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Reappearing Girl Losing Someone Again
October 8, 2004
9:43 pm
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Utahgirl
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I have not posted much here since last May. I don't know if anyone remember much about me but I thought I would say "hello" again.

I hope to reconnect with some of you.

I am still attending the local community college and I was awarded Social Security Disability in June. I am pretty happy right now but I still worry about receiving benefits from the government. I also got on Medicaid. I have to go to a new psychiatrist because I am on Medicaid now(which I hate)and I am upset with that fact right now.

I have worked with this doctor for 13 and a half years and I will miss him so much!! He has been a good doctor and he really understand me and has a lot of empathy and compassion.

I went in today and did an intake interview at the local community mental health agency. I have not been depressed very much and I felt guilty for going but I need to have a psychiatrist in case something happens again. My therapist is going to contract with this agency so she can continue to work with me. I am glad that I don't have to go to a new therapist.

How do I deal with this sadness. I know it can be a good thing to work with a different doctor but I have always had a difficult time letting go of people who are important to me.

October 9, 2004
6:45 am
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Am sorry for you Utah. It is so hard to find a competent doc these days.

Will this doc transfer all your records to the new doc? That would be most helpful.

October 9, 2004
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Hello Utah,

good to hear that you are less depressed nowadays. Your life seems to have moved quite a lot since you were here last time.

Losing somebody important ist a sad situation, so allow yourself some grief here. You could make a little goodbye "ceremony", to help you find closure. For example you could write him a goodbye card with your thanks (including his team, if you liked them, too), and bring it to them together with a small gift from you.

October 9, 2004
2:44 pm
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Thanks for responding eve and mamacinnamon.

I hope the new doctor and my present psychiatrist will talk so this new person will have a better idea of who I am and where I been.

I am thinking of writing my doctor a letter and mailing it after our last appointment. It will only be a regular 15 minute appointment on Oct 20. I won't be able to talk to him very long but that is how doctor appointment go. I think I can accept this. But there is so much I want to talk to him about at the same time.

Does anyone feel guilty for not feeling depressed? Everytime I feel that life is okay and I not awful I feel guilty about that. I want to be severely depressed because so I am "special" and need help. I know that is not right and that feeling hurts me but I still feel that way.

October 9, 2004
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Good to see you again, Utahgirl. I do remember you posting before. I know it is hard for some of us to just be without thinking we have to do something or be a certain way. The only thing is then we miss out on the enjoyment of where we are now and how far we've come. I lived for a long time being afraid to get too happy because something always seemed to happen to counteract that. I'm still working on just trying to accept where I am and enjoying what there is to enjoy because probably other things will happen no matter what we think. All the feeling bad for someone else will not change things for them either.

October 9, 2004
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welcome Utahgirl.

eve,mamacinnamon,and the rest of you caring people...you are all utterly incredible. those who benefit from your kindness,warmth, and insight are very lucky.

a deep felt thank you for your unconditional support.

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