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June 13, 2003
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Hey Boland, are u around? How are things going?

I'm fine, I've become a bit more active taking care of things that I need to take care of (errands and stuff around the house) and I've even started walking in the evenings. I feel a lot better, only the loneliness is unbearable at times, especially in the weekend evenings. There are some moments, like now, I feel I won't make it through the loneliness and I'll break down.

June 13, 2003
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hi mafi, good to hear from you, things are going ok now with my sister and my aunt back, i have slept better, but im having bad dreams about the attack, i just wish it would go away, but i quess it just gonna be there, its farthers day here on sunday, i wish i could go out and buy my dad a present, and give it to him in his hands and just hug him, but i cant, my sister got sent home today from school ill, slept ever sience, its not like her, just hope shes ok, she got upset, her teacher was telling me, they was making farther days cards, and she just cryed sign she with she had a dad, my sister is hurting and there isnt any thing i can do, that kills, but im doing ok, my eatting isnt doing well this week, but im ok, just a bit all over the place. im thinking about going back to college, scary, sorry to hear your having a hard time being alone, i know ho that feels, hag in there,
im here, if you want to talk.

June 13, 2003
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Hi again,

I understand about the nightmares. I think, though, it's a good sign meaning that you're healing (it happens to me that when I advance in my healing, I am able to remember the nightmares. The nightmares are there all the time and affect us, only when we are not getting stronger we don't remember them in the morning. So it's a good sign, I think, that you're remembering them).

I'm sorry to hear about your pain and your sister's on this day...I understand the pain. I'm glad your sister has this family to support her in her pain and a home to come back to on a day like this.

I so hope you'll feel strong enough to go back to college !

I'm going to bed now, I have to get up a bit early for my Psychodrama session.

Have a lovely night !

June 13, 2003
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mafi thanks, sleep well hope your phychodrama session goes well for you tomorrow,

the nightmares i remember clear, every time, its about the attack the same faces, the same things no different, to what happened, its like its always there, some times i have nightmares about my mum and her beating me, but not as much as the attack ones, when i wake up im really hot, unsure, watery eyes,, till i remember where i am, i dont know if i shout out when im having these dreams or anything, my aunt said she sometimes hears me and comes in to carm me, but she doesnt like to wake me from the dream, said it can do some thing, they are horriable how they make me remember all the time tho, i hope they do go away and i dont remember them when i wake up soon, its been a year now tho, and they are still there,

mafi i would love to know how my sis is feeling right now, i know she misses dad, but if only my sis could talk it would be differnt, its hard for my sis to say how she is feeling through sign lanuage, most the time when she is upset tho she just crys, i wish i could change a lot of things,my aunts had to phone the doc out to my sis, she isnt herself and seems really weak, i just hope shes ok, were still wathing for him'her should be here soon, my aunt and bf looks worryed, my aunt phoned her bf at work and he came home, im scared, my sis she does look ill, last time she was ill she was the same as she is now, i really wish and pray to God that my sis is ok, im gonna go now,

sweet dreams look after your self,

thanks for the support mafi, talk with you tomorrow,

June 14, 2003
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morning mafi hope your session went well, the doctour finally came out about 10 45 pm, my sister is ill, but thankfully hasnt got to go into hospital, she has a chest infection, which is really bad for my sis, because her lungs are not strong, and are really weak, so shes on her machine, all day now, as well as night, she looks grey this morning, my aunt and bf havent been around my sis while shes been ill in there care, so they are really unsure, or scared in a way, and what to do, my sis look worste today than what she did yesterday, i told my aunt to take my sis up the hospital, because she isnt right, the doc who came out didnt know my sis, so the way i see it is that he doesnt really understand my sis needs, and how a chest infection can affect her, but NO I HAVE TO KEEP QUITE I DONT KNOW, the doctour knows what he is doing, im told, by my aunt, i know my sister and i know when she needs help, i got really angey with my aunt last night, told her that if my sis gets worste and has a fit or any thing, its gonna, kill her, i didnt mean to say it, she just upset me because of the way she kinda pushed me away like i dont know what to do, ive done it for years and i know now what my sis needs and when she is going to have a fit, but no im WRONG, but when it does happen, they will see, i do know, when my sis goes grey colour she usual has a fit, and if shes got a chest infection, she wont be as strong as usual, and it will be harded to get her to come back round, but my aunt, and bf are not listerning, I KNOW THIS WILL HAPPENED, my aunt bf the mornin said he will phone them if she gets worser, but she is, and they can see, it!! im just gonna phone my self,

June 14, 2003
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Can you call yourself and have they come? I would do it.

June 14, 2003
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mafi i didnt call, and now because i never called my sister is ill more, she had a fit, scared the heil out of me, my aunt didnt know what to do, i was shouting at her telling her to phone the hospital and to help me, my aunt just stood there, STILL WHY, i was scared my self but my sister i had to help i tryed to hold her still get her and keep her on her side, but i couldnt do it, i knew this was gonna happened and i didnt do any thing, i quess i am the one in the wrong here, i should of phone last night or this morning, then my sis would of been ok, but I DIDNT, when the parmatics were there, i just had to stand back and watch, i could of help her but i didnt i failed my sis in a whole big way, and i feel so bad rigth now, we have been up the hos all day, im going back up soon, i had to come home for my medication, I could of stop it from happeneing, but i didnt, if my sister died, then it would of been my fault, because i didnt help when i need to, its my fault this happened to my sister, im not allowed back up till morning, which i think is really wrong, but some how my aunt has stuck her nose in and told the nurses, i need my rest to, and that it isnt good for me to get worked up, and the nursrs are backing her up, SO WHAT, SHES MY SISTER, i should me there, i forgot im just a kid i dont understand anything, i really want to screem and go, this is wrong, sorry mafi you dont want to know about this,

hope your doing ok and your not feeling alone look after your self

June 14, 2003
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Boland, is your sister at home now? Or was she taken to hospital?

Have you ever read the 12 basic human rights? Do you know what I'm talking about?

June 14, 2003
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I hope the link works. If not, copy paste the http…..pdf to go into the site.

basic children's rights

June 14, 2003
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Trying again:

children's rights

June 14, 2003
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Since the links don't work, here they are:

the right to be treated with respect

the right to make mistakes and be responsible for them

the right to refuse requests without having to feel guilty or selfish

the right to ask for what you want (realising that the other person has the right to say 'no')

the right to be listened to and to be taken seriously

the right to say "I don't understand"
the right to ask for information

There are three response styles:

passive

aggressive

assertive

A passive response is to behave as if other people's rights matter more than theirs.

An aggressive response is to behave as if your rights matter than those of other people.

An assertive response is to respect themselves and others equally.

June 14, 2003
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mafi i dont know what your on about, soory, but i know there is things i can do and cant, thanks for trying tho, the site didnt work

June 14, 2003
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I'm going to bed, a new week starts tomorrow ! Nighty nite !

June 14, 2003
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thanks mafi, for the writes, my sis is in hospital, i phoned my aunt just told her that i need to be there, and that im coming up, still said i cant, and to rest, i dont need to rest, why do people tell me to rest all the time, i phoned my social worker she can get me there, as really my sis is the only family i have,

arwen what you said about how social workers can help, helped thank you,

my social worker said she will get back to but im not hoping,

i just go my self, no matter how scared i'll be or what happens, im gonna go back up the hospital,my sis needs me right now and i need her, my sis would not be there now if i helped sooner, i dont really know if its best for me to be at home here or at the hospital, i could of stoped my sis from getting worse but didnt,

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