I am here for the first time and moved enough to sign in. I wanna say thank-you EVERYBODY for making me feel understood and that I am not alone in what I am dealing with by writing in your questions and stories. I have tears of joy AND sadness now. Feel like I wrote them myself.
My BF is bipoloar and I only found out within the last 4-5 months. I KNEW something was different, but couldn't figure it out. Things began to "fall into place for me" when he told me. We just had one of those fights 20 mins ago. I KNOW I didn't do ANY of the things I am accused, but it pains me so that this distance is between us and I can not do or say ANYTHING to get my point of view across, at least not until his "calm" side comes around and then I get the apologies and hugs.
What I need help with is THIS: I don't know how to handle the peroids when he is stressed/depressed/angry(not at me)and I am starved for affection by the one person I care about and LOVE SO DEEPLY. I just have been waiting patiently and then the swing comes and I again have the laughs, smiles, kisses, and hugs that truly make Earth feel like Heaven by my BF. I feel like I'm on a merry-go-round.
I KNOW they aren't personal atttacks, but even my patience does have a limit and I want to do WHATEVER I can not to reach that point. I found a good soul (so did he), I don't want to lose him.