i know exactly how u feel. although i'm not vegetarian, my relapse with my bulimia occured when i started dieting. but before that there was still the problem of bindging without vomiting. the only reason the bulimia even started again for me was because i had lost 10 lbs. and then went on a bindge and then panicked and thought i was going to gain the weight back, so i started it all over again. i was going to couseling once a month, until this, so now i'm back to once a week. hopefully i can get a handle on all this, because im am sooo fed up with dealing with all this. i just want to be happy. you should go to couseling though. i have a really hard time putting my thoughts and emotions into words when i go, but it did help in the past so i think u would really benefit.