Hi everyone. It has been awhile since I had first visited this site. It was a God send for me and I thank you all who were there for me at that time in my life. It was a complete mess then. I was almost at the end of my rope and almost didn't make it. I had lost everything and I mean everything.
Today, I can look back and say that it was a long journey but I made it. I don't feel the same way as I did then. Since then I have made progress in my career, new home, friends and now a relationship. Every aspect of my life has changed including me. At that time I swore I would never ever go through a mess like that again. I took care of me!!!
I have met a terrific guy who is intelligent, warm, caring, loving to his children, myself and my children. There is nothing this man can't do. My family loves him too.
Now...I am nervous. He has asked me to marry him. You see I live 2 hours away from him but we still commute back and forth if you can believe that. He wants me to move into his house with open arms to myself and children. Do you believe what you are reading? Scary isn't it? I guess when I think about the past it scares me. Why am I nervous? Well, that would mean, a new home, leave my job, uproot my children. I guess for one its the change. I do love this man but I wish he lived closer so that I wouldn't have to quit my job. I guess that gives me a form of security and I do really like my job. It is one that I have really worked hard for. He too has a very good job. The only difference is he is the boss of his own company and for marketing purposes and monetary reasons I don't think he should move. He is doing very well with his business. I will eventually move but it will really sadden me to leave my job. I look at life alot different these days and have matured in so many ways. I guess I am nervous about the big change in my life again. At least this is a good one but another new start. Life is too short to ponder on what if and should I. I am just nervous .....
Thanks for listening
Cerry