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Survival of the Afghan....Sisters Live On.....
November 4, 2006
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I'm not scared away, Mich.

November 4, 2006
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mich if you want to go to bed, please tell me good nite please

November 4, 2006
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I am so sorry girls, I am SO sorry. I am so screwed up...God help me...So screwed up....Goodnight girls..My other thread says it all, and I still managed to make it worse yet..What a loser..

November 4, 2006
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I love you mich, i am crying tonight for you mich, I am holding you tonight mich in our now wearing afghan...i am not leaving you and in no way do I think you are a loser...go to bed, rest, and please contact me in the a.m. love you sweetie....((((((((mich)))))))))))))))

November 4, 2006
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(((SIM))) You are loved and cared for and you don't have to be sorry. You're not a loser, you are human. And we love you for that!

November 4, 2006
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gg? cyn? r u here?

November 4, 2006
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I am sorry I failed tonight, I f*cked up bad tonight

LL, I am so sorry...

I hope you all forgive me

November 4, 2006
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(((SIM)))

November 4, 2006
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SIM, i admire the strength you all have together here! Setbacks happen, we all do it!

November 4, 2006
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The reason Ive never started cutting is cuz I know it´ll become a habit. I do pick a lot!! Among other bad habits...

November 4, 2006
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Hi Sini:

Haven't seen you for a long time. How are you?

Looks like I missed some real fire tonight. I'll have to go back and read tomorrow.

Hope the night has calmed and everyone is sleeping well.'

November 4, 2006
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Hi, MamaC,I can´t sleep... Have started switching days and nights now. Good to see you here! Hope the new house is already becoming a home? Tks for being there for us all! I havent checked in often at this time. A big hug to you!

November 4, 2006
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is anyone up...can't sleep worried about my twin

November 4, 2006
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Hey GG: I'm here

Sini: Just unpacked more boxes tonight. I am down to pictures and junk; ya know that "where the heck did this come from" and "oh yeah, I remember this, I think". lol

November 4, 2006
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checking in on you mich...holding you tight and close...don't care what people say either...you don't have to worry about that...i don't want either of us to hurt each other anymore and i know that our sisters don't want us either...but yes, it is our choice...

i will tell you one thing since i have more experience here...it may feel good to give yourself and release the pain and to see the blood and know you are alive in there, BUT what you go through before that is extremely pain and harmful and lasts a lot longer than the cut..

Then when you are feeling good, you will look at those scabs and then scars and hide them in shame and wished they weren't there...Then the cycle starts over.

I am opening up my soul now to you mich, because I don't want anyone to go through that much less someone i love dearly, do you understand me???

It is after one and I hope you are resting....

Gosh, wasn't it one week ago and you were doing this for me????

hugging tightly mich.....GG

November 4, 2006
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hey mama,

so exhausted and stressed...( no, mich, it is not you!)

didn't think anyone would be up still

November 4, 2006
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I am here. I saw a big to do up above but don't have it in me to read it all. Can or will you give me a brief??? Is Mich cutting?

How are you GG. You said you are worried about your twin. Mich I assume???

November 4, 2006
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gotta go to sleep, yea no work tomorrow...

God bless all my friends at aac and may they be sleeping restfully tonight, except for poor LL, who is working...God keep her awake and tell her to keep her eyes on the right guys for her...Amen..

November 4, 2006
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Goodnight GG

November 4, 2006
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SIM (that means YES in Portuguese)

I´ll ditto Cyndra here: I dont have any children and think that perhaps (and here I go on my account) a good hugger physically and emotionally. But as Im butting in here for caring about all these great guys here I want to tell a bunch of things since I dont know when Im checking in again. Its mostly half out of my weak heart which can´t quite understand it all yet but tries. With the help of people here, like you.

1) Fight the bad urges as you were fighting the demon. For some people we are only a pack of bones after the flesh and liquids are gone. Even that being true to you, *don´t* leave for the demon, it doesn´t deserve any of you.

2) You are a star. Maybe not up in the sky neither in the hearts of everyone. Here is the secret, your birthright is that of a star even if you feel like just a speck of dust - its all the same in a higher level.

3) Suggestion: Look up Desiderata and read it tonite. This will give you a wonderful sense of self. Try to read up on Maslow´s Hyerarchy / Pyramid of Needs. This will give a sort of bill of rights as a human.

My Life Is Just a Weaving…

My life is just a weaving
Between my God and me
I do not choose the colors
He works steadily
Sometimes he weaves sorrow
And I in foolish pride
Forget he sees the upper
and I the underside
Not till the loom is silent
And shuttles cease to fly
Will God unroll the canvas
And explain the reason why
The dark threads are as useful
In the skillful weaver’s hand
As are the gold and silver
In the pattern he has planned

And without critic, from anyone and yourself, think about this prayer of serenity:

God give me the serenity
to accept the person I can´t change
the courage to change the one I can
and the wisdom to know the difference

I wam going to check back on you even as unreliable as I am. Be strong. Just be you strong. Count on yourself. As said in Maslow´s critic, what we get from others (like glory) is not as valuable as what we have in ourselves (like selfworth).

Feel the warmth of this whole AAC site and your close friends here.

November 4, 2006
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CORRECTION
I´ll ditto Cyndra here: I dont have any children and think that perhaps (and here I go on my account) I AM NOT a good hugger physically and emotionally.

November 4, 2006
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(SIM)
When I read back on what I wrote, I so regret so much of it. Starting with I´m not a mother... please dont compare yourself with a child :~ Then overall, how could I sound less preachy? Just can´t... Sorry. Take the best and please leave the rest!

November 4, 2006
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Are any of ypu awake and still talking to me today?

November 4, 2006
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Yes Mama-

I did, and I am not handling it well. I thought about it yesterday for the first time ever, and finally it got the better of me last night. And you know what, it almost felt good. I am NOT so happy when I look at it this morning, but it felt like the right thing to do last night. I made myself feel the pain that I deserve. That is why I did it, and to be honest, I did it more than once. I probably lost half of my "sisters" or more because of it, but hey, I am f*cked up...

Scared

November 4, 2006
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Got home and caught up on the thread. Wow- never heard Jenni swear before and she did make a lot of sense in the fact the what we read on the screen sometimes does not reflect what is in our heart and that goes the same way that it can also not reflect the pain we feel inside.

Cyndra, you and I are alot alike- I'm not too huggy either although the lil sis's here are sure making me feel more huggy everyday- a little growth within me I'd say. Thank you for being here last night for Mich. YOu too GG & Sini. Say, Mich, I don't know if you are fimiliar with Sini story or not, but she definately knows what it feels like to be suicidal (don't want to over step my bounds Sini) but sometimes our stories are so intertwined.

Ok, I'm going to post this to let you all know I am home and will be back with some more thoughts...

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