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Depressed and fearful
June 24, 2009
5:50 pm
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I'm not suicidal anymore..I know the value of life now but I've still got depression bouts every now and then. I was going to call the suicide hotline again and ask them for non emergency numbers but probably thought better of it considering last year, I called them, threatened self harm and taunted the woman on the phone. Cops showed up, handcuffed me and searched my house. I could've been taken into a ward downtown if the lady I harassed had petitioned me. She didn't petition me but said basically never to call again or she may. So, I f'ed up there. October of last year, I was actually sent into a ward. Just not the crappy one downtown. No, no. This was more like a hotel. It had high security but the surroundings were just as nice as most hotels are. Fast forward to now. As I mentioned before, I value life MUCH more than I did 6 months ago. I know I can do things. I'm still young though and haven't had much of a chance to make money yet. If I kill myself will I ever know? No I won't. As Michael Jordan once said: I can accept failure but I can't accept not trying. Sure, I likely won't be a billionaire but few people are anyway and as I said, I can at least try. What's getting me down today is that I feel sort of unappreciated by the world. I've got Aspergers' syndrome, Ive got tourette's Syndrome, I've got Bipolar Disorder and I've got Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Also, I'm a male in what I percieve to be a manhating country. I don't hate women at all for the record. I used to but it only hurt me and I've since strayed from that ideology. I'm no better then ultra feminists if I think that way. I'd have become what i hate which is what you don't want to do. trust me. I know people love me and I like and appreciate that but..I don't know. I've just got my fears and what not. Personally, i don't care if I'm supposed to hold my feelings in because of my gender. I'll say what is on my mind. If people don't like it (and believe it or not they often don't mind) they can walk. I don't play games but if you don't play games either, I will love you. I don't take myself too seriously though. I laugh near everyday and believe that a day without laughter is a day wasted. If you read all of that, thank you. That was long-winded I suppose. But..yeah..

June 24, 2009
6:03 pm
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Hey Pistonsfaniversonsucks

I'm sorry to hear of the challengingties you have had. Each day is a journey , learn what you need to do to gat you well again.

In that process use some key rules
- Never do anything to hurt anyone
- Never let anyone do anything to hurt you

Keep that in mind as you go through this process.

In reading your note you say you say whats on your mind.

Thats good. But apply the rules above to that. If your saying something to explain to someone why something hurts you then do so in a way that doesn't hurt them. I know esaier said than done.

But we truly reap what we sow. If we a good to other people that goodness is fed back. If it isn't move on.

This is a journey where we all need help. You have some medical issues that certainely need a professional. Take care of yourself and use those resources. There is light at the end of the tunnel. Your job is to get you there.

Be good to you and be kind to others.

Good luck

June 24, 2009
6:10 pm
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FireFighter: Thanks man. I needed to hear that. If you are a firefighter, your cool in my book. I've heard precious few are selected in that field.

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