guess what... he showed up at my work today just to say hello... i was sweating so bad... and we could not talk at all.. i changed my work schedule so that when i don't have the kids i will be working. For example, on saturday i am going to work 10-5.. then i go bowling from 7-9:30 and then i am going back to work at 10:15pm until I am finished.. then Sunday I am going to work 12-6pm.. the kids come home at 7:30... I have to change my behavior in order for there to be a change.. thanks for reading and listening to me when i have been very nervous and anxious.. i feel alright now.. even after seeing him.. my therapist predicts that he will pursue me more, so i kind of was not shocked to see him at my work.. i just felt so funny... like a cringe in my stomach because i still feel something for him although i should not...