Hi...on my way..

He actually sounded posessed...I have never seen him this way...he is getting worse...he actually hit me and tried to bite me. He has NEVER done that to me. He screamed until he fell asleep! I have to get my "difficult child" book out. I never thought he would ever be difficult..but as he gets older..he's giving me a rough time.

You know what...I really feel it is because he still needs a nap. He doesn't take them anymore..when I took his crib out and put in a toddler bed..he would lay htere and lay there forever and not sleep..so I thought maybe he didn't need naps anymore. But, the fits he throws are outrageous.

He's really cute "now" because he's sleeping. My other son used to do that if he didn't eat good. The only thing that baffles me is that sometimes he'll wake up like that. After he has slept..and just go into a fit about nothing..and it goes from one thing to another..until I'm crazy. I give in sometimes..just because I'm exhausted, and sometimes I just don't fell it's worth the battle.

AAAHHHHH!!!! My neighbors could hear him....I'm so embarrassed!!!

Soul

Ok...the little guy has been an agel for a couple of days...thank god!!

He took a bath earlier..his 2nd bath today..and he's been running around for an hour..naked. I keep telling him we need to get his jams on him..and he keeps say "no mommy..not yet" It's pretty cute. Anyway, he's playing with The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles..figures. They are about 3 inches high..and they have little numchucks..hopefuuly you all know what I'm talking about. The little sticks with a rope or chain in the middle..It's a little ninja weapon. Well, they are about an inch and a half long, and they are plastic so they are stiff..not loose where the pretend rope is attaching them. So, they look like a little V. He comes up to me and say "look mom" he turns around and they are stuffed between his butt cheeks..in his little crack..and he's running around with them sticking out. These two little sticks..sticking out of his bottom. I wanted to take a picture..soooo bad, but my camara battery is dead. I told him not to jump around with them like that or we might have to take him to the er to have them removed. He took them out...Oh my gosh!!!!!I never laughed so hard!!

I haven't sahred any of these for a while..been wrapped up in my "crap" life..

So, little B is taking a cool bath..and he said "my toes are like brownies" I thought "huh" I realized he meant "prunies"...because of the wrinkles..

He is constantly saying funny things..I need to keep writing them..so I have them later..to remind me of how sweet he is.. 🙂

Hey..Ready..gosh..I feel like i havent' really talked here..for months. The last couple of weeks have seemed like an eternity..I don't really even remember them!! It's like I dreamt it all.

B get sentanced 7-12..I'm not looking forward to the day..and in a way..I'm glad it will be over. He has a 2nd trial sched for october..and then..he's done.they will send him to prison. It just doesn't seem real..

I haven't been the greatest mother lately..I'm struggling with feeling happiness, and not taking how I feel out on my kids. It's so hard..and the guilt..is too much to handle.

Love Soulsister

Ok..my little guy is painting..he said "mom, I'm in my bruders tummy" I said, "how did you get in there?" He said, "I flyed in there" (this is what he's painting..By the way)Then he said "My bruders carrying me" and "this is his hair" the whole water color painting is purple and teal..hmmm..what an imagination...

They are so cute..aren't they..well mine is when he's the angel..not the demon. I just love listening to him try to say things now..his voice is so cute..and sweet.

Thank you Smarterone..

When July 12th comes along..I'm sure..you'll see me around a lot. Needing support..that is when he get's sentanced. He is appealing some of the charges. Have you ever heard of the "Aggrivating factor"?? Well, the jury..after deliberating..were asked to vote on "the aggrivating Factor" I guess it means the judge doesn't have to follow the sentancing guidelines. Well, B was in stripes.chains and shackels..and the jury were not instructed to do this..before deliberating. So, B seems to think, his appearance..is a violation of his constitutional rights..being that it shows an admission of guilt, that he couldn't be in plain clothes..when the jury were voting.

They voted for the aggrivating factor..so...he could get a lot of time..even though..this is his first conviction..ever.

He seems to really like all of this law stuff..He said..if his idiot lawyer can do this..he sure could. B a lawyer..gosh..that would be so wierd. He's actually, smart enough..

Anyway..I'm going on and on...

Soul

I'm feeling really good today..I can't believe how "down" I was yesterday. Sheesh..I get out of control sometimes..with my feelings..

Anyway..

He was in street clothes..during the trial..but..after delberation..they brought him back in stripes...and the jury was asked then..to vote on the "aggrivating factor" oh..and also, before the vote..they brought up his original charges. Possession..unlawful entry into a vehicel..and theft. Even though his friend who's car it was wrote a letter on B's behalf stating that he had permission to take a part off of his car...and the theft and unlawful entry were f-m dismissed..the DA still was allowed to present it before the vote. He has not gone to trial..on the posession part..which has not been dismissed. It's just so unfair..

I do believe it is very unfair...I'm not looking forward to 7-12..If it's bad..it will effect so many lives. His little boy's most of all, Mine, too, and of course..his.

I have heard similar things...about them making deals..DA's and the court appointed attorney's. If it's bad..I WILL get an Attorney..and appeal it..It should be fair..I know..he deserves some punishment..but it should just be fair. We'll see...

Soul