
12:40 pm

September 27, 2010

I am here for the first time and moved enough to sign in. I wanna say thank-you EVERYBODY for making me feel understood and that I am not alone in what I am dealing with by writing in your questions and stories. I have tears of joy AND sadness now. Feel like I wrote them myself.
My BF is bipoloar and I only found out within the last 4-5 months. I KNEW something was different, but couldn't figure it out. Things began to "fall into place for me" when he told me. We just had one of those fights 20 mins ago. I KNOW I didn't do ANY of the things I am accused, but it pains me so that this distance is between us and I can not do or say ANYTHING to get my point of view across, at least not until his "calm" side comes around and then I get the apologies and hugs.
What I need help with is THIS: I don't know how to handle the peroids when he is stressed/depressed/angry(not at me)and I am starved for affection by the one person I care about and LOVE SO DEEPLY. I just have been waiting patiently and then the swing comes and I again have the laughs, smiles, kisses, and hugs that truly make Earth feel like Heaven by my BF. I feel like I'm on a merry-go-round.
I KNOW they aren't personal atttacks, but even my patience does have a limit and I want to do WHATEVER I can not to reach that point. I found a good soul (so did he), I don't want to lose him.
12:42 pm

September 30, 2010

hi deeply...is your bf on meds??? cuz
my previous bf suffered bipolar and alcoholism, and didn't get help for either one...and we were on a rollercoaster ride for over 3 years.
Its very hard not knowing when someone with bipolar will be in there highs or lows....has he spoken to a doctor about his bipolar?
12:49 pm

September 29, 2010

Hi Deeply,
Does he admit that he is bi-polar and is he willing to take meds? Camer poses some good questions, because it is my thought that you cannot take responsibility for both your feelings and his. My oldest son is bi-polar and an alcoholic and he refuses to take meds. Currently he is a mess, and has lost much. The thing is, is that when my son is drinking it causes more of a chemical imbalance, more depression, and I am only guessing but this could be what your bf is going through as well....and they never remember doing or saying very much when they are drinking.
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