
8:27 pm

September 30, 2010

Hello,It has been awhile since I have posted. I'm glad to see some familiar names still and hope everybody is doing as well as can be. I have been making some progress and have alsotaken some backward steps as well. I have tried to contact ex and did speak to him briefly one day and he said we could get together soon and of course after a few days I called time after time and he would not answer,so I felt pretty dumb to have called at all.It's as if I went back for some more phychological brain torture. I'm trying to get back to God and regain some of the peace I once had,but it is coming along slowly. Something has happened to my spirit and I am feeling quite depressed these days. I started going out and drinking,smoking,sleeping around,Yeah that really helped,LOL I have now come to my senses and am doing more constructive things with myself. I am getting things taken care of financially and am now setting short term goals for future progress. I have really ruined myself socially because of my drinking,but I can change that. I am laying low for awhile and have committed to stop drinking and smoking and making that my trademark. I have vowed to God that I will stop and asked him to be with me and strengthen me through it. Well I have vented enough. I hope everyone the best and I will be including this group in my prayers. Thanks Free2bme
8:58 pm

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September 27, 2010

Good to hear from you, Free2bme. I'm sorry things haven't been going better lately, but we do usually snap back again. I have been there so many times with the one step forward and 2 or 3 back, but I have learned to stay hopeful that I can do it once again. I gave up smoking years back by just praying and asking God to take them as I couldn't handle them and to my surprize he did from that day on. I just have to remember to say thankyou more often now. I wish you the best with everything. Take care.
10:37 pm

September 30, 2010

dear free i am new here and have only really this week ended the relationship. that is going to be the hard part for me not talking to him daily. so i guess i can expect one step forward two steps back. when i hurt really bad i have a strong desire to numb the pain.with drink or medication so i can just sleep. i know i have to wake up and it's still there . time to deal with it. we have a hard road ahead don't we hon? i do have one thing in my favor i'm looking forward to see where these steps take me. keep myself busy and do positive things for me as songbird said have a relationship with me now. goodnight tomorrow is a new day.
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