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My Journey
May 7, 2001
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I am very alone sometimes. I miss really talking with real people. I have anxiety over things I can't control and try over and over again to not let the things I can't control bother me. I don't get this whole thing anymore, and am so tired of trying to figure it all out. I AM a good person, I AM always there for anyone who needs me...nobody's here for me. I cry too much.
Yet underneath all of this, I still hold something deep inside of me that somehow I feel keeps me going even in the toughest of times. I don't know if it's God or some higher power, but I believe everything that happens to us happens for a reason. No matter how difficult it may seem, or how much time passes, there is always an answer. At least that is how it has been for me. I hold on to that thought daily and I guess that has somehow gotten me through some very difficult times, and somehow I am being "molded" into a better person for it.
When I read these threads, my heart breaks for everyone who is going through tough times, but as selfish as this seems, it's almost comforting to hear other people are going through them too. Funny how you never hear anyone really complain about things till a site like this comes along. At least , thats how I feel, ALONE, like noone I know has problems of any kind. I have fair weather friends, no one I can really talk with and lets face it, a husband cannot take the place of a close friend. So with all this "STUFF" on my mind every day, I venture out into the world going about my day blending in with all the others who maybe feel the same or don't, just passing eachother by. I'm always hoping this day will bring some revelation or some clarification to my life. Sometimes the day is good sometimes it isn't, but I guess we all have to get on with it and try to make our own way. Peace everyone.

May 7, 2001
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Sounds like you are in the same situation as many of us. Acceptance, and end to the search,but with eyes wide open. Its a lonly world out there, and hard to find and maintain passion. We peak and valley, and the valleys seem endless. When it gets so ho hum for me that sadness is just around the corner, I make a project right now I am trying to make a pretty garden, like since when did pots and flowers get so expensive even at the thrift stores, go figure. But studying the plants, looking through the nursuries has gotten me off the ho hum trail today.

May 7, 2001
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I think everyone feels this way in their life at some point in time. We need to look around us and try to be that special someone to someone around us. It would make us feel so much better about ourself and we would be helping someone in need at the same time.

Our best friends never come find us. Get out of your comfort zone and make someone else's day and they may become a very special part of your life.

May 8, 2001
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May 8, 2001
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It's sadness unless it lasts longer than 2 weeks, then it's depression. You must find ways to really talk with someone, starting here was a good idea. I hope there is someone you can really risk being real with. In the mean time, I thik it's wise to accept the 'valley' and look for the way it's molding you. Try to cooperate with the Process. You are very lonely. Maybe it will drive you to reach for something you otherwise wouldn't even know you needed or wanted. DO remember it won't last forever, and DO try to learn from it. DO know people really DO care.

May 9, 2001
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I have been throught this before, lonely, no one to talk to, depressed......... you have definitely come to the right place. This is where I have pour out my miseries & I have receieved some very good & "logical" advises from our friends here.

It is good to "talk" & receive "feedback" from people, even thought you have not meet them face to face.

so, continue to talk......talk.....talk......

May 9, 2001
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Hi everyone,

Thank you all for your very insightful threads. They leave me with quite a lot to think about. I believe I do suffer from depression, and in response to Sal, this
"valley" has been with me for much more than 2 weeks. As long as I can remember I have obsessed about things that I should have realized I have no control over. For example, at one time I was obsessed with having AIDS and locked myself up in a room for 2 weeks waiting for the results of the AIDS test. Keep in mind, there really wasn't any warrant to having that thought, I was not a promiscuous person in the least. The next obsession was with my neighbor, suffice it to say, I moved. I have now picked a new obsession, no need to mention what it is, that's not the point. The point is between the obsessive worrying over things and these bouts of depression I am at a loss as to what remedy I might choose. I keep hearing about buspar and prozac, etc. I just don't feel like being another case of "OH, so you suffer from depression and god knows what else...here take 2 of these a day and you should start feeling better in a few months or so". I feel like I am giving in instead of fighting this on my own. However, I am starting to feel that I cannot fight this no matter how hard I try. Sometimes I say, this is just life and everyone else is going through it too, not just you. I feel lost and confused most of the time about myself. I know I'm probably rambling on here and I'm not very articulate so please bear with me, it just feels good to get this off my chest. I have tried to find real people in this world and haven't been able to. I had one real friend years ago but we no longer speak to one another. I have a good life...a good husband and a beautiful child. I keep saying there is no reason for me to feel this way...I SHOULD BE HAPPY. And at times I am happy, they just tend to be short lived. Sometimes I think I think too much about life and the purpose or reason I am here now. Somehow, I feel I need to give back something to the world..who knows, I hope I find out what that something is. You are all great people...I know everyone on here is, just for the simple fact that we all had the strength and courage to spill our guts out onto a computer screen in a desperate attempt to not feel quite so alone. Please talk to me....thanks everyone.

May 9, 2001
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Hi mode, is good to hear you are talking.....engage yourself with some activity which you like, for instance excercise, swimming , reading , cooking, gardening, walking.......... do anything but be positive. always love yourself, be open to talk to about things which bother you and listen to what other have to say, it might be a agreement or disagreement its ok. talk about it and let it bypass.......whatever it is Its OVER. Like to hear from you again....God Bless

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