Hello. I dont really know why I am doing this. But it seems the last thing that i really can.

I fell in love with this person. She was the first and she wass my last. I have never thought of spending my life with anyone else. we were together for three years. We broke up once and i got really close to this other girl and i dated her. But it was obviously not serious so i had to end things with her. There was a time when i was with both of them at the sametime. So i confessed and i told my actual girlfriend that i basically cheated on her. She forgave me and we got back. Everyhting was normal until  3 months back. I dont know why but i got sidelined with this ither girl.We dint date. it was ust a couple of weird texts and thats it. It might look that i am horrible person but believe me i just screwed up. Now she has left me once and for all and i am dying. I love her I LOVE HER SO SO MUCH. What do i do? 🙁 Please help me.