Hello,It has been awhile since I have posted. I'm glad to see some familiar names still and hope everybody is doing as well as can be. I have been making some progress and have alsotaken some backward steps as well. I have tried to contact ex and did speak to him briefly one day and he said we could get together soon and of course after a few days I called time after time and he would not answer,so I felt pretty dumb to have called at all.It's as if I went back for some more phychological brain torture. I'm trying to get back to God and regain some of the peace I once had,but it is coming along slowly. Something has happened to my spirit and I am feeling quite depressed these days. I started going out and drinking,smoking,sleeping around,Yeah that really helped,LOL I have now come to my senses and am doing more constructive things with myself. I am getting things taken care of financially and am now setting short term goals for future progress. I have really ruined myself socially because of my drinking,but I can change that. I am laying low for awhile and have committed to stop drinking and smoking and making that my trademark. I have vowed to God that I will stop and asked him to be with me and strengthen me through it. Well I have vented enough. I hope everyone the best and I will be including this group in my prayers. Thanks Free2bme