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Lostagain27 Friday night alone
September 10, 2008
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LMAO!!!! WOOOOHOOOO!!!! 🙂 GO DAWGS!!!!!

You are the BOMB Lost!!!!

Thank you!!!!

Hug yourself!

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September 10, 2008
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(((Suzie)))
I am glad you had a fun time at the party and met some new people. You will get there nad people will see you shining through. It just takes some work and being confident in yourself. I know all to well what you mean by this.

R u doing better with everything? Has he bothered you anymore?

I did go for my walk and I found a yoga class. It starts on Monday so i have that to look forward to next week. It is frustrating and I hope that my real friends will shine through eventually. he is playing hte i am changing card. I hope he has changed for the sake of himself but it just still sucks.

I hope you are doing well SuzieQ ! keep us updated!!!

(((sad)))

I hope he doesn't show back up either and isn't working in your neighborhood like he says. I know that has to be nerve racking but just keep telling yourself that he will not affect you anymore.

You are right we don't feel like ourselves so it is hard to meet others and let them in. I wouldn't say i was outgoing. I basically make myself do stuff when people ask. I have great anxiety about it. Just like this weekend i am making myself go to the game.

that sucks about the mail lady. If you are ify about her then i would distance yourself from her.

Yes the wedding hangs over my mind all the time. I actually layed there and thought about it last night. I have 30 whole days to prepare myself for two days of being around my X . I jsut don't see how i will make it through without a breakdown. i want to tell them i am out but i think that;s a little to late!

(((Sad))) (((SuzieQ)))

September 10, 2008
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I am just going to wish everyone a safe and happy day for now. I am not able to respond to all as my computeer likes to eat my posts. I think that I am getting my other computer back to day and will repsond to each.

Quickly though...

Sad please join us. I would love to get to know you etter. I have been reading your thread as well. I am sorry that you are having such a difficult time. You seem to be deloping a great attitude though and that will carry you a long long way. You seem to a strong and determined women. Anytime you want to talk just jump in we are here.

Suzie glad to hear that you went to the party. It can

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I am just going to wish everyone a safe and happy day for now. I am not able to respond to all as my computeer likes to eat my posts. I think that I am getting my other computer back to day and will repsond to each.

Quickly though...

Sad please join us. I would love to get to know you etter. I have been reading your thread as well. I am sorry that you are having such a difficult time. You seem to be deloping a great attitude though and that will carry you a long long way. You seem to a strong and determined women. Anytime you want to talk just jump in we are here.

Suzie glad to hear that you went to the party. It can

September 10, 2008
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Ok I give the computer ate my post again!!!!! Had some GREAT stuff too! ARGGGGG!

So for now everyone have a safe and happy day. I will respond to all later when I get my computer back.

Sad, please join us. Lost and I have made a wonderful connection as well as Suzie, but there is always room for more. I look forward to getting to know you better.

Everyone Hug Yourself!

((((((All OF US))))))

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September 10, 2008
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Precious

I hope you get your computer back and you can start posting again!
I leave to see my counselor in a little while and will post later about it.

((( to everyone)))

September 10, 2008
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Sorry about the double posts guys. Silly computer!

((((Lost)))))

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September 10, 2008
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I went to my counselor this afternoon and now I have a headache and I am worn out! Does anyone else just become a big ole cry baby when you go in there??? I cry from the moment I step in until I leave. I guess I am alright, he has never said that my crying is anything to be concerned about or brought it up. Just curious as to if others do the same.

I first asked him to tell me straight up if he thought that people could change. And that if I was ever going to get through this and actually find a healthy partner and get married and have kids one day. That has been my main concern and fear when I found out that I was codependent. You just never hear of anyone who goes on to find a great partner and marriage. It gets depressing at times b/c you never hear these stories. He told me that yes I could change and yes we would work towards making me better and finding a healthy partner. But first it had to start with me. He said that if I were a schitzo for example then he would have to tell me no you can't change you b/c that is in your gentic makeup but since you are only codependent and that is a way of thinking then you can change. That made me feel much better but i still have a long road to go down!
AHHHHHHHHHH! is how I feel about taht long road.

I wish sessions were longer than 50 minutes I really do.

We talked about a whole lot of things. I am still sorthing through and thinking on it. So i don't have much more to share or tell you.

I hope everyone is doing well! My brain hurts and I am going to take a bath in lavender bubble bath. Self care

(((Precious))) (((sad))) (((SuzieQ)))

September 10, 2008
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((((lost)))))

I totaly believe that we can change. I already have in some ways. All I know is that we cannot chanhge anyone BUT ourselves.

About crying-I used to but for some reason lately I have not been crying I have been holding it back. I have a little in my sessions but very little. It is perfectly normal though. It can be a very frightening process plus talking to someone you really do not know is sort frightening to me. It makes me feel sooooo vulnerable. It akes me sometime to trust. Do you trust your counselor? How many times have you seen your counselor? Did you schedule another appointment?

In taking care of Mom for so long and dealing with the medical professionals and the like I learned much about the power of speaking up for what I need or in this case what my needed. I have learned to question when I am not certain about something and when I do not trust what I am being told. Fortunately this experince trasnlated to me being able to ask for what I need. It so empowering to be able to do so. I also use my sessions to practice behavior that I want to be able to use in the "real world" if you will.

When I first started counseling I was always exhausted after a session. I would be paralyzied for days afterwords sometiimes. My brain would hurt so bad I could hardly think straihgt sometimes. I just wanted to shut my brain off! I was so upset and paralized at one point I discussed it with my therapist and she said that when you work so hard and making progress in the beginning it can have that effect. I was so relieved. Chnage is a painful thing. If you do not experince pain then chances are you are not really working. That is not to say that every session will be that way. Eventually the pain will desipate and you will begin to move forward with more ease.

What I would recommend, what helped me, was to just try to process the session and then in the next day or so I would journal about what I felt in the session and what I wanted to address in the following session. Journaling has helped more than you know. Most of journaling is stream of conscious or questions that I have for my counselor.

What I asked of my therapist in the beginning was that she help with organization and direction. I can be all over the place sometimes and feel as though I am hampster on a tread mill. She has been wonderful about providing me with both.

Remember these are your sessions and you only get out them what you put into them. Do not be affraid to ask for what you need from your counselor. I know this is a foriegn concept to us to ask for what we need. But like I said before, counseling sessions are the perfect place to practice our new found assertiveness. I want to commend you for going in and asking direct questions, that is excellent self-care.

I used to focus on the long road, and what a long road I had in front me! Whew! But once I started gaining insight and figuring things out and felt the weight of the worl begin to lift, ever so slightly, I began to get excited about the prize at the end of that road. The best part for me was learning that I am not crazy and that it was not all me that my EX had some culpability in this as well. What a relieve that was. WOW!!!!

Although the road is long and will probably get pretty bumping at times, at least I will not have to live in denial anymore and will hopefullylearn to love myself in the end. At least that is my goal anyway.

I am realy proud of you Lost for goign back. I know it wasn't easy.I was in the exact same place as you being angry about being told that you may be codependent. It took courage to go back and face your fear and anger. Great self-care Girl.

I hope your bath was relaxing.

((((Lost)))))

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I have seen this counselor probably 10 times. I do trust him. I have to if i don't then this therapy thing isn't going to work. I figure it's his job to listen to me and probably anything that comes out of my mouth is not something he hasn't heard before. He even said that yesterday. I am crier though always have been. It's really not uncommon to cry when i am sad or angry. It just comes right on out! He scheduled me again for next week. I need as much help as i can get. I think my insurace my run out soon i am not sure on that though. But i think they have plans set up for those who can't really afford it and that would be me. I wouldn't be able to go if it weren't for my insurance.

I guess you are right. Talking about painful things and then trying to learn from sessions can be daunting at times. Makes your brain work on over time! I will try the journaling thing it might just help me put my thoughts out there and have questions for the next session. I too am all over the place with my thoughts. I seem to bounce around a whole lot. I need some organization I might just ask him to help me with it too.

I am still wore out from it. I am just like Blah. I really can even think straight. I am going to post more later. I have a lot to say just can't get it out right now.

How are you doign today?

(((Precious)))

September 11, 2008
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Lost,

I know what you mean, BLAH. It is so draining! Can eve be physically draining as well. My head would be sore for a day or 2 after a session.

You are absoloutley right you do have to be able to trust your counselor for ir to be able to work. But what I mean is DO YOU TRUST HIM? The only reason that I stress this that you and I, well many people do, had angry response to the notion of being codependent. I was like you and wanted to run but didn't and talked with the counselor about how I felt and questioned why she thought that I was. It helped me greatly to trust her, as well as my-self. Also, I got to practice standing up for myself. I will not harp on this anymore. But do you see where I am going with this.

I am having an axious day yet sort of hopeful day if that makeas sense. I spoke with an old friend from undergrad for a while this morning. It fekt good to catch up with her but very embarrasing at the same time. Hersel, Her husband, myself, and my EX along with seceral others used to hang out all the time in undergrad. She and I ended long term relationships at the same time. She began datig her husband and I began dating my EX at he same time. She ended up married had child and well you know what happened to me.

I am very talkitive today as well. I can't stand it when I am like this. I am going to try to relax and regroup. I also have much pressure from my lawyer to complete some necessary projects by tomorrow. UGH!!!!

Anyway, I have said to much I will stop here for now. I hope the rest of your day is goog.

Look forward to chatting with you later.

(((((Lost))))

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I do trust him. He is really #3 for me and the only one who has made me feel comfortable to say what i need too and open up. The other two were at various times in my life. #2 i felt really ackward sharing anything with so i quit seeing her that was a over a year ago. Some how the man i am seeing now gets my wheels turning and makes me want to explore more about myself no other counselor has ever done that for me and b/c of that i do trust him a whole lot! If i don't understand something or don't agree with it i do ask questions and tell him that i don't think that is it and explain myself why. I've never done that with another councelor. I always just let them run with it and left thinking this guy doesn't know what they heck he is saying. I associated this with not opening up more and saying no that's not it.

I hope that all came out right. I have it in my head but it isn't coming out in writing the way it sounds up there!

I have anxious days too. it is hard talking to friends we haven't seen in awhile especially when you have to tell them u are no longer with your X. It does make it hard.

YOu said you took Effexor. I battle day in and day out about taking meds to try and give me something to help me not get so emotional all the time. Did you ahve any side effects from it. My biggest fear is weight gain.

Good luck with the stuff with your lawyer and talk away if you have too. I get those days.

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Lost,

I am really glad that you trust your counselor. He sounds really good. It came out perfectly fine. I feel the same about my counselor. She gives me the room to be me and definetly helps me to explore what I need to.

I coulnd't make it without the effexor. I have had no problems with weight gain. I have been taking this since Jan. 06. I did have weight gain on Zoloft though. I had to stop taking it I was really starting to balloon and it stopped working. I drop the weight instantly. In regards to other side effets I really am not a good source for that information. I tend to be very sensitive to medication as is the rest of my family. However, others that I have spoken to say they didn't have any problems acclimating to the medication.

You spoke of insurance in your last post. If I were you I would research what medications that your plan will cover and then go on to WeBMD and research the medication. Also, you have said that you are daling with anxiety Effexor is really good for that as is celexa, Paxil (major weight gain for woman though), and I think that are new one that my counselor mentioned but I can't remember the name right now. My counselor was glad that I was on Effexor and said most of her clients that are on it have done really well. So I would talk with my counselor about the meds, research the insurance, and research the medications on the web.

Yes it is very difficult to talk with old friends. Quiet embarassing actually. But in talking to I realized how far I had come. Felt good but anxiety provoking at the same time. I guess part of it has to do with realizing how long I was actually involven in the denialan crazyness of it all. WOW!!!! 14 years. Scary suff, Lost, scary stuff. EEEKKK!!!

Thank you Lost for being so supportive and kind.

Hug YourSelf!

((((Lost)))))

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My whole family is on anxiety meds. My mother is on Zoloft, Sister Celexia and Brother Celexia.
My brother and sister started on Paxil and both ended up gaining a whole lot of weight. SO it makes me nervous about it. There is no doubt that i have anxiety issues based on my family history. I would have been one of the lucky ones if i didn't the doctor always says. I am just wondering if it will make me think clearly and actually get some rest so i don't feel so heavy and tired all the time and emotional. Even my back hurts constantly. it's starting to wear on me.

I have good insurance but have to go through a psychiatrist to get them before insurance will approve it.

I will talk to my thearpist about it and see what he says. I am just so scared of taking medicine for some reason.

14 years is a long time precious! You are so strong and doing so good for that amount of time with someone. I was only in mine 2-1/2 years and you are light years ahead of me it seems like.

I have this overwhelming urge of writing my X an email today. I just feel like this will never get any better and I will never be happy. I'm not so sure why i am so down. I am down all the time. I hate it!!!

Thanks for talking to me.

(((Precious)))

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(((((Lost))))), You are very welcome. I have really enjoyed getting to know you.

We must be related somehow!! That is the way it is with anxiety. Research has shown that children with parents that have anxiety are at much greater risk of developing anxiety.

On a another note for a momment..these are the times that I wish that this was not anonymous!

Anywho! The great thing about anxiety and depression is both are very treatable. I believe it is even more treatable with therapy in conjucntion with medication. Believe me when I tell you that the medication will definetly clear the "Brain Fog" as I call it and help you to sleep better.. Before I took the medication I knew I was depressed because I woul wake up feeling like I had been hit by a mac truck. When I started take the meds. I slept so much better. So the answer is yer to both questions.

I am really not light years ahead Lost. But please everyone goes this process at their own pace and longevity of the relationship is not a factor. I know that when I first stared posting here I thought that something was wrong with me because it was taking so long to get over everything. I was so frustrated with everyone saying it gets better, it will get better, or your pain will stop soon. I thought that I would lose mind if I heard that one more time.

Well guess what everyone was right it does get better. The urge to e-mail, call, text whatever will also dispate as you begin to better understand what is that drives to want/need that contact. Remember what Suie wrote she stopped and realized that while her X gave her reassurance he also took her down and only wanted to contact for that comfort that she thought she couldn't give herself. It feels like you are in that spot. I have been so many times I have lost count. You have just been some rough stuff with counseling and really working hard here, and on your own. You have been doing a lot of new things and that is scary and you seem to be searching for some familiarity right now. It is normal. All part of the process.

You are doing so well Lost. Truly you are. You have worked so hard latelY. While that can be exciting and fun it can also be very scary. I know I am right their with you. The whole situation with me not e-mailing my EX back a totally new behavior and mind set for me that has had me sort of anxious lately. But I m going to hang and continue to talk with you and get through this.

I thought about this this afternoon. While I a anxious about this new behavior it is nothing like the pain I cause myself when I do have contact with. I am very uncomfortable but nothing like the pain of being rejected and mistreated. I a not going to go there again. I couldn't handle it.

I think that giving the medication a chance is worth a try especially since you are seeing a counselor. Paxil is the worst for gaining weight. I really do not know about the celexia, and the Efforox from my experience is nothing. Besides you have already started an exercise program and starting yoga on Monday. That will help greatly with the anxiety and the depression for that matter. Most importantly if I had an opportunity to clear my "brain fog" and lessen my anxiety weight gain would be the least of my worries.

Do your Mother, sister, or brother exrcise at all and/or eat a healthy diet? Do they smoke? I can tell you when I was on the Zoloft I was not exercising like I should I was to busy with Grad. School at that time.

I hope that you have a relaxing evening. Hug yourself!

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(((Precious)))

Yes I wish this place wasn't anonymous either! My whole mother's side of the family has some sort of anxiety disorder really just generalized with paniac attacks. I can remember in my childhood having it. In fact my dang life and it makes more sense to me now that i look at it. My mom wasn't diagnosed until 15 years ago so I was brought up in an anxiety ridden home .She was always so scared all the time. My father never understood. I think that is where all my fears and anxiety come from. learning it from her and just having it in my bilogical makeup! UGh!

I too am frustrated with everyone saying it will get better with time, it gets easier. I don't believe that yet b/c i still believe unless i have my X i am not goign to be okay. And yes i am looking for some kind of familarity here to make this pain go away. I feel like it never will until he comes back. I have to get this idea out of my head. I have to figure out why I want him there in the first place!!!

My mother, brother and sister do no exercise or eat healthy. My sister smokes. My brother quit and started exercising just in the last couple of months. I too am a smoker, I have cut back a lot in the past couple of months. trying to get rid of habits.
Does smoking have something to do with it?

Thanks for talking to me Precious!

You made sense about not contacting your X and being anxious. It does make sense b/c you are not used to doign that so for you it doesn't feel like a normal process. But that is a step for you.

I haven't written my X in a very long time. I want to or to call and jsut hear his voice but something holds me back from it. I think my dignity really.

hope you have a good day!

(((Precious)))

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Precious

I didn't even ask you how you were doing today?
You are going back home on Monday right? I bet you are excited.

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(((((Lost)))))))

OMG!!!! I AM SO ANGRY!!!! But I am going to take a deep breath now! OK! I just lost my post. ACKKKKKK!

I can't wait to get home to my computer.

I am sorry I will have to keep this short.

I think that you are doing great. You did not contact your EX because of your dignity! That is HUGE my friend. I do not think that you could have said that ummm 2-3 weeks ago? Could you? Celebrate it GIRL!!!

To my knowledge smoking has nothing to with weight gain and antidepressants. At least I have not seen any research to suggest that it does. I was trying to point out that you seemed to be making some healthy changes in your life and that would help you in fighting the weight gain. I to am a smoker. However, I have cut down and changed my diet. I have fought weight gain since I was 8-9 years old. I am a healthy weihgt now. Exercise has been the main thing that has kept the weight off for me while taking effexor. Oh and if I have not mentioned before the effexor has helped my anxiety greatly. It was approved to help generalized anxiety disorder. It works too.

I will write more about my personal experience with anxiety later if you think that it would help you. I have to get to the UPS store to ship somethings to my lawyer.

I am having an ok day today. I am just trying to stay focosed on tomorrow. ROLL TIDE ROLL! and GO DAWGS!!!! I can't wait. Oh yeah!!!! and Rightous Kill opens tonight! I love ganster movies they're my favorite.

I am driving home Monday! I dread that drive. Yuck! But I will sure be glad to be home I tell ya!

Talk to you later! Have Fabulous Day!!! Remember to breath!

HUG YOURSELF!!!!

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((((Precious))))

I am sorry the computer you are using keeps eating your posts. I know that has to be frustrating!

I would like to hear you story on anxiety when you have to time to write and maybe your computer will not eat your post this time. 🙂

i have had the strength since the day he left to not contact him. In fact I think i have just been in la la la land up until two months ago over all of this and now the hurt and pain are really starting to show in me. I think I kept it away for the first couple of months b/c i jsut didn't want to believe any of it and now oh boy does it hurt like hell! But lately i have had the urge and I am fighting it off like no ones business!!! it's tough.

ROLL TIDE and GO DAWGS ( i can't say that in two weeks) hee hee hee 🙂
I haven't even kept up with the movies coming out lately. R u going to see it?

have a good day too!

I am tryign to breathe. 🙂

(((Precious)))

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Hi Lost,

How's your Friday night going? I hoping because I have not seen you around tonight that you are out having a good time!

I just wanted to say hello and let you know that I have not foregotten about sharing my experience with anxiety. I have had an headache most of the day and can't really concentrate all that well. When I am better able to concentrate and have better computer I will share. Just didn't want you to think that I had foregotten about you.

Well if you are not out tonight at least tomorrow night you will be getting out of the house and better still at an Bama Football Game! I am stuck watching the UGA on the TV. But at least my sister has a HUGE BIG Screen TV! Sorta feel like you are there. Not the same though! I would love to go tailgating! OOOO that would be fun!

Well i hope you are having a good evening. Talk to you soon. Hug you often!

(((((Lost))))

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Hey you guys! How goes it?

Lost--you started this post one week ago tonight. What are you doing this Friday night?

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(((Precious))) (((Sad about it)))

Precious I am sorry you have had such a headache today! I hope you get to feeling better soon. When ever you feel like sharing is fine with me!

Yes tonight I did go out to a friend of mines house. It was four of us girls just hanging out. All we did was talk and watch Ike roll in. Thier men were all out together so it was a guy and girls night out. It was actually really nice. Being the single one it is hard to spend time with your girlfriends without their men around. I didn't feel like a wheel of any kind. They didn't talk about my X any so that was a relief. I always am so anxious when i am around them hoping they don't tell me something that would crush me. Silly really but I don't want to know what he is up too. I thought about it. Wondering if their men were with him but decided not to ask.
I was going to spend the night b/c they live 45 from me but decided to come home instead, I wanted to get a good nights rest and be ready for the game tomorrow.

I can't wait for the game tomorrow. It will be tough b/c the X used to go but I am going to make the best of it. I did it before him I can still do it is my attitude! Sounds like you have the right kind of TV to watch that game on! GO DAWGS!!! I believe you guys are playing South Carolina? Is that correct???

ROLL TIDE!!! Or as we say RTR
I have my outfit picked out and ready to go. I always buy at least three new shirts for the season. lol... it's something i love doing. This could be considered self care. I think.

Sad
How are you doing hun? How are things? Yes I did post a week ago tonight. Ha funny but i did have plans this time and had a great time. Made me feel better hanging with the girls. I am starting to think the older we get and the more some of us start to settle down the less we will get that time so I embrace it when I can.

After the game tomorrow night if I don't get back to late I will be going to a friend's birthday party or to another friend of mine's going away party. Depends on how i feel, what time it is and where they are at. So if i am not around tomorrow night. I hope you guys have a great Saturday! And i hope the Dawgs win Precious!

Thank you guys for being supportive and caring it really helps more than you know!!!

Hugs all around

Lost

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Hi lost,

I hope that you are enjoyig your game. UGA won. Go Dawgs. it was a tough one I tell ya!

Anyway, I just wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you. I know what the firsts can be like and they suck big time. I am proud of you for going and facing your fear and sadddness. It will carry you a long way.

Talk to later.

(((((Lost))))

Precious

September 14, 2008
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((((LOST)))))

What is going on? I just your post on the no contact thread. I know firsts are hard but dont you pick up that phone or type that e-mail or test! You hear me? It is not worth it.

I want to call, e-mail or something so bad I can't stand it. I saw something today on TV that really ripped my heart apart and I came this close to contacting EX but I didn't. Instead I logged on here to see who was here and I posted to you.

Talk to me if you are still here. Other wise I will check in later.

Get some restful sleep. Hug Yourself.

Precious

September 14, 2008
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(((Precious)))

Go Dawgs! You guys did have a tough game but pulled it through in the end. I just can't get over the Auburn game .I have to laugh on that one! 3-2 WTH? It's fine by me I was hoping that would lose. I am tired of them ragging us!!!

All kinds of things happened Precious. I did face my fear in fact I didn't even want to go to the game. I cried about it but forced myself . I got all dressed up cute picked up my sister and went. I am glad I did b/c I had Sky Box tickets to this game and Jay Barker ( former UA QB for the 92 championship) and his wife Sarah Evans ( country music singer) were in the box with us. They were so nice and such good people. Jay is so freaking hot I think I watched him more than the game! Ha ha ha ! we won 41 -7 and I did have a good time b/c i got to meet some people the everyone dies to meet.

But i had my moments of missing him. I just thought about how excited he would be to meet them like I was. He would have eaten it up. He loved the Tide just as much as i did. I tought about him often and how things were different but it was the first and I made it through and faced my fear! I am glad it is over. But it gave me that urge. And no i am not going to contact him at all!

And please don't contact yours either! Good for you for doing something to take that urge away to contact him! Stay strong as I will too!

I was supposed to go to a friend's Birthday party when I got home from the game but I called her and she said well i just want to warn you he is here. So i told her that i loved her nad wished her a great party and birthday but I just couldn't come. She said she understood. So I am upset over that now b/c i just miss being around him.

It actually pisses me off about the situtaion though. She emailed me all week asking if i was coming nad I told her I would even if i was tired from the game. Then i call her and he is there. To me since I told her i would be there, it would have been nice of her not to invite him but they did. After months and months of telling me they did not like his lifestyle and didn't want to be around him but they have been a lot more lately. Not sure why. But it sucks.
I try and think about it logically and I guess i can't be too mad. This is the really the first time where i have run into this issue. They are friends with him too so it's just going to happen for both of us. I decided not to be around him. UGH! This shit just sucks! My emotions are all over the place and i miss the ass!

sorry for rambling. I am tired and angry.

I hope you had a good night!!!

(((Precious)))

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