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IM BACK : ) -rw
February 9, 2009
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Whoooo hooooo i am back finaly. Im so happy we bought an awesome computer. My husbands on vacation right now but friday he goes back I am just so thrilled to be back YAY

February 9, 2009
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woooooooo hooo RW is back in action!!!!

February 9, 2009
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Welcome back!

February 9, 2009
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Yay!!! Glad to see you around!!!

February 10, 2009
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I am so glad to be here. I will be able to really talk when my husband is back to work

February 10, 2009
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Hi RW,

So glad to see you back !! How have you been? How are the kids?

tb

February 10, 2009
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ive been ok the first few days with out the internet I was a mess though I mean a big mess. I found out a few days ago that the man who abused me is out of prison again. He lives in the same part of the city as me so it makes me kinda scared to go anywhere. I have to call the health depeartment today and see if they have any programs that would alow me to get a breast exam I found a lump about 2 weeks ago. There is a lot going on here I have gone on pilot mode the lights are on but no ones really home. sometimes its the only way I can make it though. Ive been trying really hard not to cut. It hasnt worked. I did have a great little mini get away though my husband and I went to the coast for 2 days and one night. We stayed at a beautiful hotel it was so nice to get away for a little bit. It was a much needed break. Anyway I have to get michael off to the bus. I will check in later

February 10, 2009
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Hey RW nice to see ya around again. About a breast exam check also with your local American Cancer Society, they have resources and places that do free or very low cost breast exams for those without insurance or have financial hardships. Also your state welfare department can steer you in a direction that will get you information on health issues and for those uninsured.
I know it can be scary to find a lump but most times it is nothing and some women have naturally lumpy breasts after having children. However that being said it is also something that should really be checked out. My mom has had breast cancer and after christmas we found out it had returned after 3 yeaars and now things are not looking real great for her. It is stage 4 and it has already spread to her bones and lymph nodes and surrounding tissues. So please have it checked out and don't wait.

Nice to have you back.

February 10, 2009
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Im so sorry to hear about your mom. I will defenetly check those things out. I told my husband that I had a lump and need to see a doctor and he told me to do what evers cheapest. There is cancer on both sides of my family so it does scare me I just wished he had a little more heart.

February 10, 2009
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you could also search free breast exams. there are many foundations that can help. just mention you found a lump and cancer runs in your family.

February 10, 2009
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a lot of them require that you be over 40 years of age

February 10, 2009
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RW,

It sounds like your going threw a lot. How long has your abuser been in prision? I once found a lump on my breast too. I know how scary that feeling is.
Dont beat yourself up to much for cutting. If I can ask, where do you normally cut yourself ?

RW, Keep posting... keep talking.. I just want you to know, I care... and will be here anytime you want to talk.

tb

February 10, 2009
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Not all of them some will do it for younger women if there is a family history or a lump there already.

February 10, 2009
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Well he was sent to prison when i was 13 he got out when I was 22 then has been in and out since Im 25. I havent seen him since I was 13 and the thought of running into him at the store scares the hell out of me. I usually cut on my upper legs or my tummy amongst my stretch marks

February 10, 2009
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RW,

It is understandable that you would be scared at the idea of running into him. Where do you think you might, accidently run into him at? Anywhere or are there certain places that is more likely for you to run into him?

So when did you start cutting?

February 10, 2009
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It could be anywhere the grocery store walmart anywhere. I started cutting around the age of 19

February 10, 2009
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RW,

Did he go to prision, for the abuse against you... or for a different issue? How old are you now ?

I want to contuine to chat with you, I am leaving work and have an appointment with my therpist. But I will log on later... if you want to chat.

Maybe you should post a poem about how you feel... like before maybe it will help you get some of these feeling off your mind...and besides I love reading your work... you really are talented.

I hate to run right now but I really got go.

I'll talk to you really soon.

Take care,
tb

February 10, 2009
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He was sentenced to 10 years for his crimes against be and served 8. I dont have much time to write tonight but friday night I will certainly be on my husband works

February 11, 2009
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is anyone up tonight

February 11, 2009
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Hi RW,

I'm up late tonight, are still up ? I'm here.

February 11, 2009
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RW,

I will check back with you tommrow night... I will be attending a trade show, so wont be able to get on line til then.

I'll be praying for you and thinking about you. Keep posting, all you can.

tb

February 11, 2009
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RW,

I will check back with you tommrow night... I will be attending a trade show, so wont be able to get on line til then.

I'll be praying for you and thinking about you. Keep posting, all you can.

tb

February 11, 2009
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Ty sweetheart I wont be on tonight my husband will be home He had to work grave yard yesterday though. So he wont be up until noon my time.

I hate not sleeping well. I slept awful last night it was full of dreams that luckily I cant remember I went to sleep about 11:30pm and my littlest son woke up at 12:45am then again at 1:45 and was up until like 2:30 then my husband got home at 4 am then my littlest son woke up again then I finally got up at 7:15. I'm tired this morning. I have to call the Oregon health department this morning and see if I qualify for a free cancer check. I meet the income guidelines just not the age so we shall see.

My husband isn't worried about me at all. See when i first found the lump my sis in law told me to wait a month and see if it changes and my mother in law told me to get it checked out right away for peace of mind and my husband told me to do what ever is cheapest. I cant even explain how much that hurt.

February 12, 2009
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Hi RW,

Just cking in with ya. How's it going? I hate not getting a good nights sleep either. I gotta have at least my 8 hrs... or I am a big crabby patty. 🙂

Hopefully you can get the cancer screeing done, for free. I had a small lump on my breast once and it is avery scary feeling. But it's best not to dwell on it to much if you can help it. My doctor told me one of the biggest signs that it is breast cancer is that the lump will keep growing larger and larger.. Has that been happening ? I think it's best to get it look at, as soon as you can.

I would be pretty hurt to if my husband did what your did. I'm so sorry for all the pain you are going through.

Hope today is a good day for you. I'll check back again soon.

tb

February 12, 2009
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Ty sweetheart I woke up today feeling awful but im feeling much better right now. I keep on putting the cancer screening off I guess cause im nervous about it. I will get it done but it doesnt seem to be growing at all in fact I think its gotten smaller I have a poem here but I cant remember if I have shared it or not so im going to put it up again

Invisible me

Kill the pain and drown my sorrows

No hatred in me but for myself

No hope of better tomorrows

My hearts bleeding on a shelf

Full of books I'll never read

Pages of hurt is what I see

Cutting the pain so I can bleed

But its just invisible me

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