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Mich I hope you dont mind here, and I am not over stepping any boundaries...but I love and care about you Mich and want as many people here as possible for support.
Mich's posts from another thread...
ScaredinMichigan
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Anyone that may be reading this thread that is not GG, or LL, PLEASE, I don't care who it is....I need someone, anyone, I am losing my mind...PLEASE...
I don't even know where to start...I am so sad and disheartened....Mu psych just told me after talking to him, that he can see exactly how I have and am preparing myself and my kids for my suicide...He is very worried about my risk of suicide...I put on a happy face, but I am so miserable. I try to help everyone else, I can't. I am a liar, and I am a shitty mom. I am awful...I HATE ME. I am so selfish, I never could see what I was doing until today, and he made sense, that is exaclty what I was doing, and am. He fears that I will do it, I am NOT afraid to do it, and right now, there is nothing that I want more. I don't want to make me and my kids even more miserable...
That is why he said it, I told hm how I treat my kids, I told him that I can't kiss my 9 and my 5 year old, that I don't want them touching me, and that all I do is yell at them. All 3 of the big ones...Because I don't want them to miss me when I am gone, and I kow that if I am a shitty mom to them, that I can convince myself that it is better to go. It is, I am awful. I have destroyes these kids because of my anger, my resentment, I look in the mirror and I see my mom....I am horrible..
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Reposting from other thread:
ScaredinMichigan
19-Oct-06
I don't even know where to start...I am so sad and disheartened....Mu psych just told me after talking to him, that he can see exactly how I have and am preparing myself and my kids for my suicide...He is very worried about my risk of suicide...I put on a happy face, but I am so miserable. I try to help everyone else, I can't. I am a liar, and I am a shitty mom. I am awful...I HATE ME. I am so selfish, I never could see what I was doing until today, and he made sense, that is exaclty what I was doing, and am. He fears that I will do it, I am NOT afraid to do it, and right now, there is nothing that I want more. I don't want to make me and my kids even more miserable...
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Mich- are u here?
This is my reposting from the other thread...and thanks Ma Strong...now we just need to find Mich...
I'm glad that you were honest with him in how you felt...you need to be honest Mich...does not do any good to cover up what we feel...
What did you suggest for you? And PLEASE do not beat yourself up about anything that you feel...you have been hurt deeply and to this point have not received the help- the real help you have needed all these years.
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Mich -
You are NOT like your mother. You are reaching out for help. You have gathered up every ounce of courage you have and entered into treatment with a doctor (who sounds really compassionate and sharp). You WILL recover. You WILL be okay. And your kids WILL be fine. I have screamed and yelled at my sons when they were little (for many, many reasons, including when my late husband was mean to me) and they have come through it just fine. We are very close now and they have forgiven me for being HUMAN and having problems, just as your kids will forgive you.
You are not a bad mother. You are simply doing the best you can to survive a very painful time in your life. But it WILL pass. You DO have support and people who care about you and will stand by you, including all of us on these threads.
Love,
Ma Strong
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Ma Strong- may have just started stories coming from mothers who have yelled at their children, from mothers who have been under alot of stress and couldn't be the best they wanted to be, and I am one of those mothers...my sons have stories that I hate to hear.
Another thing that Ma said, YOU ARE NOT YOUR MOTHER...you have reached out for help - YOU HAVE COURAGE.
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