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Newmee - are you alright?
October 24, 2008
5:30 pm
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Newmee,

Been thinking of you.

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October 24, 2008
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New

We are all worried. You were having a bad last two days.

Thinking of you.

October 24, 2008
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((((Newme)))

I hope is well. Please talk to us. As far as I can tell, we are all in the place. Please know that you are by no means alone.

Think of you,

Precious

October 25, 2008
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New, hun. I hope you are ok. I understand, you just need a break from here. You need a quiet weekend and I hope th at is exactly what you are having.

I am thinking about you and hope that you are alright.

October 25, 2008
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New me-
Hope all is well. If it makes you feel any better I have been up and down too this week. It is challenging. I know it can be hard but you are not alone and not the only one coping with frustrating men. Hang in there and talk when you are ready.

To everyone else, how are you?

Hugs,
Surf

October 25, 2008
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Hello Everyone, I have been thinking of all of you too. I have had a very, very tough week. I tried to stay positive and work on myself. It's just so hard. I don't know if I can do this. I was so angry yesterday, I flipped out in work, left early, and went out, then met up with the ex AGAIN. He is back to living with his "roomate" and I just don't f-ing care anymore. He's a selfsih, insecure coward. He tells me that I am angry. Yes, I agree! But I don't take my issues and snort, drink and sleep with others and USE people and work like its my life. He's a piece of work. But he tells me he loves me!

I stuck to my lie I just don't want him to contact me. I told him that I was going to continue in my "make believe" relationship. I can't take the game with him anymore. He will hurt me but not hurt the other woman. He's hurting her just like he used to do to me. She can have the liar, now I get the honesty I deserved from the beginning. I pray, pray, pray that I get through this with out snapping. He called me several times today and I did not respond. I called him back and told him that he and I will not work and I going to persue another relationship. I do not like to lie but I need to save my life here! If he stops calling me I will be able to do this. He's a barrier to the work I have to do. I am so weak and just can't stay away from him. He does not understand that we can't be together. We can miss eachother but we don't have to keep this hurting game going. I need so much support so I don't go back and fourth with him.

I have an intake appt. on the phone tomorrow for a support group on Tues nights and I go back to therapy on Thurs. I fooled my self and said, just hurt until you get back to therapy. Why do we do this to ourselves? Why can't I just stop beleivng the lies and stop lying to myself. I am ready to commit myself to a psych ward. If I did not have two kids I would have went yesterday. My mind is racing and I can't stop it. I can't stop crying or thinking. WHY?????? How do I get past all this hurt w/o wanting to die? I would never hurt myself but I just can't seem to get my crap together. I have NEVER felt like this in the 42 years I have been on this earth. I know it's not about my ex. It's about ME and why can't I face my issues and walk through them? I was doing so good then I let him back and honestly I am worse.

I am reading and I love this; MASTER OF DENIAL AND REPRESION
Codies comes out of a dysfunctional family of origin. And yet the codie quite sincerely defends that family. If the codie remembers details of childhood at all, those details are isolated or were not as memory would have them. Codies usually cannot see things as they are, will not evaluate circumstances as being as bad as they are, pretend bad things aren't happening, find intropsection too painful.

Is that paragraph the truth? That is exactlly how I feel. I am going to re-read this until I get it. Really get it.

Thank you everyone for your love of me and all my craziness! I feel better now that I posted.

I just got another txt from him. Asking me what's up> I am not going to respond, it will just bring me down or back in his lying arms. I deserve so much better. Being alone is not that bad if I can change my thoughts! WORK IT GIRL, that's my saying for the night.

Love, NewMe

October 29, 2008
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New me,
Everything you said I am going through as well. Sorry I hadn't seen this post a few days ago. Precious and I are talking about the same thing right now on Surf how are you thread. Come join us!
Miss you sweetie. I know it is tough. Unnerving. Insane. But you are stronger than all of the craziness. You were there for me when I thought I would lose my mind. Remember how good you were for me? I do. My ex has been contacting me as well, but not in the same way. Ya wanna talk more about it??

Surf

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