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Is anyone up...I am having a hard time tonight.
August 7, 2007
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I am really down at the moment and cannot sleep.

August 7, 2007
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I am up, what's up?

August 7, 2007
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Fantas ~

Just feeling really down. Found out one of my good friends was just diagnosed with acute leukemia.

And sometimes I feel that God or something is just playing a cruel joke on me and I don't know what the punch line is.

August 7, 2007
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Alot of the time I feel like I just don't fit in anywhere.

August 7, 2007
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(((Red blonde))) That has to be hard. Hearing that about your friend. How is she. How advanced is the leukemia at this point?

August 7, 2007
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I know that feeling. I used to feel that way. In fact I think until a few years ago, I always felt like I didn't belong..

August 7, 2007
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Are there other things going on in addition to your friend's diagnosis?

August 7, 2007
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They want her to go into the hospital and go through chemo in a sterile environment...like a quarantine or isolation. They think it is something viral that has caused this. I don't know what to say to her except keeping her hopes up...and they are talking about bone marrow transplants. This is only in the last month.

August 7, 2007
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I am trying to keep positive thoughts about the outcome. But sometimes it is so hard.

August 7, 2007
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Thank you for being up. Why are you up? I am on the East coast and it is almost 4 am. ((((Fantas)))

August 7, 2007
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Yeah, that's quite a lot to handle. I think it's often harder for the people lookin on because there is nothing much you can do for her but to support her and say lots of prayers for her. One thin I know is that at times like this you know who your true friends are. So hang in there with her. Perhaps you can direct your sadness to prayers or cards for her...it might help you feel more empowered.

August 7, 2007
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I was grading papers for the course I was teaching and just couldn't sleep. I feel the sleep coming now. It's 12:46 here

August 7, 2007
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I have lost so much in my lifetime...and good friends are hard to find.

August 7, 2007
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Don't let me keep you up...I am just feeling sorry for myself.

August 7, 2007
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(((Red Blonde))) Stay positive. it's true about good friends and even harder about true friends. But all we need is one good one.

August 7, 2007
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I will go sleep at one. I will feeling sleepy enough 🙂

August 7, 2007
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Thank you for listening to me...You are right....I should stay positive for her sake. I just felt so very alone at the moment. (((Fantas)))

August 7, 2007
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The world can seem very grim between the hours of 3-5. I often use these times to meditate and visualize my life as I wish it would be. It's like taking a ride through fantasy land without anyone telling me to get off..

August 7, 2007
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I worked this evening and I haven't been sleeping well since she told me. I really should be focusing positive healing energy to send to her and saying some prayers...my way.

August 7, 2007
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I think you'd feel so much better. Just put a soothing CD on and see her happy and well like you have so many times. I bet you she will experience a moment of peace and so will you. It's touching that you are thinking and worrying about her.

August 7, 2007
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I know what you mean...I am usually a optomistic and positive person...but tonight...I just can't seem to do it....got to get out of this frame of mind...and start visualizing like you said...I do that as well...but I have had some other not so good news today as well...involving other friends. Guess it all got to me.

August 7, 2007
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Well, Cinderella must head to bed now. I wish a peaceful morning and day. I am visualizing peaceful moments for you right now (((RB)))

August 7, 2007
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sorry Fantas.

I will keep you and your friend in my prayers.

August 7, 2007
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Too much going on around me...and my therapist and a psychic friend both have told me that I am trying too hard to control things out side of myself because then I don't have to focus on myself and what I really want.

August 7, 2007
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Good night, Fantas! Sleep well and be fully rested when you arise. And thank you for listening to me.

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