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I think Im doing it again......Snow
January 19, 2006
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Snow

When I had to break contact with my brother, sister and mother it was the hardest thing I ever did.

Strange I missed the fighting. This was so much part of my life. I missed the action just until I was involved again and then eventually I realised that I had to get away.

It left a big void in my life. I was addicted to the confrontation - action as you may.

My life felt like nothing. So sad

This also goes away with time.

Can you relate?

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January 19, 2006
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Yes I can Garfield. I JUST told my therapist 2 weeks ago (when he and I were in no contact mode) that i actually missed all the drama the relationship caused. I thought I was crazy, but she said thats normal. You become so used to all the tension, that when its gone, you have excess energy that you dont know where to direct.

He and i talked last night. He called and asked me to come over to so we could talk about some stuff. Were going to work harder to be more honest with each other. Hes going to try to not react so harshly to me when or if I get upset, and Im going to try to not take everything in his life so personally. Im VERY emotional, and I tend to read to much into every little thing. I dont just do that with him, I do that with everyone.

I know this wont fix itself overnight, and I know it may not fix at all, but I do feel like were being better to each other right now, and that has to be a good start.

Snow

January 19, 2006
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In a recent email, a reader asked the following question:
"Why do I continue to feel love for this person that abused me? I DON'T miss the abuse, but I do miss the good times we had... I still cry sometimes because I miss what I thought we had. Is this normal?"

Yes, it is very "normal." In fact, most people leaving abusive relationships feel the same way. Many, at least initially, have a hard time staying away from a person they know has hurt them. What is going on?

Loss of a Relationship

When you give up a partner, you give up a lifestyle as well. You give up shared friends, shared activities, as well give up the comfort of being half of a couple. You knew there was someone around; maybe you saw each other or chatted daily. You knew you would have something to do or someone to be with on Saturday night. Even if you stayed home alone on Saturday night, you knew someone was there. You had a partner. Your life changes when you break up with your partner. All of this takes some getting used to. It takes time to regroup and rebuild.

Saturday night...what's a person to do? Not only will you mourn the loss of partner status with its shared friends and activities, but you are also likely to experience the void of the Back-to-Square-One Syndrome. Got to start all over again with the trials and tribulations most partnership-ready singles dread: meeting new people via singles bars, blind dates, email; not meeting new people; dating, dating and more endless dating...

When you do finally meet a prospective partner, you must go through the initial motions again: the getting to know each other phase: do they like me? Do I like them? Do they want a relationship? What about sex? If you get past the third date, you can look forward to the initial misunderstandings, the not knowing whether things will work out; introductions to friends and family; meeting friends and family. Knowing you don't know, you wonder whether you will go through this initial relationship stuff again and again. Unless you are a professional dater who is allergic to commitment, dating gets old fast.

The loss of a relationship is unsettling. When you lose an abusive relationship, you must deal with all of the ordinary losses as well as some specifically related to abuse.

Losses in an Abusive Relationship

Low self-esteem. Your self-esteem will be at a low point. You are coming out of a relationship where you have been riding an emotional roller coaster powered by your partner's deft ability to give with one hand and take away with the other. This is not the time to look to any love interests to bolster you. Spend some time alone, some time with good friends and family. This is the time to be good to yourself and to love yourself in a constructive way. For example, start an exercise program. Get that jacket you've been admiring. Constructive self-caring is about moderation. Moderation is the difference between pampering yourself with a purchase and a destructive spending spree.

So very, very good; so very, very bad. Your partner knew how to cut you to the quick with a look, and how build you up higher than high. You are likely to miss how extraordinarily good your partner made you feel. Don't forget, they had to - to make up for all of the bad! The good we remember, the bad we forget. Don't make this mistake. Every time you sadly recall a wonderful memory, think of one that hurt. Better yet, think of two.

Actions speak louder than words. Your partner knew exactly what you wanted to hear and said or implied it. Think: this person claimed to love you. Did he or she behave lovingly over time? Do you behave like your partner towards people you love?

Promises, promises. Your partner may be back and may promise you the world. He or she really, really means it! He or she means it for as long as long as it takes to regain your trust. As soon as you become comfortable in the relationship, your partner will do something to mess things up. They can't help it. As much as they crave closeness, they fear it more. There is absolutely nothing you can do about this, but save yourself from it.

Loss of Reality or Fantasy? Did you lose something you really had? Or did you lose a promise that never quite materialized? Did you lose a happy life, or the prospect of a happy life? How much of the time were you really happy? It is likely you are mourning the dream of what could be as opposed to the reality of what was. Check it out.

Advice. Do what you can to get through the first few days or weeks, or however long it takes you. Listen to your instincts - especially when you don't like what you have to say! Heed your advice. Don't give in! Taking your own advice will help you rebuild your self-esteem. An antidepressant often helps you stay on track and do what you have to do during this tough time.

If you know that a relationship is not good for you, stick to your guns. No matter what promises are made, they will be broken. Don't let your wishful thinking, your guilt, your sorrow or your empathy lead you down another dead end path. People don't change overnight. Unless you've learned some new skills, or your partner has been really working the program in therapy, if you go back with your abusive partner, it is only a matter of time before the relationship goes right back to where it was, or becomes worse. Know that you will wake up one day and find yourself in the same hole you are in today, but deeper. If you run your life with your head instead of your heart, you will emerge stronger, wiser, and more self-confidant.

Now is the time to learn from your mistakes. Above all, learn to listen to yourself and take your own good advice.

Courtesy of Dr. Irene Matiatos, Copyright© 1999. The material on this website may be distributed freely for non-commercial or educational purposes provided that author credit is given. For commercial distribution, please contact the author at [email protected]

January 19, 2006
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Wow...from the sounds of that it appears that no matter what this is doomed to fail. Any work we do wont matter much over time, we will both return to our old habits.

Thats discouraging.

January 19, 2006
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Sorry Snow

Maybe this is too realistic or negative

Garfield

January 19, 2006
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"Loss of Reality or Fantasy? Did you lose something you really had? Or did you lose a promise that never quite materialized? Did you lose a happy life, or the prospect of a happy life? How much of the time were you really happy? It is likely you are mourning the dream of what could be as opposed to the reality of what was. Check it out."

Hits the nail on the head for me.

Snow, it sounds as though you really identify with the second half of that post by Garfield by your response. However, only you can know what to do for yourself.

I just started "The Emotionally Abused Woman--Overcoming Destructive Patterns and Reclaiming Yourself," by Beverly Engel, M.F.C.C.

So far, GOOD STUFF!! Give it a try... Hugs.

January 19, 2006
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Whidbey

I think when we recover the reality is sometimes too much.

Everything just seems overwhelming.

Just after I started therapy 2 years ago I went through depression, anger etc.

Its taken so much time, much longer than I thought.

If I look at my life now its been worth every sent (dollar)

Garfield

January 19, 2006
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a lot of people stay together because the excuse is history, we have histroy together. But the problem with that is, that you should look at that too that history shows that the relationhship over the time is not good. And history is that, the past. The future is what needs to be looked at.

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