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i think I'm going insane ( and I cut)
May 26, 2005
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Shaylyn
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Okay, I have been a cutter for like 5 months only and everyone thinks I'm doing it for attention. I really am starting to wonder if I'm going mental because I can never focus anymore, I always have these outbursts, I hate myself so much, and I could go on. Help!!!

May 26, 2005
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Shaylyn, I've never cut, but I was bullemic. I kind of think it's the same thing. For me it eased something in me - but only temporarily. Just know that here you've found a place you can talk, and people will care about what you feel, and love you! Man! How brave of you to post what you did! I admire your honesty. I'll pray for help for you if that's okay? Also, I don't think you're crazy, and I don't think you should hate yourself...Keep writing, you'll find the answers you want. Love, ~saralynn

May 26, 2005
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welcom shaylyn i use to be anorehxic damn i cant spell but you know what i mean anyway i know by experience that people think its for attention but for me its the one thing i could control in my life untill i realised by not eating i was out of control. And your not crazy hun please keep posting we are here for you
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May 26, 2005
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My spelling SUCKS too... Sorry!

I don't do it much anymore but I was more a "Burner" than a cutter.

I get so stressed that something goes off in my head and I go out back and have a cig and put it out on the same place on my arm.

I'v been put on Wellbutrin XL and it seems to be helping me resist the temptation but it is always in the back of my mind.

Be careful about geting into a "ritual". A place that you go to cut, an object you use, a series of thoughts.

I don't want to play this down or anything but it can help you calm down enough to not cut if you can take just an extra 5 min's and listen to music, or watch TV, or play a computer game, or anything else to try and stop the cycle in your mind befor it gets to the actual cut part.

And take it from me, you have to deal with this NOW! Cutting leads to suicidal thoughts which lead to suicide attempts...

I've tried it 5 times and keep waking up so I have given up trying but I still think about it CONSTANTLY!

Now that I've done so much research I can see the progression from abuse, to depression, to cutting/burning, to suicide attempts.

But just to keep perspective I've know a couple of people that DID cut for attention. They got it from everyone else but I took one look at her arm and heard her story and took her outback and told her to cut that shit out, it demeans those of us that ACTUALLY have the desiese!

I can understand (But not approve) of your family telling you it's all for attention.

I bet you also hear "If you just think happy thoughts you won't be sad!"

It is a real bitch but you are going to have to get over the ignorance of your friends and family RIGHT NOW before it makes you more depressed and self destructive.

Unless they actually talk to a psyciatrist about what you are going through or have had it themselves they WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND and constantly spout "Helplfull" little comments that just piss you off.

I hate to simplifiy it like that but it's like trying to put yourself in the shoes of someone with cancer or AIDS, you just can't get what they are feeling just like depression.

Cutting is usually associated with "Borderline Personality Disorder" but that is a rather vague diagnosis. But search it and see how many of the criteria you fit and possible ways of dealing with the cutting.

I'm with you and understand... and I've found that just having someone else tell you there going through the same thing and actually Get It can have asoothing affect.

Don't hesitate to post. This is only my 2nd time here and it has already helped!

May 26, 2005
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Shayln,

I am going to through some of my past out here and hope maybe it helps. I think the term cutters has been around but I had not heard of it before I started "cutting". My ex wife had left me about 6 months after I got back from deployment for some other man. How broke hearted I was, so I began drinking. Well, for some reason, (sarcasm) it wasn't helping with the depression that I was feeling for my loss. I had such anger and stress built up inside that finally I snapped one day. I broke a beer bottle and started cutting. I felt such relief. So I continued to do it.

To kind of make this story short and to the point, I came home one evening to a voice message from my father telling me to "Kill Myself, get it over with, we all have problems". I had been out drinking so this did not sit well, I drank about another case of beer in about an hour and busted every bottle and sliced my wrist with every shard of glass that I could pick up.

My mother called me and I thought I had hung up on her. If it was not for her I would not have been able to send these words to you. I guess my point is you have to find something that is constructive for you to let out your stress and aggrivations or this could lead to worse things. Don't let anyone tell you that you do it for attention, alot of people still today don't realize that cutters don't do it for the attention they do it for the release. I have a son in my life the keeps my thoughts in check. I suggest you find an activity that will keep you active. If your friends feel you do it for attention, make new ones because friends that don't stand beside you through this aren't friends. I understand what you are going through and spent one night pretty much dead. I had the highest alcohol content they have every seen and when I woke up, my wrist were in bandages and I still have the scars today to remind me of the way I once was.
Don't get me wrong, I still get to points in my life where I am frustrated and I think about it all the time, but I chose to fill my time with something that will take my mind off of it. Like this site, it wasn't but a few days ago that I posted that I wanted to cut. So don't think you are alone in this cause you are not. We will listen here and not judge but you have to be strong and chose to post here instead of cut. It's just not worth it. Please continue to post and keep us updated.

Much Luv,
Luv2LuvHer

May 27, 2005
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Good Mornining Shaylyn, I just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you today. I hope you've received some encouragement by what's been posted here - I know I have! I think it's amazing that all the junk that's happened in our lives can actually be used to give support. I know for me, what I want most of all is to be understood, and believed. Keep writing, and let us know how you're doing girl! ((((Shaylyn)))) that means you've been hugged I think! Love you, ~saralynn

May 27, 2005
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Shalynn,

As the mom of a son who was a cutter, I would implore you to reach out to your family. Let your mom know what is going on. She will be able to point you in the direction of some valuable help. You may need to talk to a professional, or get some medication. Cutting and feeling out of control are symptoms of a deeper problem, be it depression, bi-polar disorder, subconscious dealing with some past abuse.

Admitting you have a problem is the first step to recovery. You were brave enough to come here and tell us, now tell someone you know personally so that you can get the help you deserve!

jill

May 29, 2005
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everyone that has replied has helped a lot and thanks for your time most people don't want to hear about my problems

I'm going to my shrink next week and I don't know what to say though!

May 29, 2005
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the best thing is to be totaly honest about everything he or she can not help you if you dont tell them everything that is wrong

May 30, 2005
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Shaylyn, I'm just posting to say G'morning! How did your week-end go? Julie (randomwomen2) is right - please be honest with your psychiatrist - no matter how strange to you your thoughts or actions feel. We'll be waiting to hear how it goes! Love, ~saralynn

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