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Proud of myself--sought the help I needed--Matthew
April 7, 2007
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Just wanted to pass on to you all some great news. I checked myself in to a behavioral health unit. I was in there for only 3 days. I didn't want to go; I was terrified. However, I did this for myself and I am starting to get back to my old self (finally) that was before the depression and anxiety. I started having psycotic thoughts so I thought that was the best place for me. I found out that my former doctor had me on the wrong meds. Now I am on different ones and feeling more assertive, stronger, and more confident.

I never thought I could end up this badly! I thank God for directing me where to go. The cool thing too is that I met a new friend who happens to live in the apartments in my backyard! Plus, I was able to touch someone with the word of God who was sudicial. Don't I feel happy! This is such a great feeling. Thought I would never ever get to be feeling this good. Hugs to all~Wendy

April 7, 2007
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Wendy congratulations. It is awesome that you took the step you needed to get help, even though it was scary.

Can I ask what psycotic thoughts means, is that the same as suicidal thoughts?

I am glad they got your meds straight..And you were able to touch someone..maybe that was why god sent you there:) Sometimes one person who we meet even for a short time can change our lives, I call them angels.

April 7, 2007
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My thoughts were racing and I kept talking to others that people were talking to me in my head. They were first going to hurt me, but later were going to help me after I said I was sorry. They didn't know why they were going to hurt me, but first wanted to. This was all because of the mix of meds my GP prescribed me. As soon as I was admitted, the psyciatrist (sp) knew what was wrong and prescribed the new ones! Thank you for your compassionated reply. Hugs to you, Wendy

April 7, 2007
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I am so Proud of YOU too! Way to Go! You faced your fears and solved your problems! ((((((Wendy)))))

April 8, 2007
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It's my 2nd day home from the hospital. I really wish I could go back there. Life seemed so simple there. I am crying a lot now; and feel just rotten about putting my family through this. I am really depressed. Anybody been through this before? If so, please share. I hope this feeling ends soon. I don't know what to do next. Thank you ~Wendy

April 8, 2007
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Wendy, what happened???????????????

April 8, 2007
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(((((Wendy)))) I hit view all posts and found out more about your hospital stay. I´ve in the hospital for suicide attempt twice. One really feels protected there but we know it´s sort of a lab environment. Tks to HP your medication was corrected. It´s a shock going back to reality but you´ll make it. Sorry if I was blunt. I´ve been having a hard time with my memory, appointments...

What I can say is... keep busy with things you once liked or made you happy. I got a girl kitty and she´s been keeping me busy. I catch myself thinking of her, a (half trained) abandoned kitty, once I had a not in my throat, which rarely happens, I felt human, it took an animal to do that to me... I think of her well being and the boundaries I need to set. It´s been an exercise in love and discipline.

Keep trying, one day at a time. Don´t stay alone if you can avoid it!

hugs,

April 9, 2007
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Wendy, I have been in several hospital situations when I was growing up. It seems to be safe there, people are caring, and listening, and talking about things.

When we go back home there are old problems, situations etc.

I think its a normal phase, have you ever noticed people who get out of prison and go right back on purpose? Its kinda like atleast then they know what to expect.

Hopefully your new meds will get kicked in good and you'll start feeling better. I take cymbalta and xanax for anxiety and depression. What do they have you on, if you don't mind me asking, if so please don't answer.

It is wild that meds could do that to you, I bet that scared the hell out of you, and it is so good that you did the right thing!!!

Try to go for walks and enjoy the fresh air, regaurdless of the weather.

Animals are always my sanctuary, they are always there for you, never disappoint you with the way they love you..well puppys are hard to train..I remember a few months back when I was having a complete meltdown, I mean complete meltdown.

My dog that weighs almost 200 lbs. Came crawled half way up on my lap put his head on my shoulder and just sat there for like thirty minutes while I cried my eyes out, He would lick my face then put his head back on my shoulder. He's always happy to go for a walk with me. Cuddle in bed. You name it, my buddy.

Hope you get to feeling better. hopeful

April 9, 2007
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Wendy,

I have had several hospital stays too. When I get out it always seems so surreal. It is difficult to phase back into a routine even if you are only there for a few days.

I am glad that you could touch someone with the word of God. I could use that so much in my life right now. I keep going to churches thinking that someone will take a look at me and start administering to me and make everything ok. It just hasn't happened that way.

Hang in there. I wish I had a pet to cuddle with me. I just have two prickly teens. they don't seem to want to have anything to do with me. That is not entirely true. My son will give me love often but my daughter wouldn't spit on me if I was on fire.

April 10, 2007
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Thank you all for your replies and support. I really need this right now.

Hopeful-I am now on 1 mg of klonopin, 30 mg of Celexa, and 100mg of Trazodone. So far sooooo good! I was on 40 mg from 20 mg (too fast for me, I guess), 15 mg of buspar, and xanax as needed (5 mg a day). The psychiatrist at the hospital said I was having psychotic thoughts because Celexa and Buspar are in the same family and these together caused tooooo much serotonin in my little ole brain. Therefore, the major increase in the celexa (20 to 40 in one day) the added buspar and 5 mg of Xanax made me psycho. The doctor at the hospital knew exactly what the problem was once he knew the meds I was on and even told the nurse "What the F____ is she on these meds!" I had a long talk with my GP yesterday about this. LOL I could not see a psychiatrist until May (this was in March) so had no other choice to trust my GP! Guess I learned my lesson.

I knew coming home wouldn't make a difference to how I am feeling because of the same ole BS here. Now there's even more pressure from the family because I was suppose to be 100% better when I came home. It takes longer than 3 days for the meds to work and they don't understand. Everyday I ask them for patience, then they say they will be patient, and then they treat me like a child. Sure it's nice to be doted on once in awhile rather than I having to do everything for everyone, BUT if I want to go shopping, go to a depression group, etc., I am always told I am going to push myself, etc. How frustrating.

Sorry, having a crying bout now. This is such a struggle!

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I agree with you dustpuff, sin, and hopeful about having a pet in the family. I am totally in love with my little boy cat. In fact, his birthday is today (His name is Murphy)! He is now 2. He sleeps with me, cuddles with me, comes by me when I have panic attacks & crying bouts, watches and waits at the window for me to come home, he watches me take my blood pressure, and we play fetch together (yes, he fetches and retrieves) and he is just great company for me. It's so cool how an animal can love someone so unconditionally. If only people could do this, right?

I get to see my therapist today. I am really excited to share with her about the hospital stay. I just hope I feel well enough to go. I found out I have bronchitis yesterday on top of everything else and I feel like crap!!!

Dustpuff--cute name btw--if there is anything you want to talk to me about in regard to the word of God, please write in this thread and maybe we can move over to the liberation side of the fence.

Have a blessed day all and hugs to you by me, Wendy

April 12, 2007
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bumping this up

April 12, 2007
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How are you feeling today? Did you talk with your therapist a few days ago? (((((Wendy))))

April 14, 2007
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how are you doing? I know it takes time to start feeling "normal" again. But really you have to learn a new normal.

I went to church the other night and it seemed so hard to open up. I feel so angry sometimes because I have been through so much and just want a little happiness in my life.

hearing anymore voices? Do your meds seem to be working? I know it takes a few days for them to get into your system.

Hang in there...

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