Avatar
Please consider registering
guest
sp_LogInOut Log In sp_Registration Register
Register | Lost password?
Advanced Search
Forum Scope


Match



Forum Options



Minimum search word length is 3 characters - maximum search word length is 84 characters
sp_TopicIcon
one for the road!!!!!!!!!!
September 3, 2002
12:36 am
Avatar
damaged
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 27, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

I am going to try and be as honest as I can with my feelings. First I would like to say I am sorry for my part in the bullshit that I have taken part in on this site. I really used to love this place and yes today I have decided to go, mostly I am posting this post for myself. I know most of you don't care are actully will be happy and thats a good thing because this kind of stuff doesn't need to be going on by me. I don't feel good about it, and no I am not yea yea, I was just damaged that tried to be T4C but just always felt more natural being damaged. In many of ways I am still very damaged and have much work ahead of me.

In the last two are three weeks I have really been angry with just about everyone. My son, my co-workers, my ex, people that don't respond to a e-mail when I ask advise, because I can't drink, and even myself. Yes I don't feel very happy these days and I know now this isn't the place to seek help anymore. I do get angry with what goes on here, yes my problem, what's that saying if you can't handle the heat in the kitchen get out!! well I am not going to let the door hit me in my ass on the way out. When one door closes another one will open. I am very close to losing my sobriety and I need to get back on track with living life on lifes terms and not mine are someone else's terms. I know I found great support here before and some of it might even of saved my life, I don't know! but now it's time to move on.

Oh yea by the way I took pictures of two different snakes today while hunting with my son. One was a bull snake and one was a rattle snake. How ironic!

Name it, claim it, dump it! I feel better already.

Lo hecho hecho esta. Vivimos para ver.
adios

Hey gypsy if you ever need anything just give me a e-mail OK! Take good care of your self gf

September 3, 2002
1:15 am
Avatar
Squeezles
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

Hey damaged,

Don't know what the situation is that is making you feel that you can't stay here any more is, but if you think it is the right decision for you, then go for it.

I know you don't really know me and I hope I haven't done anything negative to you. I'd hate for you to think that you didn't have any support, especially if you think that you might go back to alcohol (I think) - which I hope you don't. So if it will help you at all then feel free to email me ([email protected]). If you don't, that's OK, just don't like seeing someone with so much hurt and not having someone to turn to. I wish you well.

S

September 3, 2002
1:26 am
Avatar
yea yea
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 29, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

Hey damaged, ya know, I've been feeling the same way. I've been feeling very angry lately about all kinds of things. Angry about my life in general and all the things I've been forced to try to deal with lately.

The sad part is that my anger is coming out mostly to the people I love most, my kids. I snap at them and am aggravated and it's so stupid because they are the very ones I am fighting so hard and struggling so much for.

I was looking at my littlest daughter while she lay sleeping a few minutes ago. She had asked me to scratch her back until she fell asleep but I told her I couldn't because I was helping my other daughter burn a cd for a homework project. Well, I was burning a cd but I didn't need to sit in front of the computer, I just didn't feel like doing it for a split second and then the thought came to me that my little girl is 12 and soon she won't even ask me to scratch her back or play with her hair or any of those things and I realized that I will miss those moments when my kids are gone so I got up and went and scratched her back and sat with her til she fell asleep and that was precious.

Hang in there damaged and best of luck to you. I have never had to battle a drinking problem so I can't say that I know how you feel about that. I do know that there are a lot of people who love you who are willing to be there for you, your son included. I also know you are an intelligent and capable and beautiful and strong woman who can ride this wave out all the way to the sandy beach. There are lots of things you can do like riding your bike, whatever happened to your biking buddy?

Hey, I'd love to see the pictures you took of the snakes and maybe we can talk more about this anger thing we seem to have in common. In any case I think it is good for you to take a break from this website if it is contributing to the building up of anger. It was good for you to apologize and get things off your chest, maybe I'll find it in me to do the same someday.

September 3, 2002
8:10 am
Avatar
nikka
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 24, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

Namaste, damaged/T4C.

Go with my love and respect. You have always been a number one person in my book and shall continue to be.

As for the drinking, you know the way back, 90&90 and lots of contact with your sponsor. I would also recommend a book called 'Cool Water' by William Alexander. It is a fine read. Another one is called 'Addiction and Grace" forget the author, but either one should be available at a Barnes & Noble or Borders of are orderable over the net at Amazon.

Be well, my friend, and may the road always rise to meet your feet. Thank you.

September 3, 2002
9:52 am
Avatar
gypsygirl
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: 0
Member Since:
September 24, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

(((Damaged)))

Please don't take a drink. I know you are stronger than that. Have you found any new ways to relieve stress? What is causing you so much stress?

I will keep in touch with you. I have a new email address, I am getting my internet shut off today so I wont use that email anymore. Booker and I have two internet services so I just use his now. My email is [email protected]

September 3, 2002
3:28 pm
Avatar
gingerleigh
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

Hiya Damaged. I'll miss you around here. But, you've got my email, and I've got yours. Hope you'll stay in touch. *hug*

September 9, 2002
4:46 pm
Avatar
site coordinator
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 27, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

Hey Damaged!!!

Glad I caught this thread.

If you get this post, know that I understand! And you're right about one door closes, another opens. It's true.

If you ever feel like you want to fill us in, or need some cheer, know that we are here for ya, always.... if you feel that sobriety slipping, please do what you need to do to stay sober, or if helpful, pop in here for some quick support or take the offer of folks who've given you their mail addresses.

I'll miss ya too, but hope you'll pop in someday and let us know how things are going, ya know, like ranmar does!

😀

Peace, SC

September 10, 2002
12:46 am
Avatar
irishlass
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 29, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

Hey, damaged, I was just getting to know and like you..hope you change your mind..a woman can ya' know, leave the drink on the road..but do come back and chat. Namaste. Could have used your insight and support on how you maintained sobriety. If I sound like a hurt child, I feel like one. I hate good-byes..

Forum Timezone: UTC -8
Most Users Ever Online: 247
Currently Online:
35
Guest(s)
Currently Browsing this Page:
1 Guest(s)
Top Posters:
onedaythiswillpass: 1134
zarathustra: 562
StronginHim77: 453
free: 433
2013ways: 431
curious64: 408
Member Stats:
Guest Posters: 49
Members: 110914
Moderators: 5
Admins: 3
Forum Stats:
Groups: 8
Forums: 74
Topics: 38535
Posts: 714196
Newest Members:
Striker1s, marcusz, Keara, Venn, Jolebio, loni89
Moderators: arochaIB: 1, devadmin: 9, Tincho: 0, Donn Gruta: 0, Germain Palacios: 0
Administrators: admin: 21, ShiningLight: 572, emily430: 29

Copyright © 2019 MH Sub I, LLC. All rights reserved. Terms of Use | Privacy Policy | Cookie Policy | Health Disclaimer