Thanks you guys... i needed that... Im having a rough patch, and it semms to be lingering, but Ive managed to be "positive, and optimistic all throughout the last year, aside from a few "moments" like these here and there.. Those days where I feel like just nothing is going right, and being hypersensitive and emotional about it all... When I was getting emotioonal last night, he just told me to check my blood (diabetic, and IF i'd taken My prozac in the past couple days.....
I felt like saying, YES, YOURE justbeing an ASS!! but then i remembered I didnt take it, so i went in the kitchen grabbed a glass of water, adn threw it in my mouth with a vengeance, and "a look" like I was 15 and full of bratty angst again, and I LAUGHED, until i cried... Ive been a little weepy this morning as well, but It was partailly becaseu something Ihad on top of the couch came crashing down on my head... I was balling, Mostly from the shock, then the PAIN, then just feeling helpless, useless, and like I cant even sit on the couch right... As Isit here and type it all out ,I can almost smirk, at how silly I sound... I think I better put on some silly ass music, and dance around the apartment today, HOPEFULLY, i wont trip over my own feet, or trip over absolutely NOTHING, ( I dont know HOW I MANGAE to do that one ,but it happens often.... OH well...
THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!!!!!!!!
Maybe I'll open that bottle of wine MY husband got @ christmas time from someone?????

HI....
Well I got the call from my doctors office in regards to my lab work... All the medical assistant said was that Dr. wants to make a follow up appointment first thing monday morning...... and because I haveworked in 3 doctors offices as a medical assistant, I kNOW darn well that "they found something" in my lab work, becasue IF it was "nothing" they would have simply said that, and not made me go to the office, ESPECIALLY knowing I am presently unemployed, and uninsured....SO, I have ALLL WEEKEND to sit, pace, and ponder if I have arthritis, Lyme Disease or the 2 other things they tested for that i cannot remember!!!!
I decided to call my husband and not perpetuate the tone of our tension filled week, and share the "almost" news, and just tell him that I have bee nstruggling all week(if not onger) with "what iswrong with my body, my employment issues,and that he 'bunged" a few weeks ago, that Im just hurting. and he started with "well... Ive uh noticed" and we both kinda laughed, and he said well, jenn, Think of it as excellent that they DID find something, becasue NOW they can treat it, and fix ya' up.. instead of just shaking their heads, remedicating you, and telling you they just dont know" and the nhe said "now that you got that call, you can go get the F*&^ outta the house, go do something t omake yourself feel better, and DO NOT go looking every medical condition up on the internet!!!" 🙂
Of course , i DID already look p Lyme disease, and arthritis.. andfound myself chuckling 1/2 like a 10 year old BRAT, and 1/2 like "he's right, get outta here" So, I came here to vent some more, finish my coffee, and give myself a destination so I dont just go driving aimlessley and end up 2 states away... (Ive doone that B4):$
So, Im here, In my underwear, cigarette, and coffee, trying to s-l-o-w my racing ADD brain down a little.. Thanks for listening!!!!! 🙂
"HAPPY FRIDAY, dammitt!!"

Well, Iwent shopping... I got a top on sale for 8 bucks, a pair of pants for 14, and a cute pair of shoes that i wouldnt normally have gotten myslef, but they were on sale too... Now i couldnt afford to do this, but I really couldnt afford not to either...Im gunn atake a lonnnnggggggggggg hot shower, shave my fuzziness(everywhere) and "put on my face" then I m gunna make dinner ,and do the dishes... (fun Friday nite, eh??) well, I brushed myself off, and Im hoping to exude some positivity arind here, so, wish me luck!!!!