Avatar
Please consider registering
guest
sp_LogInOut Log In sp_Registration Register
Register | Lost password?
Advanced Search
Forum Scope


Match



Forum Options



Minimum search word length is 3 characters - maximum search word length is 84 characters
sp_TopicIcon
Calling Out Rouxlady
January 12, 2007
10:04 pm
Avatar
bevdee
Member
Members
Forum Posts: 259
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

Hey GG-

My internet has been going in and out, because of the high winds and rain in my area.

I was able to read the book thread.I was awed by the honesty you all shared. I know how difficult it can be to bring forth those painful memories. I stood up and clapped, Rouxlady.

January 12, 2007
10:09 pm
Avatar
ggfred4
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

thanks...I think I tried hard because I was trying to encourage army...It has helped that I have been to online coda meetings...but afterwards, I think..geez, everyone can read this....sometimes I forget...

January 12, 2007
10:14 pm
Avatar
bevdee
Member
Members
Forum Posts: 259
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

GG-

Oh I think everyone was cheering you all on.

I was impressed with your honesty and your courage, not before the AAC, but to yourself.

January 12, 2007
10:21 pm
Avatar
ggfred4
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

thanks tumper...I am trying so hard to change...but sometimes i feel like I am not going anywhere...

January 12, 2007
10:24 pm
Avatar
bevdee
Member
Members
Forum Posts: 259
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

I think we all feel like that at different times. Be gentle with yourself.

January 12, 2007
10:26 pm
Avatar
ggfred4
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

thanks my friend...are you working this weekend? Do you have plans to get out of the house?

January 12, 2007
10:38 pm
Avatar
bevdee
Member
Members
Forum Posts: 259
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

GG-

I feel like I would love to go somewhere, but this afternoon, I did an inventory of my freezer, and fridge. I had to stop and get tp and diet sodas because we are expecting ice after midnight tonight. There is ice in Fort Worth, Wichita Falls, Lubbock and Amarillo.

If it is as bad as they predict, I will be stuck here, possibly with no power. I have candles and the neighbors across the road have offered to let me hook up to their generator, if need be.

We'll see. I will hate to lose my internet.

January 12, 2007
11:20 pm
Avatar
ggfred4
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

I saw that on the weather...It will get down here Mon. I think...I am going to Baton Rouge tomorrow to see my son...don't feel like traveling, but I need to see him...will be back Sun. afternoon

January 12, 2007
11:36 pm
Avatar
bevdee
Member
Members
Forum Posts: 259
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

GG

I hope you have a nice visit. I am hoping I get iced in - you see how much a hermit I am. But if I do - it means I get paid not to work.

Have a great time!! Will you have to ride in the back seat?

January 12, 2007
11:58 pm
Avatar
ggfred4
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

No, I sit in the front, with the seat all the way back because I can't bend my leg well...hopefully i will sleep...

glad you will get paid for not working...take care...gotta go for tonight...

January 13, 2007
11:50 pm
Avatar
ggfred4
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

hey bev, just have a sec to get on my parent's computer and wanted to say hi...I have been watching the weather and wondered how you were doing and if you were iced in...

January 13, 2007
11:53 pm
Avatar
bevdee
Member
Members
Forum Posts: 259
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

Hey

Yes, we are getting ice. So far, obviously, we still have power. I did not have to pull call today - they shut us down! I have cooked! And I have sat in front of this pc for the better part of 12 hours. I took 2 tests! I passed with high scores on both.

I am liking this being iced in, but the dogs are bout to drive me crazy - they already have cabin fever.

You having a nice visit?

January 14, 2007
12:30 am
Avatar
ggfred4
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

Congratulations on your high scores, smart girl!!!

Visit okay...enjoyed being with my son...

What did you cook, tumper?

January 14, 2007
12:38 am
Avatar
bevdee
Member
Members
Forum Posts: 259
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

GG

Thanks for the congrats. Ok - first I made chicken and...tumplings. Then I threw some sausages in the crock pot with bbq sauce. I did some dirty rice (from the box). So, I will have food if I lose power. I also boiled some eggs so I can make some chicken salad - I'm trying to plan ahead.

I'm happy to hear you had a nice visit with your son.

January 14, 2007
11:21 am
Avatar
ggfred4
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

Well, I would call you "Little Ms. Organized Tumper", but that is too long!!! The food sounds wonderful too.

Yes, I enjoyed the visit; just love my son so much...He is so considerate.

The hard point that I haven't mentioned: my son lives with my parents while he is finished college...so that means I am staying with my parents...which means I am uncomfortable and can't relax the time I am here...too many memories...no one in my family knows my secrets...so I feel very alone when I am here...I try to make the best of it, but just want to go home...

January 14, 2007
12:04 pm
Avatar
bevdee
Member
Members
Forum Posts: 259
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

Rouxlady-

For all my planning, I still had to go to the store! Six miles, but the roads are not bad yet. It is raining and getting colder. Still.

When will you get to go home? I have never been abused by a family member, so I can only imagine how difficult that must be, keeping that inside.

January 14, 2007
4:05 pm
Avatar
ggfred4
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

I am home now tumper...feel like I can breathe....

gotta get things organized here now, at least what I can do....be careful!

January 14, 2007
9:17 pm
Avatar
bevdee
Member
Members
Forum Posts: 259
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

Hi GG

Wondering how you are feeling today, after visiting with your mother.

My internet has been in and out. I have been using the time to do some soul-scraping. So I have been crying and cleaning!

January 14, 2007
9:49 pm
Avatar
ggfred4
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

Surviving here, thinking, wishing I could just forget...I wish I would have never remembered...makes things uncomfortable...the secret...lonely...

anyway, are you okay?

January 14, 2007
10:02 pm
Avatar
bevdee
Member
Members
Forum Posts: 259
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

GG- yes I am ok - my crying actually helps me. It's trying to hold it in that causes problems.

This ....discomfort that you feel- is there any way that you can think to express yourself to your mother? Or to your dad?

Maybe just writing one of those letters- that- will-never-be-sent? Just to get it all out? That is a suggestion for folks in therapy when an abusive parent has died, I believe.

You could write the letter, and it might be different than an actual discussion with your mother, because when it gets too painful, you may walk away. Open it later. Continue at your own pace.

I'm not a therapist, but mine suggested writing the letters and not sending them - boy I wrote a bunch of them. I still do - that letter writing really helps me.

January 14, 2007
11:07 pm
Avatar
ggfred4
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

No way about expressing it! I just have to survive it, but it seems to be getting harder and harder...

will consider the letter though...thank you

January 15, 2007
4:36 pm
Avatar
bevdee
Member
Members
Forum Posts: 259
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

GG

I wanted to send you warm, positive thoughts today. I know how upsetting it can be to visit parents.

No work today, because of icy roads. After I puttered around for a bit, exhaustion set in, so I crawled back in bed and slept the day away.

January 15, 2007
6:25 pm
Avatar
ggfred4
New Member
Members
Forum Posts: -1
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

bev, wow, a day of sleep!!! The front finally came through and it is cold here, but not as cold as you have it.

Thanks for the positive thoughts, that was sweet...

I did a lot of school stuff today and basically that was it.

Oh, I found my coda book and meant to read it today, but didn't feel like reading...I have got to get out of this slump. I go to Houston again this Friday and am hoping for some positive news and a release to go back to work...and no, I am not walking yet...but, two more p.t. sessions until the doc, maybe???

January 15, 2007
6:46 pm
Avatar
bevdee
Member
Members
Forum Posts: 259
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

GG-

Congratulate yourself on the accomplishment of finishing the schoolwork.

You done good.

January 19, 2007
3:33 pm
Avatar
bevdee
Member
Members
Forum Posts: 259
Member Since:
September 30, 2010
sp_UserOfflineSmall Offline

Rouxlady-

How you holdin up? I hope the doc appt went well today.

Forum Timezone: UTC -8
Most Users Ever Online: 349
Currently Online:
35
Guest(s)
Currently Browsing this Page:
1 Guest(s)
Top Posters:
onedaythiswillpass: 1134
zarathustra: 562
StronginHim77: 453
free: 433
2013ways: 431
curious64: 408
Member Stats:
Guest Posters: 49
Members: 111046
Moderators: 5
Admins: 3
Forum Stats:
Groups: 8
Forums: 74
Topics: 38581
Posts: 714356
Newest Members:
juliaopty, uoi, jamescortes, rickymorgan3165, anna11, Wanoh94103
Moderators: arochaIB: 1, devadmin: 9, Tincho: 0, Donn Gruta: 0, Germain Palacios: 0
Administrators: admin: 21, ShiningLight: 572, emily430: 29

Copyright © 2020 MH Sub I, LLC. All rights reserved.
Terms of Use | Privacy Policy | Cookie Policy | Health Disclaimer | Do Not Sell My Personal Information