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mama, kroika, loving.......HELP....PLEASE..
October 11, 2006
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ok, mama, I will try...

October 11, 2006
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Mich... Thank you honey. What you said was great and I know she will take it to heart. You did absolutely great. ((( hugs )))

October 11, 2006
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Mama-

It makes me so sad...All I can do is cry, I will talk to her as long as I can, but I can't hold myself together too much longer. It is very hard to hold someone else together when you're falling apart...Does that make sense. I wish I could just hold her in my arms, and keep her safe. Just like I wish someone would do for me..

Scared

October 11, 2006
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Scared:

You do have someone holding you in HIS arms now and always. All you have to do is talk to him. He loves you more than any of us ever could. I'd sure not make it thru my days w/o HIM.

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Scared:

You do have someone holding you in HIS arms now and always. All you have to do is talk to him. He loves you more than any of us ever could. I'd sure not make it thru my days w/o HIM.

October 11, 2006
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OK, mama-

I think that I am going to lay down. I took some medicine, and I am very tired and weak, aand God help my eyes, cause I think that they are going to fall out of my head. They hurt so bad. I look like I have been abused. Please mama, hold me tight tonight, and say a prayer for me and my babies...I do love them mama...I hope that you believe that...

I tried to help Army mama, but I don't think that it helped..I tried to be upbeat, it just isn't working for me today. I meant every word I said to her, I DID. And I do wish that I could just hold her and let her feel safe...

Thank you mama for being my friend...
(((Hugs))) I needed one, and thought you cuold use one tonight...Army and I have made it a tough day for you. I am so sorry mama.
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October 11, 2006
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I feel guilty though mama. I have been so angry at God. I used to be so close to him. Now, even though we go to church, I won't even take communion anymore, I just feel so wrong...I have turned my back...I have been so angry, I just didn't feel like I could go back...It hurts so much...I feel so distant from God. It is a horrible thing, and I am paying for it now. What does he want me for anyways? I am used goods mama. I turned him away.

October 11, 2006
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Mama,

(((hug))) that is a goodnight hug from me to you, tomorrow is going to be another extremely tough day for me I think. Again mama, I am so sorry. I do hope you will forgive me. I will talk to you soon...

Scared

October 11, 2006
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(((scared))), I have been following you and army's day, but don't know how to help when you guys are getting such good help already. BUT, I had to tell you that what you wrote armyleo was so touching. It touched my heart how caring you are.
It showed me how much you have to give the world and could tell what a great mom you are.

Gosh, I don't feel qualified to give you and army advice, but I just want to calm you both so you can make some rational decisions. Please go back and reread all the great advice you have received from caring people. Both of you are breaking my heart because I can't help you, just support you and care for you.

I have prayed for you and army today and will continue....GG

October 11, 2006
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Scared:

Please stop apologizing to me. This is what God has for me to do for now. Where would I be today had I not had someone step up and show me the way out? Surely not here.

I took a little time out and had dinner w/ my youngest and she and I played a flea game and a race car game. I hate race car games. I cannot get them to go where i want.

Scared... You are and will be in my prayers. I will tell ou that I have been so far from God also. I thought he has abandoned me also. Have you read the thread on libs. "K" I call her. That was one of those phone calls where you go runnin out of the house and jump into the truck to get the kids out of the house. She was in hiding almost a week and things are squared away. She now has the court papers saying the kids live w/ her. But, that's off chasing rabbits. sorry.
What I was gonna tell you is what she said to me. She said "It took all this for God to get my attention. Don't wait till you have this to give him your attention." What a slap in the face. She is totally right. We need to lean on him during the good times also, not just the bad. I'm one of those that seems to be the opposite. I am closer when things are good and when things go bad I hide. So, Mich... lean on HIM now. Don't wait. He is there; you just cannot see him because he is carrying you.

I want to leave you w/ a verse that I want you to stand on and remember and try to follow. This verse has gotten me thru some really dark days. "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

Now, I must go for the evening. I may pop in and out a bit but gotta get some laundry done and some things taken care of. Tomorrow I have the dentist ALL am. I will be back in the afternoon. You hang in there and you keep your chin up; hold your head high.

((( still holding you close )))

October 12, 2006
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Scared...

My heart goes out to you. I cannot even begin to imagine what you are feeling. I think the advice given to you quite a few postings back, about contacting a lawyer, might be very good advice to help you and the children come through this.

Please keep us posted. We are praying for you.

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October 12, 2006
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Mich~ It's late here where I'm at (1am)...just wanted you to know that you have been in thought today. LL

October 12, 2006
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michigan,

what you gave to armyleo is INCREDIBLE - you are an incredible, wonderful, strong woman, to help someone else when you are struggling yourself - be proud of yourself for reaching out, that is an incredible feat most humans never accomplish in their lifetimes - I am so proud of you for doing that. I think everyone has been following your story, and while all of us have not been posting, we have been here, with you, this whole time. Please take heart in knowing there is an army of us behind you, urging you on. You can do this, and you will do this, you will get through this. YOu have taken such a huge step forward today.

I have never been a religious person, michigan, I don't believe in the christian sense of a "god". But I believe in you, I believe in all of the wonderful people here, and I believe that SOMETHING goes on here at this site that is more powerful than simple human will - that there is a force here beyond human reckoning, that will get you through. So even though you don't feel close to "god", please know that however you define god, he/she/it is close to you. Right now. Stronginhim wrote something to me recently, something that makes me cry just to think of it - "god is always with the brokenhearted. He is there, right next to you". Please believe that. I believe that, and I am not areligious person, but it moved me, it spoke to me, and I knew it to be true. God is with you.

October 12, 2006
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(((Mich)))

I was away for most of that dramatic day... so glad to see you made it through with lots of excellent support from the good people here.

I think I saw you write somewhere that you believed you can now see light at the end of the tunnel -- that is so good to hear! The step has been taken that you didn't think could be taken, or that you didn't think you could survive... and you have survived!

I know that in the days to come you will find many more people who will support you and help you. It won't all be easy, but I believe better times are starting for you now. And you are good enough, and you deserve it. (((hugs)))

And what wonderful loving support you gave to ArmyAngel in the midst of your own suffering. I hope you are starting to remember and believe what a good person you are.

love & hugs to you. I will check in again tomorrow. kroika

October 12, 2006
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Well, here it is, the start of another long day....We will see how it goes. I am not too bad right now. I didn't sleep too well, so therefore I am still absolutely exhausted. However, I got up and went outside...There is SNOW on my roof and the hood of my car. I want to run away to where all of you live that is warmer than where I am. It is too damn cold here.

kroika-

I want to see the light..I was trying to be as upbeat as I could for Army.. That isn't an easy thing for me. I am sorry that right now I can't see the light in the possibility of me losing my kids..They are my everything. The only thing that I have, the only thing that keeps me alive from day to day. My hope is to get to a point before it is too late, to want to live for me. But, we will see. Right now, the only support I have is here, and that is where I am trying to stay. I need a lot of it, and I feel as if I am whining to a lot of you, that isn't my intent.... I hope that you are well aware, that in time my hope is to not need to whine to you guys, but to help other people.

South and GG,

Thank you both so much for your support. Things are tough, but it with the support from everyone here that I stand a chance at getting better. I try to be positive for Army, that isn't always easy. As I said to mama, it is hard to hold others together when you are falling apart yourself. But, I wanted her to try too. It breaks my heart to see what she is going through.

Mama,

Will respond to you in a little bit. But, thank you for being you and thank you for being there for me. It means the world to me.

Love to you all

Scared

October 12, 2006
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snow!, what's snow????LOL

October 12, 2006
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GG~ I have snow where I'm at too : )...Mich and I are neighbors in the great Midwest...

Mich ya up to making some snow angels?! I love the snow- love winter but don't like the cold - it's burrrrrrr outside right now

October 12, 2006
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GG-

Snow is the nasty white shot flying all over the place today. I was covered when I took my kids out to get on the bus....it is horrible. The kids think t is wonderful, I have a whole new vocabulary for snow.

I wanted to say this to you. You keep saying that you don't know what to say and how to support Army and I. Let me tell you this, just knowing that you are there right now means a lot to both of us. When we needed you to laugh and have fun with us the other night, you were there, eating pizza, and all of that too. You may not know what to say, but knowing that you care is more than 3/4 of the battle. It means a ton to me, and not a doubt, it dies to army as well. Please don't see yourself short. Army and I are both in situations GG, that only we can fix. Advice can be VERY helpful, and support is wonderful, but it has to be us who fix it. Now, that said, it amy not happen as easy as you all wouldlike to see it happen. It is tough for both Army and I right now. You guys all see quick answers to these problems, and it isn't that we can't see them, it just doesn't make it easy. And when it seems harder to fix it than it is to live with it, that makes it tough. We have it tough enough right now. I am smart enough to know that in the long run it will make things easier, BUT, in the meantime it is making it even more difficult. It is hard enough for me right now to get up and face every day. I don't want to. It would be so much easier if I had the balls to just kill myself. I feel a little weaker every day, and to put myself in a tougher position seems more than I can handle right now. So while you may be looking at it, going, Girls, Get out, Just support us for a while until we gain the strength to do that. We have a lot of support here, A LOT. If you don't feel like you have any advice to give that is adequate, (I think you underestimate yourself) but just stick with us until we can do something with the advice.

Did any of that make sense? I hope so. You are a GREAT person, don't sell yourself short.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Scared

October 12, 2006
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Wow, scared, you are so sensitive and intelligent. Thanks for your support! I had just finished praying for you, army, family, and friends during our moment of silence at work. Yet, for the first time, I prayed for myself.

I know you and army are feeling like we are pressuring you, we just want to help so badly...but yes, you have to make the change. I will always be here for both of you because both of you have touched my heart in a special way.

God bless you!!! Gonna turn the a/c on; it's getting hot here. What's winter??? Know what is sad, my kids are in college and have never seen snow. They want to ski, snowboard etc., just don't think we can afford it at this time. They do love the watersports though!

October 12, 2006
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Mama, GG, etc...

Can anyone tell me which thread is Armyleo's? I have posted to her on Libertion threads, but don't know which thread is hers on the Support side.

Thanks.

- Strong

October 12, 2006
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Mama, GG, etc...

Can anyone tell me which thread is Armyleo's? I have posted to her on Libertion threads, but don't know which thread is hers on the Support side.

Thanks.

- Strong

October 12, 2006
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Mich you're awesome...been wanting to say that to GG myself for some time now - thanks. It's now been said GG : )...

Mich you put it into words beautifully even amidst your pain.

October 12, 2006
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lovinglife...

I missed you...Thank you for all of your support as well. You have been a true blessing, to me, and to Army. We could have NEVER had a party without you and GG that night. The two of us drinking alone would have been a pity party, and instead, you guys made it fun. Thank you so much... We might have been stupid, BUT, we had a lot of fun...

Where are you from?

GG, if you mention a/c to me again, you will see a side of me you have never seen....hahahha. It is so frickin cold right now here, it isn't any fun...and to know that it will quite likely drop another 35 degrees is NOT on my list of things to SMILE about. I do appreciate your prayers. My faith is NOT what it could be, NO DOUBT, but I strongly appreciate the faith that you all have, and truly appreciate your prayers.

Scared

October 12, 2006
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*hurting today* Ma Strong

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(((LL))) So you have been wanting to say something to me????

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