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9:54 am
September 29, 2010
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(((GG)))
I will never forget you!!! How could I forget one of the triplets who I worry about? Puhlease!!! I value you and will miss you. I will count the seconds to your return. I will do the same for Mich. I would do the same for LL and Need too. You are a very important part of my life. Please KNOW that.
Love,
Cyn
9:59 am
September 29, 2010
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GG- you are so darn cute-like any of us would just forget you...or really could forget you : )
Wow the twins just may be gone at the same time-to go and get fixed up. Now wouldn't that be something. Neither of you will be forgotten, infact my world wouldn't be the same here without either of you. I'll be so sad : (
And heck GG while you're gone I'll keep busy planning your welcoming home party. There won't be a day that'll pass that I won't be thinking of you....and your triplet- who is going to be taking care of her during this time- Cyndra we may just have to get comfortable with the huggy stuff : )
GG don't you worry- we all will still be here when you get back, and I can only speak for myself- but I doubt that much will have change in my life, so coming on my end - it won't seem like much has change around here.
Please let us be the least of your worry's....you need to get you healthy and strong...and say, won't you be home for like 5 weeks once you get out of the hospital???
10:03 am
September 29, 2010
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It would probably be pretty quiet, LL. Morning...Thanks for being there for me last night. I was such a mess, not that I am too much better today, but I guess, I am truly at a loss for what to say right now.
10:03 am
September 29, 2010
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Mich,
I posted an apology to you on the thread I started. I'm really sorry I misunderstood what you were asking me.
I love you!!!
Cyn
10:04 am
September 29, 2010
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I read it and responded Cyn. You are ok. Please know that.
Mich
10:05 am
September 29, 2010
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Mich, when will you & hubby be talking to Jim..
10:06 am
September 29, 2010
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I wish I knew for sure...I can't talk at all right now, so it is probably going to have to wait a little while...I can't quit crying....I am not sure who is calling him either...I am hoping that he will.
10:08 am
September 29, 2010
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will today hold answers for you regarding getting additional help?
And you mentioned that you are on meds...and the meds aren't helping???
10:10 am
September 29, 2010
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I hope today holds some answers because I can't take this. Meds suck. I am taking 300mg of Wellbutrin, 50 mg of Zoloft, and xanax as needed. Do I think they are working? NO. I am a f*cking mess all of the time.
10:12 am
September 29, 2010
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If you are taking that amount of meds-and just meds in general- apparently it's time for a med change. How long have you been on this mix?
10:21 am
September 29, 2010
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Since my son was about 5 or six weeks old. So 7 or 8 weeks. I got VERy screwed up after having my son. Things went downhill in a hurry. And still are apparently...
I am surprised that you had no comment for how much quieter it would be around here if gg and I were both gone at the same time. HAHA
10:40 am
September 30, 2010
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mich, we have to coordinate this, ...I am hoping to be home Dec.3-4...I will be home going nuts all day for 5 weeks...(that is if they don't make me go to that rehabilitation hospital for 2 weeks, a possiblility, that I have refused to consider)...I am going to need someone here during the day to talk to!!!
Are you all really not going to forget me???I am serious...
mich,everything you say about the hottie sounds nice...I can tell he loves you, plus he is hot...I hope he supports you in what is needed for you...Mich, think of it this way,,,things can only get better by listening to Jim, right? You are seeking help, that is a sign...gosh, don't know what to say....just love you so much...
I want to be with you so much today...keep running here, i'll do paperwork later...you are worth it!!!
10:47 am
September 29, 2010
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Things will NOT be quieter with you and GG gone at the same time. I am not laughing!!!
Truthfully, I will miss seeing the two of you on here while you're gone and will be looking forward to your return.
Never think we wouldn't miss you or look forward to your being gone. Really,Mich!! *BONK*
If anything it will be WWWAAAYYY to quiet for my taste. LL and I aren't always that talkative. Poor Need will have to MAKE us talk!!!
Love,
Cyn
10:50 am
September 29, 2010
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oh Mich- you and GG would be so missed...gosh who the heck would I bonk on the head?! If I try that on Cyndra, I think she might grab it for me then turn it around and use it on me!
And yes, it would be quieter without you or GG here as you both add so much to my life. Can't think of a smart ass comment at the moment because it makes me a little sad to think that you two wouldn't be here for awhile- but yet I know that the reason why is for good reasons.
I was thinking about the post-baby depression and how that can kick stuff up...is this the first time you have done the med route? And have you had any blood levels draw yet regarding the meds?
11:03 am
September 29, 2010
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I think it came from my tubal, not having the baby. I have been on about EVERY antidepressant that you can think of starting at age 16. I just think that I am so f*cked up that meds aren't the answer in all honesty.
You know, last night while I was crying to my h, I asked him, what I did so wrong when I was little? I don't think that he had any clue of how totally screwed up I am until last night. He has NEVER heard me say those kinds of things. NEVER.
If I find out that I am going to go, can I get you to all do me a favor? As sad as this sounds. Can I get you all to post something to take with me when I am gone, that I can read EVERY day. Leaving you guys is honestly probably the hardest part of all of this for me. I feel safe here. I really do.
11:16 am
September 30, 2010
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Mch,I would gladly post this...but when will you know something? And do you have any idea how long you will be gone?
Until Nov.29th, I will only be away this Friday and Saturday...I am trying to coordinate mich and me in my mind here...
LL, I want you to bonk cyndra, cuz I want to watch her reaction...this could be fun...cyn, you crack me up???
Please mich, when you know something let me know...because I want to take my time with my post and I know i have to do it in a private place, because I have a feeling I am going to bawl like a big baby...
And mich, baby, the afghan is going with you...we will be with you...I LOVE YOU MICH, from the bottom of my heart....It is a good thing I live so far away, or I would leave now and go be with you....
11:18 am
September 29, 2010
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I wish you could gg. I wish that I had someone physically here to hold me right now, as this is a very painful time for me. As soon as I know anything I will let you know. I promise.
11:23 am
September 29, 2010
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Mich that is a wonderful idea...And we can do that for GG too.
And Mich- yes, yes, yes, about the tubal thing. I had that done at 21, and I really believed that it screwed me up. I've asked and asked my doctor about and he said that it didn't effect anything...I say bull crap. I never had pms before I had that done - and oh lord I could write a darn book on the misery of what it feels like being a woman with PMS - kid you not. The doc said the reason why the PMS garbage stepped up 20 notches (went from no pms to full blown) was because of having my third child. I don't believe it for a minute. That friend of mine who died by suicide last year....she swore the same thing happend for her...after having a tubal - everything went haywire. Granted she did have some childhood issues- but I believe that when something gets thrown off balance it effects the whole system.
I don't know...if there is in fact a connection somewhere or what happens to our hormones but I can't believe for a minute that having a tubal doesn't effect something other than not just being able to have babies.
At this point, the only thing that really, really, really helps me is exercise - would imagine that is because exercise releases the feel good hormones.
Hey we can start an exercising group... : ) man if that really does release the feel good hormones, could only imagine what the hell it would be like in here : ) we can get pretty squirrely without doing a thing!
11:24 am
September 29, 2010
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Mich,
I'd be joining GG in coming to your house except I'd give you the real afghan to take with you. I'd have to wash it first. That way you could have a physical manifestation of the love we all have for you.
Do I get to write something too or do you just want what I wrote on the other thread for you?
Love,
Cyn
11:27 am
September 29, 2010
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Whatever you want Cyn...I will take what you have already written as it is VERY special to me, BUT if you want to write something more, I would take that as well. All of the comfort that I could possibly get is good, and I wish that I had the afghan to take with me...TRULY.
12:00 pm
September 30, 2010
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HUGGING AND HOLDING YOU MICH!!!We will get through this all together...we are a sisterhood...we have bonded...now, I am thinking that the last two rough weeks were necessary to pull us closer to get ready for this Mich...did you think about that?...my gosh, did you all know that I have been sleeping the last 3 nights with women hugging close? (and I don't care if anyone out there reading that thinks it is perverted, because it is NOT, is it love, it is caring, it is HEALING, and I need it!) Mich, just think how close we have all become lately...that is to help you so that you know you will not be alone...I LOVE YOU MICH....please let me know something...
I HATE BEING SO FAR AWAY FROM ALL OF YOU!!!
12:25 pm
September 29, 2010
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Mich, Cyndra- where are you two?
1:07 pm
September 29, 2010
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I am here, what is up?
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