Avatar
Please consider registering
guest
sp_LogInOut Log In sp_Registration Register
Register | Lost password?
Advanced Search
Forum Scope


Match



Forum Options



Minimum search word length is 3 characters - maximum search word length is 84 characters
sp_TopicIcon
Going to lose it
May 30, 2006
6:31 pm
Avatar
sunshine1982
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 27, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

I think i have lost my grip on reality. Really. It began the other day with me losing it at my partner. Now it has moved onto full on rage. I am all smiles on the outside, but i worried that any moment i am going to explode. I started thinking about my life, and realise for about 3 years now, stress has just been piling on. I face it with a smile, but i have become bitter inside. The last stage now is when a person at work is taking all the credit for my work. I sound like a terrible and jealous person, and i have never been jealous in my life.

How can life be so unfair. Really, when she began in the role she knew nothing. She was a suck up to all the right people. I didn't see it at the time, but i was stupid fool who she sucked out all my knowledge, and she is now stepping all over me. This is the last straw in my tollerance to life, and i am worried i am going to let lose on her, or worse some innocent person.

I have complete rage like never felt before burning inside, and i dont know what to do. I have tried counselling, relaxation, yoga, distraction, everything i can think of.

I am becoming a bitter angry person and it is ruining my life. How do i let go of all this? How do i stop the rage that is truely so strong that it is like something circulating inside me burning me up. I am so angry about life and what i have been dealt.

I am always honest, caring, considerate, hard working, and none of it pays off. The mean, slack, and people who are so selfish seem to have others running after them, they get ahead in life. It is truely true, NICE people finish last.

May 30, 2006
6:35 pm
Avatar
Randomwomen2
Member
Members
Forum Posts: 9
Member Since:
September 29, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

I think that having someone to talk to would be a great help. Have you tried any kind of couseling cause sometimes getting those feelings out there and Ignowledged soory I cant spell but anyway sometimes that can be a great help.

May 30, 2006
7:26 pm
Avatar
Mordrin
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 27, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

Bit of advice...don't smoke you co-worker as it will reflect badly on you.
Learn to speak up at work and sell yourself to others on you accomplishments. This is exactly what your co-worker is doing.

I believe the recommendation of you seeking counseling is in your favor as you need to understand what is "eating" at you.
Once you can determine the basis of your unhappiness you will be able to see things more clearly.

May 30, 2006
9:41 pm
Avatar
sunshine1982
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 27, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

Hi,

i have already been in counselling. I realise my frustration comes from not being true to myself. I am always trying to be what i think other people want me to, and it lead to complete burn out.

But still couldn't be established why it bothers me so much when people lie and deceive me.

May 31, 2006
2:30 am
Avatar
smarterone
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 24, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

sunshine
In your shoes now, so angry with everything and everyone. And why should you have to accept people who lie an deceive. You see, you like me, dont come from that. We put our hearts out to help and get "kicked". You know whats wrong with us, WE ARE GOOD PEOPLE

May 31, 2006
3:06 am
Avatar
Guest
Guests

Please don't lose it sunshine!!

I feel extremely betrayed and angry right now too. I am trying to talk about what has upset me so much, and it feels like a lifetime of giving to someone who is simply a taker and a user.

I think people who are so self-oriented learned very very young how to protect and promote themselves. There's that "You snooze you lose" mentality -- so competetive it looks like cheating is necessary....

And knowledge is power....so keeping secrets and withholding necessary information works well for some people in the workplace. I truly do not know how a good person defends against being manipulated. We have to draw some healthy boundaries and stop giving our best stuff away.

If you can find another job situation and can just get yourself out of that work situation it might be wise for your sanity. I can't believe you'd get peace from revenge. Maybe calm would come from following your dreams and your calling and just not thinking about the crazy pettiness of that coworker.

And you have to stop thinking that she got all your knowledge -- I'm sure you still have more and the cool thing is that you can always GET more. Read up. Take a class. Hang in there! Concentrate on you.

May 31, 2006
10:49 am
Avatar
ConfusedCyn
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

Hey sunshine,

I am also full of rage, anger, frustration. I have also spent my life behind a mask to be acceptable and to please others. And life isn't fair and people SUCK.

But please don't turn your anger on yourself or let it get control of you to the point where you do something that will ultimately come back to hurt YOU worse than its target. YOU do not deserve to suffer from anger that is caused by abusive and uncaring people.

You have a right to be angry - so vent it here or with your therapist. There are lots of ears here that totally understand how you are feeling - 'cause we are right there with you.

Hugs,

CC

May 31, 2006
2:25 pm
Avatar
StronginHim77
Member
Members
Forum Posts: 453
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

I have held in the pain, the resentment and the anger for so long with my late husband, then with my current BF that my blood pressure is starting to shoot up and I have had two panick attacks which landed me in the ER. Not good. If we "stockpile" our feelings, they can make us physically ill, given enough time. I would really recommend you seeking therapy, if you can possibly afford it. You seem to be in alot of anguish and have reached your "end." Get whatever help is available to you and keep posting here. We are all listening!

- Strong

May 31, 2006
6:31 pm
Avatar
sunshine1982
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 27, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

I feel trapped. I feel so betrayed. This person at my work started her job with almost NO skills. It was a joke. I taught her a bunch of stuff, infact EVERYTHING i knew. I didnt mind as i wanted her to do a good job. Now she is stepping on me, and using her knowledge to get ahead at the expense of me. She even tries to make me look bad infront of our boss.

I am burning with anger. She takes over my work, she interrupts me, and she is always talking about her achievements. When she takes over, she doesnt even do the job properly, but still takes credit for my ideas.

I know i sound jealous, but really its not about being jealous of her, its about being angry that she has stabbed me in the back. Worst of all, she is so fake, and no one else sees what she is doing.

May 31, 2006
6:57 pm
Avatar
Mordrin
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 27, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

sunshine....you're exactly right as your co-worker used you as a stepping stone to advance her career.
Employees do this all the time and management looks for those who are assertive enough to progress through the ranks of the company.

Is is fair? I guess it depends on your point of view and which side of the stepping stone you're on.
Next time, try taking some credit for grooming the newbies and maybe work on being a mentor instead of trying to please everyone.
My ex was the same way as yourself with her job at a major computer firm. She was never the type to step on anyones toes and did most of the work in her group and took little credit.
I use to tell her that if she wanted to continue top be a victim while swimming with the sharks, the sharks will win and not come to her aid when it counted the most.

I guess that I didn't understand at the time that people don't change their personalities and will continue to be victimized by others.
What you can change is your behavior at work and take up for yourself.
Nothing wrong with tootin' your own horn at times and it will take practice.

Forum Timezone: UTC -8
Most Users Ever Online: 323
Currently Online:
79
Guest(s)
Currently Browsing this Page:
1 Guest(s)
Top Posters:
onedaythiswillpass: 1134
zarathustra: 562
StronginHim77: 453
free: 433
2013ways: 431
curious64: 408
Member Stats:
Guest Posters: 49
Members: 110949
Moderators: 5
Admins: 3
Forum Stats:
Groups: 8
Forums: 74
Topics: 38555
Posts: 714244
Newest Members:
MarriageResearch, Ailuros, pratavetra, jameshelen77, jasonbloom, brtechnosoft
Moderators: arochaIB: 1, devadmin: 9, Tincho: 0, Donn Gruta: 0, Germain Palacios: 0
Administrators: admin: 21, ShiningLight: 572, emily430: 29

Copyright © 2020 MH Sub I, LLC. All rights reserved.
Terms of Use | Privacy Policy | Cookie Policy | Health Disclaimer | Do Not Sell My Personal Information