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hopy,is feeling low...pleas help*
January 24, 2005
7:03 pm
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Ok! Back on to the depression again! We start having intimate contact for two days in a row, he is very much helping me to pay for a lot of things, and knows that I am very serious abut my recovery in every aspect (I fond out also, coda meetings close to home!!) But just to remind me who “he really is”(in relation to us ) to day was four hours lost ,at lunch time…and I have being trying in keep my distance, separate my problems from he’s, so I can keep the perspective of things ,more emotionally independent, etc(I guess thy called, the three G: something like, get of his back, get of his way ;and basically CONSENTRATE IN YOUR SELF!!!!!) And I couldn’t!, I asked where he was, and explanations and etc, what for!!! I know I put my self in instability situation again!!! Because he is a M*f*! Love avoidant and not only that I GEVE HIM THE CONTROL OVER MY AND NOW WHAT!!!!!! How do I get that back!!! And support my self!!??? I need concrete tips,please!!!!

January 24, 2005
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hopy, it takes time...maybe the next time when you recognize HIM trying to get intimate, just tell him NO...try to recognize all the bad things he put you thru...and just know that he is not going to change...but you can change yourself and reactions by not putting up with him. Stand strong, stay proud, and know that better things are out there for you. (((camer)))

January 26, 2005
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I feel so sad, I feel so angry!!! Tired, betrayed, stupid!!!!, down! Confused,
Over the edge!!!!! Like, I steel can control my self, for my good sake, but WANT TO EXPLODE!, Insulted! So badly! That I do not seem to even being able to comfort my self!
It ‘s too much pain, like being depress, but is not “on me”, IS NOT BEING ABBLE TO UNDERSTAND THAT I HAVE TO LET GO BECAUSE HE WILL NEVER HAVE THE “DESENCY” I DESERVE TO TELL ME THE TRUTH(Well he is not entitled to “my honor” or “decency” anyways)
How people can do this to one an other!, I DO NOT UNDERSTAND!!!.I HAVE TO TELL THE TRUTH. Idler I love you or I don’t.(I am not going to fixate my self in this because I know I will never win or understand certain people)
I am unsteady, lost equilibrium, I am not me .Impotent!. So needy I was mistaking him as family!!!, trying to recreate what I didn’t finish, the security I didn’t feel in my childhood. This is crazy! How people can mix things like that!
Now I see his clothes hanging and hurt! .I do not know this person anymore….
Yes…I am grieving …
And embarrass of being a codependent…

January 26, 2005
11:09 am
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hopy, doesn't it feel good to vent...and yes, being honest with you is so important!!! and yes, you do deserve better and cannot change him...but you can change you, and make choices to make YOUR life better...keep doing lil' things for you thru out the day. Keep coming back here and venting too, and know that you are not alone.

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