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Rebuilding my life
July 16, 2013
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One Day, 

I will try Despicable Me 2 if I can. I don't have TV just netflix and hulu. You said you would give that bitch something to remember, PLEASE DO! I'm going to read some great posts you made on other threads in another section.

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July 16, 2013
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Ocean,

if you saw me right now, you would never believe what you saw.  I can barely see the screen.  Just got out of my surgery & my vision is not right.  My pupils are totally dialated & it hurts like hell.  They got it, but they say it will come back.  Three weeks for the biopsy.  Truth is Ocean, I don't even care anymore.  I went by myself.  I do everything on my own, & I don't want anything from anyone anymore.

July 16, 2013
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One Day,

It sounds like you are having side effects from scopolamine. I hope you were able to get a ride home. Sorry to hear that you are all alone. If I lived near by I would have gladly helped you out and watched over you. I hope you have some good medications that will provide good pain relief.

Ocean Boi

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ocean boi,

i also dont have cable i use hulu and netflix a lot, one good thing i could recomend is on hulu chicago fire, thats if you like medical action drama type movies.

July 16, 2013
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Thanx I will try that If I ever get the timeLaugh

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To:  Ocean Boi 2013 Ways:

I did my chores with no ones help.  I am in pain now & tired and I am going to rest.  I did not get pain killers but I am not feeling very bad.  I am o.k.  I just have a BOO BOO.  They said that it would return again.  Maybe not in a year or two, but eventually it will return.  Who cares.  I am never going to be in another romantic relationship in my life.

 

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One Day,

I don't know how you do it. Have surgery then come home and do chores. Not being in a romatic relationship for me is a good thing because everytime I get involved in one it is a bad thing. Why do you think you will never ever be in another romantic relationship again?

This woman called me last night and said she wanted to come over when she got off of work, but I felt like going to the ocean to run and swim and sent her a text that I was gone for the day. I'm just not feeling romantic myself right now. I'd much rather have a friend.

Ocean Boi 

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July 17, 2013
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Ocean,

The way I see things I really don't want to get involved with people.  It always ends bad & my last romantic involvement really set me over the edge about many things.  I can't really explain much more.  It hurts too deep to talk about.  I think its better to just keep to myself.  I don't seem to fit in anywhere.

 

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One Day,

I don't mind having contact with people if it has a purpose but, someone just hanging around for the sake of chilling drives me nuts. Thats because I don't ever sit around. I am always doing something. I am alone by choice but not lonely. I look forward to seeing the one coming from Mexico today. I wired her some money so she can pay for her way to the US. I bought her an android tablet and phone so we can stay in touch. She wants me to pay her phone bill and run her ass around. It's OK because she will sit in my living room on my PC and her cell phone and let me do what I need to do. I look forward to checking out the 4X today. 

As far as any hope for romance goes I have no idea what the future holds. Be nice if I was into someone as much as they were into me. I miss my ex bad but I can't look back I can never look back because I am never ever going in that direction again. 

How are you feeling? You fit in here.

OB

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July 17, 2013
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Ocean,

I don't think I want to know what your job is.  I am exhausted.  It is very hot here today.  I am not like you, I do feel very alone & lonely most days.

 

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One Day,

Why did you say you don't want to know what my job is? Does it sound that bad? LOL. I made some bad choices in relationships but an excellent one as far as my career goes. If I had to live my whole life over again I wouldn't change my career choice. 

The one coming from Mexico said that the place where I wired the money wont let her pick it up because she doesn't have a Mexican ID so I told her to just stand in the border crossing and I would pick her up at the border. I hope she is here in time to see the SUV that I am looking at. I am looking at other SUV's as well in anticipation of a vacation in August that will involved steep terrain and off roading in a cooler climate at a higher elevation. 

It's 90 degrees here today. I went outside and detailed my truck. Have to go to leave for work in a half hour.

How are you feeling??

OB

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July 17, 2013
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Ocean Boi,

I was just scared by the description you gave.  I tried to visualize this mexican girl using a cell phone from your home doing work that might be work that is maybe scary somehow or at least secretive.  I dunno.  I love research & my mind wanders a lot.  I am not your average thinker.  I think I might have been born with a cognitive disorder that only gets worse over time.  My memory is like a steel trap though.  I will not forget a face, any writing I actually wrote or a real event in my past.  Same if someone tells me about their life or something they remember.  It all gets put inside a part of my mind with accuracy & precision detail.  I will however also remember very bad memories.  It's kind of odd.  Sometimes people that are far older than me tell me that I am incorrect & then they come back & apologize because they checked and re-checked and realized that my memory was in fact right on target.  I also have very real ancestral memory.  My middle son shares this with me.  It's not something we can explain to anyone else, but we know of times far back in lives past.  I hope I am not freaking you out.  We are total feelers.  We can smell out situations.

 

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p.s. I will be o.k. but whatever it is, it will return, or at least that is what I was told.  Every year they will check me to see if it grows again.  It's like my middle son said today, "Mom, you have been through everything, so nothing is going to break you".  He sure is right.  I will go when it's my time & not without a fight.

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Boi it makes smile every day when I see your posts. You are very special. I sang a song for you. See pm for link.

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Carson,

What song did you sing?

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July 18, 2013
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One Day,

The one from Mexico is here. i did not turn her cell phone back on. I gave her money and she chose to buy one outfit, some other stuff and save the money until she returns she said it will be like $90 in mexico. She uses the wi fi to do what she does on her cell phone and android tablet. You are right she is not a trust worthy person. I took her to the ocean and she sat there on the shore and was fooling around with her cell phone.

In the afternoon my business partner stopped by with some lunch and some paper work I had to review that need to be revised to turn into the regulatory agency so we can pass our inspection this month. My internet was down so I had to go buy some hardware to get it back up and running.

I noticed that my ex who blocked me from google has added me back to google. I have no idea why. I am on another site on the internet where someone suddenly appears using the same name that I use on my FB account right after I told her on that site that I wan't interested in her and not to contact me again. Then, someone from a mediator service called me and said my ex wants to mediate the situation instead of going to court. I am feeling dead about it, not want to do anything. The only thing that feels right is to stand my ground and stay the hell away from her.

I am happy to hear that you are doing OK. With your gift can you predict things? Can you know information about a person you have never met? If so that is very cool. Sometimes I pay attention to my dreams and let them guide me.

Ocean Boi

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July 18, 2013
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Ocean,

no, I do not know about a person, only very clear intution concerning events that change history.  I cannot really explain it.  Many times, I have been put in a position of learning certain small informative details that when I connected them with other things I felt, led to actual events happening.  So I would guess that I have correct premonitions concerning future events that concern potential danger to humanity.  I know it sounds like some kind of wizard/witch thing, but I just feel it without wanting to.  My eldest son was totally taken aback as I told him what would be happening in certain areas of the world.  I told him & I told him that I did not know why I was so sure and scared, & those events transpired & people were hurt & lives were in real danger.  I spent 7 solid days and nights without sleep.  I sat in a chair and cried for hours on end, feeling people being hurt literally as they were being hurt in another time zone.  Can you imagine what that feels like?  It's as if I can feel the loss of human lives cover over my body, yet I have no control to change it.

With my connection with my ex boyfriend it was very intense and without seeing one another or speaking for months, I knew exactly the moments that he was thinking about me & he told me that he could sense when I was missing and longing for him.  Up until a few months ago, it was torture some days.  I would say in my mind, please stop thinking about me & please let yourself & me go.  We both knew that the fate of our union was doomed.

They say that life finds a way, but sometimes I think that sometimes two souls become entwined at the wrong time.  That is to say, had I been born ten years after my actual birth, he & I might have been able to be together.  It's hard to love a person so intensely & have a relationship that is so surreal, but not be able to make it actually function due to circumstances.

I have another premonition that I told my eldest son about today.  I am praying it will not transpire, but as I put together the pieces, I feel it might happen.  Not many will be hurt, but it will be one more reason for the world to fear each other & no amount of prayer can heal the mistrust that people have towards each other these days.

Probably I am not making sense to you.  These things are painful to try to tell you because you must think I am lunatic.  No doubt, I  am.

 

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July 18, 2013
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Ocean,

I still do not understand about our connection, but it most obviously is made to have transpired.  Your life is atypical.  You have your work which I do not understand.  You are solid, very solid in many areas.  You are well suited for much progress and artistry, but you must leave go of the havoc of these interpersonal relationships.  I understand that it is very difficult, but it is draining you from becoming so much more in my opinion.  I am not being rude, but you must stop engaging these outside forces & even giving any amount of life to them in your life asit is taking away what makes you one very special person.

At some point, we may need to rely on each other, but we will not be able to communicate with the precision that will be required if we are to make a difference in the way the world can change for the better.

Something is keeping us writing back & fourth & I honestly do not know why since we are strangers, but I know that in the last two weeks, again I had physical trauma & again I made this huge learning leap into a very unknown future.

I told you several posts ago, I have let go of all the peripheral drama that I know is simply dialouge with no affect.  My goal is selfish.  I am engrossed into what I need to do for myself for a much greater challenge in the future.

I know I will need every ounce of energy to pull this off & fix things that need to be fixed.

Again, I can only tell you from a feeling level that I am being thrust into action.  I am staying.  I am staying.

 

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One Day,

You have an abundance of empathy. I am sorry to hear about the physical trauma that you had to endure and hope that you get restored to where you were before your health issues appeared. How have you felt since you let go of the periperal drama in your life? I'm happy to hear that you are stayingSmile.

I can't deny the fact that I need to forget about tying up loose ends with the ex or giving her the closure that she wasnts by continuing to ignore her.

I agree that my lifestyle is different in every concievable way. I don't know much about communicating with people but I am very good at communicating wtih my animals and I spend most of my time thinking about them. 

I'm going to sleep and look forward to hearing from you.

Ocean Boi

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July 19, 2013
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Ocean,

it appears that you have the metacognitive intellect that my youngest son most certainly has.  This is where you are quite special, but you must be careful of those around who will try to take advantage of this intellect.

My youngest is a great animal lover & has been this way from a very young age.  He has told me to his life work or his personal life will include animals and building through water.

He is very smart and was given to me as a gift at a time when nothing but his birth could have healed me.  He actually is born one day before my birthday.

I hope you have a worry free day & you get to enjoy the ocean.

 

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One Day,

Today I have to follow up on completing some paper work. The cable guy is going to install cable TV. Then I have an appointment to go to. I plan to find time to go to the ocean. Pure O2 at sea level and the saline air, what could be better? When it cools down I will visit my horse and work with her until the sun sets. 

What was your major in college? What is your area of academic interest? 

 

Ocean Boi

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July 19, 2013
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Wow, you have a horse?  What kind of horse is it Ocean?  You are so lucky!  I am a double honours major in English & Humanities.  My area of expertise is any kind of art that ignites creativity.

 

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One Day,

I was doing laundry and the cable guy came so I asked the one from Mexico to help out who started raging because she was too busy sitting in the mirror so I told her to go back home. She got her wallet with the money I gave her and left. I told her to find her own way back to Mexico as in call a cab or a bus and that I didn't want to hear from her again. No great loss. Then I started washing all of the bedding she slept on and cleaning up after her. 

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Wow u.  Please just stop or I am going to have to find you soon.  Keep trying to remember there is "no one",  "the one",  Just do you.  No one except for a very very few (hopefully including me) is going to understand how you feel.  Let the next anything come to you without any provocation whatsover.  Just Sail.

 

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One Day,

I am interested in hearing more about the kind of art that ignites creativity. You won't have any trouble finding me because I am always where I am supposed to be. Come on down to the water is fine. 

 

OB

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Ocean Boi,

my artwork developed from my real life & continues to evolve everyday.

 

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