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May 2, 2001
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Whoa. You must've posted right before I did Alena. I've taken a creative writing class in college. It was ok, and I would be lying if I said I had no stories to tell. I have even tried to get a big story out, but I can't seem to get it started. I have 3 paragraphs done and I don't know why I wrote them. They have almost nothing to do with what I want to write.

The friend I have now wants to team up with me to make short movies for the internet in the next few weeks. Of course there is that problem that he could become upset with me for some frivolous reason and call the whole thing off at any time. He gets very quirky for the strangest reasons. But, it's something I think I can do... and I really don't want to close the book on my last friend myself. I know that I'm probably setting myself up to take a big fall when he gets tired of me, but I can't just cut off my last connection.

May 2, 2001
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OK silence,
You're a guy. I'm a girl. There's a big difference. Before I didn't understand why I didn't connect with guys. Then I lived with guys and one creep my senior year. He totally invaded my privacy and listened a lot, like a total creep. Anyways, so the feeling that I have is miserable, it's not pleasure in any way. When I look at someone sexually, it usually isn't you're hot, it's more I don't want to talk to you cause I'm so INSECURE so I'll just scare you off by looking at your penis or boobs. Yeah, call me freak, that's ok, I think I"m going crazy and I'm on meds. Go figure, --water--

May 3, 2001
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Silence,

I'm sory, I didn't read the last post, until after I had posted it. I respect all beliefs whether different than or similar to mine. But, I still care about what you're going through. You seem like someone whose life is so full of potential. Don't let these people make you sell yourself short. I always say that it's better to be alone than in bad company. All throughout my school years, I had one real friend and to this day, we are still in touch (since kindergarten). I'm saying all of this to say that there is hope. You must find people with something in common with u not people who have personalities similar to those who have hurt you. This christmas I had a "friend" to tell me that he couldn't stand me and was only hanging around me because I had a car. My reply was just "okay think what you'd like." Then the next time he called on me for anything, I made it a point not to bethere for him. In fact, I have even gone as far as to cut him out of my life. silence, life is too short to waste on loosers. I understand what you're going through, I've been there too and from one victim to another it will be all right.

PG Lova

If you ever need someone to talk to, you can always e-mail me. I'm here for you. As Tupac said "keep your head up, things are going to get easier."

For Water:

It's just called human nature. Don't allow it to make you feel demon possessed. It began with Adam and Eve in the garden. The urge is there in every human being, the Bible said be fruitful and multiply. But, if you can control that urge nothing is wrong. Remember temptation is not the sin, the sin is yielding to that temptation.

God Bless U

May 3, 2001
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Hi again guy,

Re-reading your stuff kind of reminded me of a time in my life that I must have intentionally forgotten. Kinda neat how our brains pull these survival moves on us.

There was a time before I married when all my school chums had gone off to college or married and I remember that during the week I could consume myself in my job and my studies, went to bed early, but the weekends, what a killer they were. I had gone with the same guy all through high school and broke up shortly after graduation. I felt distant and seperated from other guys, didn't want to know any of them, lost alot of my friends, and so I spent Saturdays and Sundays just bouncing off the walls, driving around by myself, so friggin alone. Being alone too much does a real number on your
self-esteem. I rambled around like this for about a year. A very lonnng year.
And then, there's the being-with-someone loneliness. I don't know which is worse. But been there too.
You can be sitting next to your significant other and feel like you are miles apart. Loneliness sucks no matter what the circumstances.

The internet movies sounds like an interesting adventure. If you know that your friend could lose it at any moment, then prepare for it. Keep a safe mental distance. But I do think when you are in a position to meet other folks, do try to lean towards the ones who make you feel good, and comfortable. The ones who require alot of maintenance and stroking, and who could blow at any time, ...I'd try to stay away from. Life IS too short, and we all need a "peace" in our lives and usually friends offer that.

Take it one day at a time though. I think the writing thing with you is pretty obvious and it would be a shame for you to throw away your talent because you are distracted. Just write what's in your head. Sort it all out when you feel in the sortin' mood. But getting it down is the important part. I like reading your writing. Hey, try running your writings passed us on this list.

I write poetry and short stories but I have to be in the mood, then I can't stop the thoughts from jumping out of my fingers.But I can also go for months in a total desert-dry spell.

Now go write.......

November 11, 2001
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OK. this is for BlondieNYC, so I don't have to type it all out again. Talk about laziness... It's too much effort for me to even try copy-paste.

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