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September 4, 2003
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thanx for saying that....i mean I know Im lucky because I do have a boyfriend that I see everyday and most of the time things are good, I know people who have relationships where they see their girl/boy friends 2-3 times a week or only on weekends. I could never do that, I guess that's why I get soo involved.

Anyway, no I didnt know that ur relationship was basically online or something like that. I used to do that,but I didnt like it much,so I stopped. I know people that got married cuz of online but I know people that got hurt also, so I dont know what to say.

I know what you mean by seems like time is flying but it also feels like not fast enough...I used to feel like that. I'm sure you miss him, but I also think that if you could try to move on somehow and maybe meet some people in school it would make it easier for you. You have to find something that will make you not think of him, maybe go out with friends or something like it. I wish there would be some way to help....LOL..I have a single friend, he's very cute, but we're in NY...lol just kiddin....

Last night was good, he ended up sleepin over cuz I flipped out, started cryin and made a whole big deal....we have this best friend...who is with us everyday. Last night we were hangin out in my house and for some reason I was looking at my friends phone and I saw that he called the bitch's house and I flipped out. I went into another room and called the botche's boyfriend and asked him if he knew that she's been speaking to our friend... and I started crying becase I thought that my friend speaks to the gurl and gives messages to my boyfriend..so I said if there is something I should know or if there is any connection between the 3 of them I better know now, because I;m sick and tired of thinking that I'm being lied to and haveing people hide shit from me....and if it's true that the bitch is giving messages for my b/f to my friend that they should both just leave and I never want to see them again.....soooo....my boyfriend looked at me with teary eyes...and he's like I did not lie to you about anything since that day and there is nothing I am hiding anymore and there are no secrets. I told you I did not talk to her or see her since that day and I didnt even know that our friend's been talking to her and then he wanted to leave but I stopped him...and we ended up making up and he said if you want I go home, but if you want I'll stay over to be with you all night..and I said do whatever you want. Usually I'm begging him to stay over but he doesnt want to...he sleeps over on weekends thou...so then he stayed....but I'm still mad at my friend and I don't know what to do about it yet. I'm hurt because when his girlfriend left him last year I was there for him all the time and now he talkes to the girl that tried to steal my b/f I dont think so...so I;m undecided about what to say to him yet...he knows I'm mad at him.

Anyway...I somehow feel closer to my b/f now...i dont know..last night I flipped out and he was telling me that he's been telling me nothing but the truth since that day..I saw something in his eyes...like u could just tell how hard he's been trying to make everything work and he didn't wanna go thru all the shit no more..and that's why i told him to stay...because other then that in my mind I said I dont wanna deal with this shit no more...im gonna tell him it's over and move on and never talk to him again...but then i looked at him and i saw he was ready to cry...so...no it;s good again...

I feel like im on a rillercoaster...one second I'm up high then I fall very low..then high again...I guess it's true that Lif is a rollercoater ride

September 4, 2003
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Yeah i mean, u guys r so lucky, i have a friend who has a bf, she didnt use to care for him or love him, now she does, and this guy is so nice, he buys her stuff even if she doesnt need it, just because it looks good or the guy wants her to wear it. i mean i heard from her that he bought her sunglasses and a wallet and some other stuff. why cant i get a guy like that??? life isnt fair with me. i kept telling her, i dont understand why u dont love him, he is so nice, he has been there for u when u were with another guy, even though he is into drugs/gangs. but ur supposed to fall in love with him.

i never met in person a couple who got married through the internet thing, but i know one from internet, he is friends with my ex. the wife of the guy is a bitch though. i dont like her, i thought she was my friend, then again i was wrong.

haha i am in CA, its not gonna work, besides i gave up on internet stuff, only friendship.

ok i am confuse. ur friend talks to a girl about ur bf? or this girl talks to ur bf? if u think he is telling the truth and really trying to make things work, believe him, there arent many guys like that. most of them give up and think "she wasnt worth me anywyas"

life is a rollercoaster, and relationships too.

i know it shouldnt and i tried, because i've been wanting to call him, just to hear his voice but not say anything, i cant, cause its long distance and through a card wont work cause i have to press * at the end of the number and i also need to press *67 to block the number so he wont know its me. u cant imagine everything i planned with this boy 🙁

September 4, 2003
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i called him, and we talked, thought it was pretty bad in the begining, later he started being more calm, more depressed, more of a bf type. we said some pretty darn mean things in the beggining to each other. i have to go for now. i will write about it tomorrow.

September 4, 2003
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aaww...sounds like u really are missing him but I don't see why you couldnt find a guy..did u look? lol

I am sure that you can find somebody, there are lots of guys out there, just give it some time.

well...my friend doesnt just talk to any girl..he speaks to the gurl that my b/f was involved with or whatever u call it.. but this is a friend who is with us every single day...he is like my best friend..I was there for him when he needed someone and he was there for me...and now I find out that he's talking to the bitch that wanted to take my boyfriend away...it doesnt make sense to me....i am mad at him still

i had class tonight...i also bought my books....2 books for $210 unbelievable...so much $$$ for books but i need them so i had to buy them...again tonight after class i called him and he was going to sleep but i didnt get mad because he came to see me right after work and then when i left for school i dropped him off home...so im not mad because at least i saw him for about an hour

September 5, 2003
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ohhhh ur not gonna belive what i did....i am soo mad at myself...last night I was online and my ex im'd me and until now everytime he tried talking to me for the past 3 yrs. I told him NO...I DONT WANT TO TALK TO YOU, I DONT WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU....guess what, the idiot that I am I spoke to him last nigt and I spoke to him on the phone tooo....why did I do that???? am I out of my mind? if my b/f finds out it's all over all together because he hates my ex and I know if he would find out out that i spoke to him, it would be over. I think I spoke to him because I felt it was ok because of what my b/f did...I felt like i'm gettin back to him by talking to my ex...this morning I woke up and I was soo mad at myslef...anyway...just had to let it out....

I hope you're doing good....and try to get some sleep...I know it's hard...sometimes it takes me hours to fall asleep becuase I have so much in my mind...just try to get sleep because if you dont it cathces up with you and then u gonna be exhausted all the time.....

September 5, 2003
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so we talked, and he was calling me a hoe and whore and i called him a male bitch. he was saying that i was a whore so i said, if i am a whore what the fuck r u? a male bitch? and he said, maybe i am. he was being really mean to me, and i had to defend myself. i kept telling him, we're not getting back together. i really dont wanna go through that pain again. so he got hella sad. and he said. fine. tell me what i want to hear. and i said no, why do u want that. and he said, because it makes me happy. because its going to make my day better. i kept saying no. but i did tell him that i love him later.... he is like, can i tell u something. and i said no. and he is like, why? cause u know u wont say it back, and i said, true i wont say it back. he was telling me that all these days he missed me, he hugs his pillow (i am his pillow and he is mines), how he kisses his pillow, that he wants emails from me, i tried to tell him that i have being doing all those things too but i dont know, i didnt. but i wanna tell him today. he was telling me that those things are not friendship type. that he wants me as a gf, not as a friend, but he saw (he thinks!) i was moving on and that he had no other choice than to be my friend so he can continue knowing about me and having that contact with me. thats the reason why he didnt want to be my friend before, cause he knew that i wanted to continue being his friend when we break up. but now that i changed my mind cause i really wanted to move on, he is the one who wants to be friends. but in 7 days i havent accomplish that. forget him.

he was like be patience with me, i am going to get there. (he is closer to u than to me) u will see its going to be different when we r together. and i said, no its not. u should know me by now, when i get mad how i am. and he was like, yea but u love me and i love u. and he said, why did u call me? u called me because u miss me, because u love me. and i just stayed quiet, then i said. yeah. thats right. i was really mad yesterday, i didnt want to talk to him like that, the first things we said, i have never talk to him the way i did, i yelled at him and i used a lot of bad words.

i like this guy, i like the way he dresses, although he used to be a player, i know he isnt no pimp. but i think sometimes he tries to be cool. and i guess that freaking bugs me. i dont want someone who tries stuff for me to like them or love them. i dont want him to be cool to be able to get girls, i think its stupid.

he was like, i cant forget u. and i said, thats because u have me on ur list. and he says, its not just that, ur on my mind, ur on my heart. i read ur old emails. i saw ur pictures these days. and i am like, its because u see my name. thats why u cant forget me. i dont know.

--------------------------------------------------------------- changing the subject.

two books cost me $137. one new and one used. imagine both new, it would probably cost me the same as urs.

about what happened......i think u should tell ur bf. i dont know how u r. but i am so honest. sometimes too much. and it fucking pisses me off when that person cant be that honest with me back. i dont know. its my advice, tell him. "i have to tell u something. but promise me u wont leave me because of this. i talk to my ex yesterday and i think i did it because i am still hurt from what u did.... bla bla bla. but i promise i wont tlak to him anymore. plese dont be mad, bla bla bla bal bla."

i want to sleep. i had a better sleep yesterday, although i was still sleepy in the morning, but i know i didnt move so much like the other nights. i think its because of the phone call. this guy makes me happy.

September 6, 2003
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i am so pissed at him. he wasnt home when i called. and he didnt go online. and then he is telling me that i am blocking him and shit. he is the one not coming online. thats why he dont see me.

September 6, 2003
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i am so mad, i am so hurt. the past week has being horrible for me. he erased me. my eyes r really swollen.

September 7, 2003
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since yesterday over the phone, i agreed to the friendship part. i waited for him yesterday at night so we could talk, i was going to clear some things to him. since he didnt show up. i called him 4 times, and the woman answered and she got mad obviously, it was 12am in their time to me it was only going to be 10pm. and she said he wasnt there, so i got so mad and so sad, where could he be at 12am!!!! so i asked, well where is he, and she said "what the heck would i know" and she said he wasnt there and bla bla bla, so i returned it to her, and i said "how would i know? (if he is home or not)" i got really sad yesterday and i cried for hours. like 3 hours straight.

then i wake up in the morning and i call him, and the woman says he is not there and that he is working. i get so sad again, i start crying. later i forget about him, i start playing pool at yahoo. i havent been able to play for like 2 years so i eamil my friend so we can play, cause he is been wanting to beat me. and when we were playing, christian comes online, and he says "hey, we r finaly online at the same time" and am like "dont talk to me, i am busy playing with my friend pool. why r u talking to me NOW?" because before that i had decided to not tell him the things i was planning to tell him yesterday, and i just decided to give up. we kind of started fighting cause he thinks i am cheating on him with my friend, that i dont wanna play pool with him. and its not true. i been more honest with him than with anybody else. i do want to play pool with him its just that my computer hadnt let me until yesterday. and since he wasnt online we didnt. i tried to explain to him that i wasnt playing him or cheating on him with my friend. that that guy is only a friend. he didnt believe me. he cursed me out. he said that i should go with my firned and this and that. he said "i caught u" and am like " u caught what? i havent done anything. u havent seeing me in bed with anybody" and he is like "thats what i dont know." and he said something that hurted me a lot "its good that we're not married yet" and i said, yes i guess. but that hurted so much. i called him because he left and didnt let me speak, he didnt want to talk to him. i asked him to please say bye to me, so it would be a reason for me to hate him and make me stronger to move one. and he didnt. he get mad and said, am gonna count till 10 then am gonna hang up. and i asked him, i yelled at him again. "u wanna hang up, then hang up!" and he clicked, so i clicked, and i started crying.............

i went out today at night with my cousing, my brother and her bf to play bowling and pool. i had a lot of fun for 3 hours. i forgot about him. its 1:44am right now. i miss him, he didnt add me to the messenger like i thought. he didnt email me. i am so hurt. and i know i should move on. but its really hard!!!

THis is Not the guy who i fell in love with!!!!

please help me forget and move on.

September 7, 2003
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aaawww girl....this is just more pain for you....im sorry to say but to me it doesnt sound like he knows what he wants. Its like he wants to know about you and keep u for himself but on the otherhand he wants things his way. I dont see how does he make u happy? where does he live? how many time did u see him face to face? how long have u "been with him"? I know that u'r young and I'm sure you're pretty too..you are going to college now...just make the decesion that you want nothing to do with him anymore and let him go...change your screen name or email and take his out of your buddy list and block him and everything and just let him go.. take some time to heal..i know it's easier said then done...i also know it's painful but I think it would be best for YOU in the long run. I think if he would really want to be with you he wouldnt be calling you a whore and all of that...and if he would really want to be with you he would try to go visit every time he can.... i had one of those relationships years ago..the guy lived in CA and I lived here in NY, we were on the phone all the time, he used to send me flowers every week, senf me packages...used to send me cards about love and how he misses me and shit and he even came here to see me and stuff...I think you just know when someone's really deserves and wants you....dont give in....dont let him think and know that he's got you liek that...if he wants to be with you he will do everything he can to be with you...I dont mean to put u down or anything, I just think that you could meet someone in school or start goin out with friend or someone and you could have a boyfriend that would be there with you and you couls spend time wiht and someone who doesnt want to be "cool" so girl would like him....seriously just think about it....i did what you're doing now at your age and unfortunately those are the times that I regret...i wish i would've focus more on school and that I would've been more friendly and make friends....try to do the same...I'm just telling you from my own experience...this is just my advice...you do what you feel is the best for you...sometimes we hold on to things soo tight we dont know how to let go, but then when we look at things we cant even find a good reason why we're holding on for....

i cant tell my b.f that i spoke to my ex...he would leave me right away....i will tell him months from now...i cant keep secrets like that from him...i always tell him but I cant tell him right away....not that i worry bout him being hurt, it wouldnt even be half the pain he did put me thru..but he just wouldnt understand...and he would not want anything to do with me anymore...

right now things are goin fine...yesterday I kept saying stupid comments about the gurl to him but everytime i said somehting he acted as he didnt hear it..i guess so we wouldnt start arguing...at the end of the night...he started gettin pissed...so he said..."oh my god...would you stop with all this shit already...just shut up about it" so then i saw he was gettin fed up so I stopped... then he slept over...he always does on weekends and we cuddled and I told him that I loved him and that he's all mine...

so things are good now..but i guess i still have bad days and some days i think about what happened and i get all upset...but he said it's ok as long as I dont get stupid everyday...he said he wants to move on and be happy..he said his first priority right now is to get our relationship back on track and for us to move on...when he said that it made me really happy and it made me want to be happy again..he made me want to be with him and move on and not to let things bother me as much no more...so with his help I feel like i will be able to move on easier....

so that;s the deal.....i hope things will get better with you too....if u want to im me on aol my sn is "gtigurly" we can chat....

good luck..and take care

September 7, 2003
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when i started fighting with him, i added my friend into our conversation to prove him that i dont prefer playing with my friend over him...i asked my friend if we played on friday or if we even chatted on friday. and he is like "1st answer-no.....2nd answer-i told u NO!!!" and this stupid guy didnt believe me, i havent been able to play or chat anywhere in like 2 years. this computer is old and is fu..... up! he even said mean things to my friend but my friend had already left the conversation. he said that he was a fag, i dont know if am allowed to say this in there, he said that he was trying to take away his boo. and i said, i aint ur boo. and i said, calm down, cant u see that he left??? and he, christian left, cause he doesnt want to talk to me. i called him in the morning and i regret it. i am really going to try to not call him. right now, i dont know why i want him, i dont know how he makes me happy if all i see is he being this way. i dont know why i am holding on to him. he lives in (TN) tennessee for now, i dont know if he is going to move again or not, since i am not having any contact with him, i dont know. i never seeing him face to face. and i never "being" with him as spend time together. and the internet part is like almost 3 years. thats not cool, this person calling u a whore, i am not a fucking whore. if u get to know me, if its the first times we hang together even as friends either boy or girl, u will see i am a shy person. he wasssssssss planning to "meet me" i guess not anymore. and right now. i guess he is and never was interested in me. i think that all the things u said that this dude did, i think this christian only did one of those. he only send flowers with a teddy for valentines day. the only thing ever!!! not even for my birthday could he do it again!! he did come to this country for me so thats a plus. but everything else is negative. i am the one who calls him. i should have my freaking hands tight so i wont anymore. i am the one who send him a card for valentines day and for his birthday. only two. he said he wrote a poem and send me more pictures of him.....but that shit got lost or he didnt send nothing. id ont know because supposely he was going to send it by email and by normal mail. and am still waiting. he wrote a poem once but stupid him, left it on the bus. i asked him many many times write me another letter. and he didnt. true he is busy with work, and when he is not working he is doing house work, cleaning his room washing clothes. to me, it takes like freaking a month to write a letter, to him, i think he can do it in a day. he kept telling me, i will do it, i will do it when i am free. am still waiting. i wrote him many letters, he should have like 5 or 6 or 7. this was too good to be true. way ago, he said something like, i wanna make this better, am going to try to call u twice a month or something. still waiting.....am i boring u with that. cause i think its the 3 time i said it.

this is sooooo sooooooooo soooooooo true. sometimes we hold on to things soo tight we dont know how to let go, but then when we look at things we cant even find a good reason why we're holding on for....

dont u think ur bf would get mad that u hid it from him and not tell him earlier??? hope to see u online 🙂

September 8, 2003
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wow .... I didnt know that you never met him...I thought u did at least once or twice...this is crazy...forget it...let it go...forget him, he dont deserve your attention and time. and for about 3 years....for about 3 years he didnt find the time to go see you or always have an excuse for not sending you the letter...did u say u never got the picture? so u don't know what he looks like? Lisset, you are way too young to let this thing hold you back....im sorry it just sounds crazy to me...like I said I once got involved in this internet relationship, but the guy started working 2 jobs so he can buy an airlplane ticket to come see me and told you bout the flowers every week and a "miss you" card every week...you know...you could tell that he really wants to be with me...but anyway...im just trying to tell you that it doesnt sound like he wants to be with you so much...I mean come on...how do you know he doesnt have someone where he lives...there's not even ways u could check up on him or anything...I hope you dont get mad at me for saying these things, Im just trying to make some sense out of your situation...and I'm not trying to put you down or anything, I'm just trying to tell you that you are an 18 year old girl and you shouldn't be stuck on an internet relationship and be treated like shit by a guy that never even bothered to go and meet you for 3 years and he dares to call you a whore...please forget it...let it go!!!

anyway..yes my b/f would get mad, he trusts me the way I used to trust him. By the way yesterday I saw the girl again and she was starring into my car...my b.f was there too...I said to him "oh look she must be missing you cuz she cant stop starring" I just looked at her and said "keep looking bitch cuz i will get out and chop you head off" lol..how much more dramatic could I get...LOL

Anyway i'll catch you ya later online or something....be good and forget bout him...and I was gonn ask you....you're not supposed to have friends? please...let him gooooo

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im sooo sorry that you're hurt....I'm really am...and trust...don't ever trust anybody too much. Look what I went through...I trusted Billy more then anybody ever and the one thing I was always sure of and most secure about is that he would never cheat on me...I still dont know till this day if all that really happened with that gurl was a kiss...I mean come on...it was going on for about 3 months and they were saying "I love you" to each other...do you know how much that hurts...do you know the pain that it puts me thru still just thiking that he said "I love you" to another girl while he was with me and they were both trying to make the girl be like my best friend...just knowing and remembering all the shit that happened everyday now knowing that at that time they were in love or whatever the fuk they called it...lisset....u cant trust anybody but urself. I learned the hard way...i should sayd hardest way possible...do you know how many signs there were to tell me that he doesnt want to be with me and signs that they were messing around and I said to myself no way...I know Billy...he would never do such thing...and look...I was wrong I trusted him before I trusted my own instincts and I was right...so now I know...first I trust myself..my feelings...then him. And all this happened right in front of me and it was lies everyday...everytime I confronted him or her...it was lies...i cried and cried to him for hrs. and he wouldnt even comfort me cuz he didnt want to be with me...and he knew he had me soo good that I wouldn't leave him...everytime i told him, I'm gonna leave you...he just said "no u wont" u'll never leave me...he knew he had me like that and he took advantage of me...I mean now we're good but im still hurt and I still hate him for what he did but I love him because I do and always will. He is trying very hard now to make it up and he assures me each time that im upset that he could never do it again, he could never put me thru soo much pain again...and if he wouldnt want to be with me now that he would've let me go when I said I dont want anything to do with you no more...leave me alone...but he didnt..

so..dont let this guy take advantage of you just because u say u love him....lisset think about it...what do you love about him so much? u never even met the guy, you never held his hand, you never kissed or hugged or never spent a minute together beside emails, chatting and phone calls. I know how it feels, like I said I did it befor too, until I said one day to myslef that I'm livin a fantasy relationship because I say that I;m in love with someone that I never even met face to face..then I stopped with this online BS and I found a b/f that was real that I was able to spend time with and go places and kiss and it was just real...(that was my ex)....so u know what I;m trying to say...dont wate your time on this guy...move on with your life...you are young and there are lots of options...when the right time will come, you will meet someone that's real...someone who can be there with you and be your b/f....

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well..unfortunately we realize these things when it's too late...when we're betrayed and lied to and kicked to the curve we only realzie those things when we're soo hurt, we dont even know what to do anymore.....

last night i hung out with my ex....shhhh dont tell anyone....it was good seeing him but i could never get with him again...nothing happened we just hung out for a few min.

this morning the bitch's boyfriend passed by to say hello and to give me the updates. he told me that the bitch told him that my boyfriend told her at the time that they were messing around that he doesnt want to be with me anymore and he only got with me at first because i was a challenge (i said no to him like 3 times b4 i said yes...this was 3 yrs ago)...so she knows all this stuff that my b/f supposibly told her while they were messing around or whateber they did. and this guy (her b.f) told me that there's a lot my b/f is not telling me...and that he told me that every time we were gonna break up, he didnt do it because he felt bad for me because i was crying so hard....lisset im sooo sad and mad and upset and pissed and confused and dissapointed....everytime i speak to this guy i get upset like this because i hear new shit about what my b/f said to her and she said to him and this whole shit....i always say im not gonna talk to this guy no more, but part of me wants to know everything about what was done and said still even thou i know its gonna make me upset...just like it did today. I dont know how can i make this better...my b/f doesnt wanna hear about it no more..he said he wants to move forward not backwards with our relationship and he doesnt wanna talk about what happened anymore....so what do I do???? i hate this...one minute i think of him as my everything...and i think i love him again and then something comes up and i wanna call him to tell him thatI dont want to see him anymore. so what do I do....please helllppp...im gonna go crazy soon....

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oh my god...it's over!!!

last night he stayed over and we spoke and he told me shit. He slept with her twice. He cried to me all night not to leave him, that he loves me and that he only wants to be with me and he would never do me wrong again and that he's sorrry. Im falling apart, I had to come in today...I look like shit...I feel like shit, I dont want to be here, I want to be somewhere alone so I can cry it out. When I dropped him off this morning, he said r u gonna call me later...I didnt say anything, I just left...he begged me to give him another chance...he said he didnt tell me because he knew I would leave him and he was scared...I cant belive this....I hate him soo much....he asked me if he should go home last night and I said no..I wanted him there because if I would've been by mislef I would've cried and cried and cried...this way he was the one crying and I finally fell asleep around 3:30 am....im gonna go crazy...im gonna miss him...and always love him but i cannot be with him right now...i dont care what he sais....i dont know what to do....

September 25, 2003
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hey im sorry i havent been writing, but work and school are keeping me pretty busy and work is starting to be much busier now so I cant always write. Things have calmed down, he's still trying very hard to prove to me that he loves me and wants to be with me and that i can trust him again. So the other day i told him that I want a break but it only lasted fpr 2 hrs. After that I called him and we made up because I realized that I cant be without him. I realized that I am misserable withought him and why put myself thru pain...instead put my effort into it and try to be happy....so now we're doing great...we love eachother and he is still doing great. He knows I'm still hurt and that I didnt forget about it,but we dont talk about it all the time. So thats good.

Your situation, give it some time with this guy, dont get ur hopes up or anything....let it come all naturally. He probably has no clue that you like him, I dont think he takes another bus on purpose...just give it time.

hope school goes well....for me its not so bad, I have no class tomorrow because of the Jewish new year...so i got my Friday night free =o)

September 25, 2003
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Look, girls,

This is a discussion board for issues related to DOMESTIC VIOLENCE!

Your thread is not only WAY off topic but it is completely innappropriate given the nature of this group. If you want to talk about shooting somebody's penis off you should go to
1) Alt.Flame
2) A psychotherapist
3) Batterer treatment.

Sexual Jealousy is the NUMBER ONE sign of an abusive personality. Get over it!

I am a survivor of battering. I do not want to hear violent fantasies. Site Coordinator?

September 25, 2003
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Sorry if the thread offended u in anyway..worried dad. I for one havent wrote on the topic because it didnt apply to me but i also believe the women posting on it are in pain and needing to vent that pain.. this thread itself is about all areas of unhealthy behavior just not domestic violence or any one topic if it bothers u maybe you should take it up with the site coordinator yourself..i think people should be able to post their true feelings whether they are valid or not.. im sure she was just venting...i dont know just my opinion..I think negative feedback isnt gonna help any of us..sorry if i offended anyone..dont mean to harm just want to give my opinion.

September 26, 2003
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Worried Dad...this is not only domestic violence...I have read threads that were very similar to my situation or Lissett's. We are girls in pain, emotional pain and I can only say that I hope if u have a daughter the "Worried Dad" that you are, your daughter would not have to go through the pain me or lissett or other woman or girls went through that write in this thread. There is no set rule on who can write in these threads or who cant. Just because I wasnt phisically abused or wasnt part of domestic violence, it doesnt mean that I dont need to talk about my problems or that I dont need other people's opinions. So do me a favor and before you judge some of these threads start reading them from the begining so you can understand that the real issue is not about shooting anyone's penis off.

September 26, 2003
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Hey gurl....I know its not something that anyone would forgive or forget and trust me I did not forgive him or forget about what he's done and I do remind him almost everyday about how wrong he was...look I cant help it that I love him and I know how much he regrets it and as hard as it is I will try my best to move on and be happy with him. There is no doubt in my mind that if I'm unable to be happy I will end it for good, but I belive I can be because I do love him and he is trying very very hard to show me how much he loves me as well and that he wants to be with me and ONLY ME...

I dont know what you should do about your ex...you need to find someone that's gonna be there for you, someone you're gonna be able to phisically be with...dont waste ur time on someone you cant be with...there will be more guys and you will find someone when the time is right...just be patient...be good...xoxoxo kuki

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hey lissset..whats goin on gurl...i've been ok...I'm going to Florida this weekend to visit family, but I'm coming right back. Anyway, tyr not to cry, I know its hard, but I realized that crying does not solve anything, I used to cry all the time too until I got myslef sick and I realized crying for a bit is OK...it's relief but to over do it...its not worth it....it doesnt solve anything...so calm down...everything will be OK.

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Hi, doodie here and this is my first time on line. I have been codependent all of my life but just now realize I can do something about it. I guess I need to "talk" to someone that has worked their way throough this. How do you pick a councellor? do I need a Phychologist or will a councillor do? What questions do I ask when I make an appointment so that I know I have the right one? I guess that' enough for a start?

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