dad's house. I was so hurt but I was strong - I didn't cry until I was at least a km away. She's done the same when I was 15, 16, 18, 20, 22 - whenever we (well usually me) annoyed her she would say 'That's it. Leave. Go stay at your father's. I don't want you here.' You are allowed to kick someone out because they grumble about doing the dishes or because they're in a bad mood because they had a hard day at school/uni or because they're upset because their parents got divorced? I said that once - "I'm having a hard time dealing with you getting divorce". Her response? "Lots of kids parents get divorced. You're not the only one. Get over it. Now help me do the dishes."

Why were you never there for me Mum? I would have been a truly messed up human being if my Dad didn't care for me and loved me unconditionally, not just when I was 'good'.

I decided to move out about 3 years ago. I couldn't handle the constant moving from one parent to the other; I couldn't handle her constant digs at my Dad, I couldn't handle her uncontrollable rages, I couldn't handle her total domination ("You will wake up at 7.30am and do the dishes, then go to uni, but make sure you are home at 6pm where you will cook the tea and then stay up and talk to your family - no going out; no going off to your room to read, to play the computer, no using the phone, and what do you mean you can't research, prepare and write a 3000 word essay in one week anyway?"). I couldn’t handle her controlling attitude: When my bf and I first started going out, I was 'away' a fair bit. She rings me up and tells me that my younger brother (who I love more than myself) is angry with me and in fact HATES me for not spending time with him. I think 'Oh no' and I go out of my way to spend time with him and do things he likes, every time I do it gets knocked back 'Do you want to kick the footy?' "no"; 'Do you want to play chess?' "no"; 'Do you want to watch a movie?' "no"; 'Do you want to play pool?' "no"; 'Do you want to play a computer game?' "no"; Do you want to go get pizza, my shout?' "no" - this went on for months - finally I asked him "Are you angry that I don't spend as much time with you as I used to?' "No. Doesn't really bother me." I challenge my Mum. She finally admits that she THOUGHT that that was how he would have felt so that's why she said it. My older brother is somewhat uncomfortable around my bf. My Dad buys tickets to the movies. My Mum decides that my dad won't be taking them to the movies (as he usually does) instead she wants me and bf to take them (because of an issue she has with my Dad). I say 'Fine. I'll organise it'. It was arranged that I would speak to bf and see if that's OK; I'd speak to Dad and see if that's OK; then I'd ring my bros and INVITE them to come with us - invite so they don't feel pressured to come with us in case that made them feel uncomfortable. What does my Mum do? Before I get a chance to ask them she TELLS them you're going with them. So what happens? Both of my brothers are shitty at me and my bf - so instead of it being us doing them a ‘favour’ they resent us and my older brother won't say a word in the car and then storms off when we get to the cinema. This pisses my bf off because he's done a nice thing and is made to look/feel like crap.

I just couldn't do it. I was sick of the criticisms. I used to stay there a few times - obviously not as much as she liked, but simply because I was made to feel guilty for not being there ("I bought a new toaster - oh not that you'll know, you haven't been here for MONTHS"). She never rang me, but everytime I rang her it would be "Ohh I didn't think I'd hear from you. I thought you were dead". That was the first thing she said EVERYTIME I rang her. How is that going to make me want to be around her? Everything she does is to blame me for not seeing her or calling her - yet all she does is push me further away. It's hard to ring my Mum up because she works nights and I don't want to risk waking up. I do ring her every few weeks to chat. The only time she's rung me is to get me to run a message to one of my brothers because she couldn't contact him. Whenever I go and stay at her place – I’m never made to feel welcome. All it is is ‘Do this, do that. You’re brothers did a lot of housework/gardening over the weekend, you know, so you need to make up for that’ - never mind the fact that I do basically all the housework at my Dad’s house and half of it at my bf’s house each week. My brothers don’t talk to me – if I try to have a conversation with them I get ‘Shut up. We’re trying to watch TV’. So I think ‘OK. I’ll go to my room and read a book.’, but then I’m not being with the family – never mind the fact that my brothers come home at 7pm, demand tea, eat it, watch TV and won’t let anyone talk to them and then fall asleep on the couch or go to their rooms to play their computers. Or they’ll organize to go to the movies together and not invite me (even though I’m there at the time), or when I’m not there they’ll open the box of chocolates we were given for Christmas and eat my share (not save it) because that’s my fault for not being there. And then if I get upset and say that I don’t feel like I’m being treated like I’m wanted or I belong to the family my mother will gloat and say ‘but we only do that because you never act like you’re part of the family’. Yet when it suits her, I am. Like the time that she needed to clean the house up because it was getting sprayed for termites. My presence is DEMANDED so I can help (ignoring the fact that when my Dad had a tenant inspection I ALONE tidied the entire house, including the kitchen cupboards and my brothers bedrooms with neither one of them feeling compelled to come over to help out). And even though I worked basically 12 hours a day cleaning up my family’s (not my) crap up and even tidied up my Mum’s room while she lay in bed and watched, I got criticized because while she was in the shower I had a 15 minute break and rang my bf. And never mind the fact that my older brother has stayed/visited my Dad’s house, oh maybe a total of 7 nights in the last 9 years. HE still has a room at my Dad’s house and is always welcome. I challenge my Mum on that – why is it not bad for him to never see my Dad but it’s a national tragedy if I don’t see you? Her answer: ‘He never sees ‘your father’ because ‘your father’ never gives the impression he wants to see him’. Oh so the fact that my Dad doesn’t go into a sulky rage and demand that his son visit him or he’ll be disowned means that my Dad never wants to see his own child? I don’t think so.

Anyway, I know I’m ranting on, I’m just sad that the only person my Mum ever seems to care about is her. She has no knowledge of how her actions hurt other people. I once tried talking to her about how hurt I was how she kicked me out when I was 14 – she denied it even happened and dismissed it because she couldn’t remember it so therefore it must not have been that big a deal.

I still have a lot of stuff there. She’s going away next week for 10 days on a holiday so I’m thinking of using that time to get the remainder out, or at least packed up, although I don’t want her to come home and be sad about how I’ve just up and left in her absence. Maybe I’ll ring her in a few days when I calm down.

September 5, 2002
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Squeezles thats nothing, you know what my mother did when she wanted me out..she hacked up my bed which was a beautiful pine four poster antique bed that i brought myself, with an axe.
Now hows that for psycho and evil.

September 5, 2002
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Not trying to deny that my life hasn't been generally good - I know and I'm sure other people had it far worse then I did.

I'm just trying to say 'This is what happened to me; This is why I'm sad'.

Can't you at least give me that? It's my hurt. Surely the fact that I'm hurt is valid in itself?

September 5, 2002
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Whatever Blondie said, I will stand behind...Some people have experience, some people have common sense...Blond, has both.

September 5, 2002
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Parents are frustrating all your life..so, take some good advice...get over it...XXXOOO

September 5, 2002
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I hear you. She sounds alittle emotionally unstable to me. She sounds selfish. I do understand, gosh alot of it sounded like my own relationship........and it hurts. Oh God how it hurts! I'm so sorry that you have to go through this pain. Now end the pain, realize that you can't change her, you can't MAKE a person, even your own mother, understand that you love them and have been hurt........you can't MAKE it happen when they don't choose to see it. It's her choices.....her life. Her loss also. All you can do now is focus on growing up, learning, living right, loving all you can. I hurt alot over this also with my own mother.......but now you can start to give yourself all that you needed so desperately from her. End the "trying to fix everything". Just let it go. I know it's not easy. It took me 2 yrs to make a "healthy" break. It took my honesty, my determination, and my decision to forgive and love also. It is better now only because I am better now. Can you understand that? God, I hope you can. I really will have you on my mind and in my heart. I hear you. I apologize to you for her. "I'm sooooo sooooo sorry"

September 5, 2002
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Sygc. or whatever..your slang, not mine..look, don't talk in forked tongues here..be yourself..we are not the friends at work at at the club, so be frank..AND BELIEVE IT OR NOT A LOT OF US ON THIS THREAD ARE PARENTS SO WE HAVE THE OTHER SIDE OF THE STORY...DO YOU WANT TO HEAR IT????

September 6, 2002
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Sheesh Irish. Ignoring the fact that this is 'my' thread (because I think it applies to all cases) - keep the comments on the thread itself instead of bringing other issues on to it (That's one of the guidelines after all). Attacking other people over slights that have happened in the past is rude, it removes from the thread and since most people are posting a thread because they are in pain and want some feedback/advice/support from the others here I think it is unfair.

I didn't really post this thread expecting any feedback/support but I really appreciate what I have received. I was feeling really sad about this - yes I know it isn't *really* a big deal to have a couple of bags of your belongings dumped on your doorstep by your mother, BUT her doing that has brought up lots of issues for me - her crap that I've had to deal with over the last 15 odd years. Like I can't *truly* know each person's situation (only the person who's life it is can); you can't *truly* know all the dynamics of my life either.

Trust me I'm lucky. I know that. I wasn't molested by my father, my parents aren't drug addicts, they haven't gambled my house away, I wasn't sold into prostitution by my family, I've never been mugged at gun point, I've never been raped, I've never been divorced, I've never lost a child, my bf has never hit me and my father often didn't buy me food, but I never starved, but hell, in my way I've suffered. Then again, my mother once threw a cake tin, complete with freshly baked cake (that I made of course) at my head. And yes it hit and yes it bloody hurt. Maybe that means that I qualify for some support under the 'child abuse' banner? All I ask is that instead of being compared to a general list of 'bad crap that can happen in your life' and being diagnosed as 'Well you only come halfway up the 'you've had a fucked up childhood' ladder so it doesn't count' that my hurt/pain be taken at face value. I have no other life to compare with. This is my life. If it's painful for me; can't people just accept it's painful for me instead of making it a contest over who had it worse? That doesn't make me feel validated at all. It makes me feel ignored. I don't expect people's sympathy; I don't want to be told 'There, there dear, it will be alright in the morning' It just helps to know that people HEAR it and aren't judging me.

That said, THANK YOU Sygq. What you wrote me cry. I appreciate you saying that. I can't express how much what you wrote means to me - that someone heard; that someone can understand; that someone doesn't tell me I'm a whiny little sook; that someone validated my feelings. Thank you so much. And thank you also to the other people who posted. I appreciate all your comments.

Irish, I don't know what is going on and I don't care. You don't have to post here and in fact I would prefer that if you didn't have any useful comment to the situation that you didn't. I respect you as a person, so all I ask is that you respect me and the fact that now is a somewhat difficult time for me. I can't handle the bullshit at the moment. Please.

September 6, 2002
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Hi again. Your welcome. I do hear you. My mother has been married 4 times. Alcoholics, beaters, you name it. I was always at one grandma's or another. She loved me.....just didn't SEE me. Does that make sense? I forgive her. I don't have "memories" of bonding with my mother. None actually. Just being there with her. No playing dolls together, no picnics, no long talks. No favorite shows together. Nadda. The most vivid memory is when I stayed with my grandma for the whole summer.........my mom was with an abusor 2 states over. She comes to get me at the end of the summer and walks in and goes to the bathroom, comes out and I'm sitting at the kitchen table drawing(I always drew and colored pretty pictures for her) anyhow.....she came out went to kitchen cabinet and got her something to drink(still said nothing) and sat down and was talking for a long time to my grandma and got up to go get her things from the car.........I can't do this. I'll stop there. She wasn't as happy to see me as I wanted and needed. It was that way my whole childhood it seems. Then I become an adult and she wants and needs me sooooo much then. It hurts. Oh God it hurts. But I forgive her. I have come to see all her weaknesses. Her emotional hangups (because we all have them) I stopped judging her and started loving her as a person. Well on this threads especially in the copd I posted of her drug addictions and how I took care of her and felt used soo many times. I am now 2 hrs away and me and my mom are closer now. As close as WE can be. Not like I would want and need, but alot better. I do love her. I know she loves me. Sorry to come on here and talk about me now. I just want you to see that you are not alone, alot of us children have been hurt, then we grow up and have children of our own. I chose to LEARN from my childhood and make my relationships with my kids better. Am I a perfect parent? No. But I give to them what I wanted and needed. I stopped the chain of alot of things. I learned to never let any man hit me or curse me. And I have never allowed it. Well I'll check in later to see how you are. Take care of yourself.

September 6, 2002
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Blondie, after reading your responses things that you have said to me make more sense now. Especially, when I consider the ethnic stuff in the neighborhood that you live in. My husband is Italian so I have some perspective. You all right in that many mothers love their children, yes even crack whores, I know this from working with a few. But as I have learned, love is more than a feeling it is a behavior. Despite all of this, I often feel guilty for not fully respecting my Mom and my Dad, too. I hope that some distance will soften the anger and I will hopefully be able to accept both of them for who they are. I have to take contol of my repsonses to their crap and not set them up for abuse. See, children can abuse, hurt and manipulate their parents, too. Best wishes, Squeezles!

September 6, 2002
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Squeeze,
I read your last long thread ((HUGS))

I feel your pain sweety, wish I could come over with some pizza and ice cream and a good movie so we can veg and stuff our faces!!!

Your mum is and probably always will be an emotional wreck and doing this to you is not fair!!!! But, by accepting the fact that she is this kind of person and it's not your fault, you can't change her might give you some peace.

xo

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Blondie,

Thank you! I'm doing well. Its hard to believe that my son is 2 months old now! I'm in a good place, damned happy with my life! This has been a very helpful forum we me to go and grow some, too! I working on lightening up and not taking it all so serious. I'm doing a better than average job, I must say! Take Care and it was great to hear from you!!

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Hi Squeezles,

I'm so sorry sweetie, these things you describe are *tough* to get through, and tough to get over. I'm not sure if any of us really "get over" it, more like move around it and walk away from it.

Your pain is very real, and very valid. All of our experiences are of course different and hurt in their own ways. It's like hitting someone on the arm. If someone has no bruises there, the hit is more an annoyance, but if someone has already been hit there before, or has a black and blue mark, or a broken bone, it sure as hell hurts. Ouch!

You should be very proud of the woman you are growing into and have grown up to be. Your mom will always be herself, will always have to deal 24x7 with who she is, at least you don't have to deal with that day in and day out. Your mom will eventually get over your leaving the nest, just like all the moms here are saying. And as hard as this is, try not to take her acting out right now as a personal attack, although anything like that coming from a mom feels like that. Stand firm, be polite, speak from your adult, be understanding, and let her have her anger.

Big hug out to you Squeezles.

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Squeezles,
I read your posts and my heart was touched. I'm so sorry that all of this happened to you. Mother/daughter relationships are hard enough as it is. You are also entitled to your feelings no matter what! Some people can be so harsh to say, "get over it!". I suppose, there does come a point to realize, how are we going to deal with our pasts that hurt us? However, you are still more than entitled to your feelings and no one can take that from you. I know I've been fortunate in life and have had some bad breaks (like most people). Unfortunately, some people feel the need to compare their wounds in order to make sure theirs are worse. Here you are pouring your heart out and unfortunately some of the responses have been harsh. At the same time, I think everyone's intentions are good. Everyone's at a different level in communication skills, especially with what people have been through. The only thing I can contribute after this rambling is that you can't change anyone else or your past. Sometimes we have to start parenting and taking care of ourselves. Actually, I have been trying to parent myself over the last few months and it sounds weird, but I feel more confident and secure. Anyway, good luck with everything and Take Care!
~SuzyQ 🙂

September 7, 2002
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Squeezles, I owe you a big "I am sorry". My issues with my daughter run deep and i obviously took it out on your thread. You are hurt and confused by your mother's actions. I hope you both can work it. I didn't read the entire thread, just your first post and jumped the gun.

September 7, 2002
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syqg is healing:)

September 7, 2002
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So true Blondie! Blondie is healing too!!!!!!! Whoohooooooo Got my hair highlighted today! Yippeee where's the bar.........church tomorrow! 🙂
Just kidding(but boy oh boy I could go out if it was about 10 yrs ago) hehe I love you Blondie.

September 7, 2002
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Hey squeeze,
Just wondering how everything is going? Did you have a talk with your mum?? Hope your well ((hug))

September 7, 2002
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Awwo!

Yeah I'm doing good! My bf and I got our potraits drawn yesterday and I've been laying in bed till 11.30 looking it at! :o)

I've decided not to call my Mum up because I don't want to get angry with her and I don't want her to dismiss any of my comments (like she usually does when things get uncomfortable) so I am going to write her a letter telling her that I was upset/disappointed with what she did, that I love her but I can't live with her and so I'm going to start packing my stuff up when she goes away next week.

Don't know what else I can do. It's my life. I need to live it how I want. Hopefully she'll agree to us making tentative arrangements to having dinner/coffee every month or so.

Not looking forward to having to cart 600 books though!

Thanks for your comments. Thanks for hearing me. Sorry for dribbling on endlessly about my childhood.

Sygq - hope your daugher is OK :o)
Irish - it's OK...all things are forgiven/forgotton. I'm sorry for your hurt and I'm sorry I reacted the way I did. Hope your doing well.

Seeya all on Monday.

S

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