artist,

I can relate. Today I was craving some food...chicken in particular. Anyway, my ex knew how to cook them up for me perfectly. And I considered trying to cook some for myself, but I dreaded the thought of going to the grocery store that he and I shopped at for 3 yrs together and getting that specific brand of chicken.

And then the thoughts just began to roll in...like how he used to cook for me after I got home from work. And we'd eat together, on the floor, watching whatever DVD's we checked out from the library. When we finished eating, we'd brush our teeth together, lay out the blankets on the floor (that was our bed...we slept on the floor), and then snuggle while watching whatever 2nd DVD we checked out.

It seems like nothing. But, that was romeo's and my routine...and I was content with that. I'm a homebody...and he liked to just hang at home with me. Nowadays, I can't stand the thought of staying at home...cuz then I find myself dwelling sometimes. Sometimes...that is if I'm just not sleeping my whole day away.

Anyway, I know it's tough with it being V-day. I hate seeing all those stoopid vendors lining the streets selling those nasty white teddy bears and those flowers and balloons and whatnots. ugh! disgusting. Well, disgusting cuz I won't be receiving any of that this year. But know what, I don't care. I'm going to treat myself out this v-day. Who needs a man to just enjoy. Not me. And surely, not you.

Yes, couples everywhere reminding you that you're alone. Don't worry about it. I know...easier said than done. But, know what! I know you can do it. I'm doing it...and believe me, I had to go thru a hell of a lot to get here.

A good friend told me..."you're afraid of the climb up cuz you don't know what's on the other side of this mountain you're dealing with." I have faith that bigger, better things are over this mountain of yours. Just don't stopping moving up. You'll be fine. THere really isn't anything to be afraid of.

=) Happy Valentines!
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