Don't let it destroy you any longer. If you feel this badly with this relationship as you have with past ones, something inside of you is screaming for a change. You need to take a break and look deeper into yourself and find out why you are attracted to those who hurt and betray you. Have you always felt distrust in all of your relationships? If so, then I suggest walking away from this relationship and getting in touch with yourself, in other words - clean the cobwebs from your closet. Seek some counseling. Aside from that, just take a deep look back to the past and find out what is causing you such pain.

If you don't really trust him, then the relationship isn't going to work out. People who love each other have strong trust that bind together forever. I'm glad that I've listened to my own "gut" that I don't trust my ex-boyfriend and later found out that he had cheated me. If your body is filled with tension thinking about him or close to him, then something is telling you not right. Don't let your "untrusted" relationship destroyed you.